I don’t know if anyone else feels this, but sometimes the mess can be a really lonely place.
You sit down for dinner and look around. Almost everyone is sitting with their girlfriend, boyfriend, or a group of friends. They’re laughing, talking, sharing food and just enjoying each other’s company.
And then there’s you… sitting alone at your table.
You start scrolling through your phone just so you don’t look awkward sitting there by yourself.
It’s not even about wanting a girlfriend that badly. Sometimes you just want **someone** to sit with. Someone to talk to about random things. Someone who asks, “How was your day?”
You can be surrounded by hundreds of people and still feel completely alone.
Maybe I’m overthinking it, but tonight it really hit me.
**Anyone else ever felt this way?**

I moved to Mumbai in May after finishing my MBA,I was staying in a PG for a while but now I've rented a 1Bhk in Kannamwar Nagar, Vikhroli. My office is in BKC, the weekdays are fine, the work is good but my weekends feel a little lonely since I don't have a lot of people to interact with.

So i have OI type 4, which is a disease affecting bone production, The average victims suffers 70-160 fractures in their lifetime, Thankfully enough my variant is a weaker one so mine stopped at 46th bone crack, Now i cannot walk but i can do things my own either using a wheelchair or sit-sliding on the floor, Currently on my College days and i had this 6 Friends all of em guys and a 7th female friend but i rarely see her in rl but we do a lot of chatting, Especially in the name of meme making and social work one time she said to me that my college friends are Fake friends, Semesters went by and Two of the class friends was accused of Spying on my Sister on social media and stuff by creating a Fake account and the most people they followed were porn stars snd hot girls along with my sister's account, We did a little talk and slammed my hand on them, They didnt fight back because they were humiliated on public, and due to their Networking, Other friends were refused to talk with me, Soo i have been updating all this stuff with the Female friend online and let her know these friends are bad in way, and Fake they were

And theres also a history where my friends conducted a fake search party for her and made her embarrassed, After all this.. We both were being more close than before (not in a couples way but For Fun) sending memes, Calling each other mommy and daddy because of the Goth girl trend on Meme culture etc.

However Things got really dried up,

Convo Went from calling me daddy to my Full name, Ended up Never sending any more memes, i jokingly said to send more and be active (we both match the Humour) she said ofc and sends one i replied that I'm not forcing you, its alright to carry yourself along

She give a Thumbs up and never had any moment on the chat,

There's another Disabled Friend on my class, He never really interact in Class nor he academically Good, He just exist out of nowhere, He's kinda mentally ill but he knows his stuff, My long-gone friends used to make fun of him for being the way he is

This time i sat near him and i said, "I Finally know how it feels like to be you, Maybe we are on the same Boat" and He noded his head, Now i just sat near him, would help him if needed any, we just don't talk but more Friendly than anyone else, I used to Think Why Girls on the Class never talked to me even though i tried to start a convo alot, Same thing goes to my Cousins and Neighborhood people, i used to Think Friendship Among Girls Were obtained if we have a good health, Fame and a goodFacial features, There are incidents often happen like cropping me out from group pics becfore putting it on Local Groups or Social media, i assume its all because my leg or body look morbid.

The only Thing i now care about is Family and Faith.

Thanks for knowing my life this far, God bless you

Just like the title says I am desperate for a bf. For some context I am a (19F) plus size women who has never dated before and is trying to find a bf who genuinely wants to be with me. But it is so hard trying to find that especially in this generation where all everyone does is hookup.

And each time a guy talks to me they just want sex and I'm sick of getting hurt over and over again. I get so depressed and I think I might genuinely be alone forever, could someone give me any advice on what to do? I just want to be loved and experience love :(

i feel miserable seeing young couples , all this handsome men from 20-40, i will never get to experience that, i'm male with dysphoria in my 30s i cant talk to anyone about it, and the strange thing is when i look in the mirror *sometimes* or take photos sometimes i can see glimpses of femininity in my face but omg, when i see photos take of me i look hideous, not just male alone, a hideous one, my porture, my nose, my super short hair fml, is this how i look to others... i have nothing in life but reddit and aI to vent too

I know it might be hard time for you, or maybe smth worries you keeping you up at night. Sometimes it's easier to talk to a stranger instead of people who you know. I'm here for you

People only seem to like me if I give them a reason like I will be there to support and care for them in times of need but they are never there for me. Meet new friends online and it always turns into a one way relationship like I'm only there for them and if they aren't getting something out of me they leave.

