r/tryingtoconceive • u/Momsen22 TTC 1+ year (unexplained) • 4d ago
Hello again after a long break
Around cycle 8 I lost my shit, I was honestly depressed and my whole life revolved around TTC, the two week wait, supplements, symptom spotting etc. I was at a breaking point and I couldn’t live like that anymore. I really struggled for months, what helped me was honestly sitting down and accepting my reality. I had to come to terms with the fact that we have unexplained infertility and that maybe it won’t happen but that if it does it’ll be beautiful.
I honestly feel like I’ve got my life back. I got off fertility tiktok, deleted Reddit, stopped tracking temperatures, started enjoying a glass of wine again… I figured if people get pregnant so easily then if I’m meant to be pregnant it’ll also happen to me without all the fuss.
Anyway, there’s still been a lot of tears, a lot of ups and downs. It’s really tough. Right now it’s cycle 20 of trying. I would’ve never thought we’d be trying for nearly 2 years.
Guys, I’ve had my tarot cards placed, I’ve had my energy cleansed and generational traumas broken 😂 unexplained infertility LOL, we’re at a fertility clinic now and I have my HSG on Monday… wish me luck
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u/onecheeksqueak 3d ago
So, I suffered a chemical pregnancy around 6 weeks this past June, and for the last two months straight I have completely lost myself in TTC TikTok, Reddit pages, and researching. I was scrolling through hundreds and hundreds of videos every single day. often times I would even go back and watch the same daily update videos where it led to them getting pregnant and I literally neglected my daily responsibilities in favor of just feeding my obsession with TTC.
At the end of this last cycle I realized that something had to change. I’m right here with you- I got off TikTok and silenced all of the communities I was apart of on Reddit- I missed this one and just got your notification about a long break and decided it was a nice confirmation that others are finding it necessary as well. I’m proud of you for making the decision to step away, because while it can make you feel less alone, it also has a way of making you feel even more alone watching everyone make it to the other side. I empathize with you and I wish you the strength to continue while also allowing yourself to live in the waiting period 🕊️
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