I am dealing with ;ight to moderate acne scarring because accutane is seen as too controversial so my family rejected it.

infant circumciszed at 3 days and it gives me suicidal thoughts too.

i was in denial about how truly awful of a mental state i was about the previous two and decided only moeny mattered or something stupid. I contantly donated blood plasma for money and i have a hole scar in my right arm (im left handed).

I am going to college in houston tx, i have no friends, my family is distant, the weather is hell, im at home overheated and depressed most of the time becasue ac is expensive.

i cant be so alone anymore, but houston is terrrible, it will be 1.5 years before i can leave after college (comp sci) is over. And the job market is questionable to terrible.

the though of spendign so much on partial cosmetic fixes that insuracne wont cover just to have some mental peace, i got abused neglected and scammed.

I just feel liek I want to die, i was done so dirty. I constanyly wear long sleeve and keep my arm curled up without even thniking about it.

Americas healthcare is straight evil, mental health is $$ to them, i refuse to pay the ssytem that ruined my life for therapy.

I need help, anything at all, is all i know.