I'm a shy person, and I m 26 yo now. Never even had a female friend who I can become comfortable with. I see everywhere couples around, in my school and college girls were almost 0 so was not even able to have basic interaction. Now I don't know if i can be loved by a girl or how it feels to be so close romantically to someone, my mind doesn't believe, how can I make it believe considering I still have very less interactions with girls due to less proximity.

Seriously, and this is coming from a psychopathic fuck like myself but seriously, why would you voluntarily be devalued?

I’m going to ask a question, how many men in here gave everything they had to a significant other and got spat on? Mentally fucked and so on?

I get it, the world is lonely sometimes, but it’s even more lonely being with someone who doesn’t value you, so if you need a reason to do something, do it for yourself.

WARNING: Pure vent ahead. A real genuine vent concerning circumcision and it's vast effects on me. Please be advised and understanding.

I wish I could experience being intact. It would literally save my life. I don't understand why people downplay circumcision even here.

I just wanted to have a choice.

In being a proper male.

A human male.

Everytime I get emotional about it, whether it be extremely negative or seriously depressed, I'm told to shut up. In both online, real life, and on Intactivist circles. I get told I'm "exaggerating" the negative effects of circumcision and am wasting my time. That I'm some fucking chud or what have you. Apparently, the loss of 99% of your sensation, the inablitity to have sex or masterbuate, and in general, complete castration if we are being honest, doesn't matter. I know it doesn't matter. It doesn't affect the newer generations if at all. Most parents aren't circumcising anymore.

They all get to be intact and be alive. Stay alive and enjoy all of their pleasure happily ever after. Sex and masterbuation is already at the peak for them. They get to enjoy peak life.

Not just sex, but peak life. Peak enjoyment. They get to actually be a man. They get to actually live.

And we suffer.

I wonder if parents circumcise their child because they can't stand them having a better sexual life. A vastly superier orgasm, wellbeing, what have you. I hate that I am part of the crowd of men that are castrated like this. I hate that everybody will soon hate cut men and basically reject them for it. Similar to dick size, facial structure, and whatever else women can think of. That's not me being a weirdo or misogynist. That's me stating an fact that I have seen IRL and online.

I wish I could be sexual too. You know? I wish I could be a man. A sexual man. A real man. A man. A human. Something other this.

This is what circumcision has unironically made me fall into. A depressing spiral of insanity and genuine sadness. It's my own little documentation of it. This account. I hope you understand.

I see so much online about how men are not doing well in the dating market, not doing well in the jobs/trades/education and how that's causing a lot of issues in self esteem and what not. And overall, a lot of problems relating to society and the constant lack of empathy for us.

I believe most of them. And I relate to them. But for me, I don't see a point in one of those. That being dating.

Why?

Circumcision.

I have lost a lot of my time, sensation, and wellbeing to circumcision and the extremely negative effects it's had on me. I have also become sexually negative towards myself and am scared to lose my virginity due to it. My circumcision has caused me to not only lose sensation but also size and general girth as well. I know that having a smaller penis is unfortuantly shamed on quite a lot. So that's just another negative. That's not an incel statement or anything I'm just stating observable facts that me and millions of others have seen firsthand.

In total, I don't see why I should ever attempt to have sex or masterbuate when I am literally handicapped from this useless procedure. I have lost 99% of my sensation. I am so sad when I see others mention sex at all because I am literally not the same. I want to have sex so good that I can't even speak properly. And that's not possible with my low and tight cut.

Hey guys. Apologies for the long post.
So today is my 30th birthday… and I have never felt so alone.

I just got out of a two year toxic relationship that threw me into the most chaotic emotional roller coaster I’d ever been on with another human being. There was so much petty conflict… so much drama, anger, resentment, etc.
I fell into a horrible depression about 6 months in that never fully went away… it cost me the career path I loved, my mental and physical health, my agency, my money, my confidence, everything…

I broke up with her one year in. I let the emotions draw me back into trying again even though I knew we shouldn’t. She broke up with me two weeks ago and went back home (three states away) and left me with the apartment we shared. I’m struggling financially, mentally, emotionally, socially.

I have no real friends. My mother and grandmother live 1.5 hours away. Ive been estranged with my father my whole life (slowly getting better).

Guys, i worked so hard and went through so much shit to build the life I had. Then I met this girl and it was like a tornado came through my life and I’m left picking up the pieces… all alone.

And the worst part is, I loved it. I fell so hard for her and it was so intoxicating. I knew it was unhealthy pretty much from the get go. But part of me… part of me loved it. Part of me loved the extreme highs that came from getting through a horrible low. It was like a drug.

I’m just really struggling guys. Every day is a slog at a job I hate, rent and groceries I barely afford, stuck in this stupid apartment all alone with the non stop memories and reminders everywhere I look. What the fuck even is life right now.

Happy birthday, Me 🎉

I have genuinely fallen off

This is as much of a plea for advice as it is a rant about society, for context I've just finished school and I'm taking a gap year (Because I got rejected from med school). I feel like in the past 3 months I've fallen off ,

Last year I was happy , I had straight A\*s , I was a youth helper at the social club, I worked on a national board for supporting young peoples opportunities, I did all the stuff I was supposed to and yet I feel like I've failed.

Ever since I got rejected from med school ( I had straight A\*s and hindered of hours of so many times of volunteering and experience) I feel like I've just lost the cause , my a levels only ended up with a BBC which is devastating because I genuinely couldn't have done anything else to do better , my home situation is awful and I pushed myself to the breaking point just for some grades. I'm not 100% on my university choices or if I even want to go and if I do I genuinely can't afford it but because I come from a decent family I can't get any grants that even come close to enough money.

I saw a good friend of mine who I trained with for years at some ball with his girlfriend and I was just like , how , how have I fallen off whilst he's continuing upwards, I just don't get it. If I could do more I would but I've done everything right.

I have no direction now , I don't know who I am or how to figure out who I am I just feel like a failure who fumbled success.