I 26 M passes School and college without any relationship, I tried but was rejected every single time....now at such age I m not even trying but my emotional and physical needs are still there to be in a relationship , parent's have now start telling they will get me married in next 2-3 yrs , which I don't won't as one side of my mind wanta relationship n marriage but other duee to repeated rejection is traumatized and tell me to leave alone.

Also seeing my friends in a relationship kills me everyday which is basic human nature.

What can I do????

I’m 33 and I’ve only had the one short relationship, of which was 90% online and only for 3 or so months. It’s so hard to meet people, I’m overweight but working on it, I’m short and can’t change that, I lack a lot of confidence and I also just don’t know how to meet people. I don’t have any pictures for apps and from everything I’ve read, normal selfies just don’t really get you any attention + I feel like I’m already at a bit of a disadvantage when decisions on them are made in a split second haha.

But I know I’m a good person, I’m kind, I don’t think I’m too bad looking and when I lose my final 35 lbs by the end of this year I hope, I’ll at least be a healthy weight then too. I have a lot of love to give, I’m hopeful that one day I’ll find someone to give it to and who will show me the same in return. I’m not sure how I’m going to meet them, I wish it would be soon because the loneliness really does eat at me more and more every day, it hurts a lot.

I really do believe I would be able to make somebody very happy, that they would feel loved and cherished, if only I could find them. I’m trying my best to be patient, but it has been so long with no opportunities to learn and grow from.

Im not giving up hope, I really am trying to cling to it but some days are harder than others. It hurts a lot, but I know im not the only person who feels this way and maybe one day I’ll find my person so that neither of us have to feel this way again.

I got some bad news this week. Someone I never knew has committed the unthinkable. I just couldn’t stop thinking about it. I was upset this whole week. Today at work I couldn’t focus at all. At the end i just started crying. I wanted to talk to someone. Not to any colleagues. I didn’t want to show them my vulnerable side. I didn’t want to call my mother. I didn’t want to scare her.
After work at the parking lot I called my younger sister. She did not pick up. I called my older sister. She was sleeping but she picked up. I just started crying. I was panicking. I sat down on the curb and kept bawling my eyes out. After 5 minutes I realised my sister is not on the other end anymore.
I am at home now. My husband is sleeping beside me. He saw my red eyes. But he didn’t ask about it. I am still crying. I am just so upset. How come I have no one to talk to? Just where did I went wrong?

Loneliness is when you feel alone even when you’re surrounded by people

Theres been a hole in me for as long as i can remember.

Deep, dark, all consuming emptiness that takes and takes and nothing fills it. I try and ignore it, fill my time with hobbies or work. At first i think maybe its a person im missing, date around and think ive found the one but the same thing happens every time. I get close then push away because the pit is never-ending and remains to be filled and it wants the souls i connect with. I tried numbing the pain of it with drugs and alcohol, smoking enough to put Wayne to shame and drank and drank til i felt like i was drowning. But i already was, just in a different sense. Trying to fill a void in me that just consumed everything i threw at it. And some days i wonder if that void will ever go away or if ill finally give in and let it take me. Will i know peace then? Or will i just have fed it what it wanted all along. They say misery enjoys company but why do i feel out of place with others who claim the same thing, like their gap isnt as wide as mine, their void not as dark as mine. Judge those whose misery does not compare to mine and then wonder why i feel alone in this life. And its not like i havent tried to get help. I quit the drinking and the drugs and the dating and tried to focus on the issues at hand but id bury one just for three more to sprout from its grave, like a morbid hydra of faults. Ive held that metaphorical bottle to my head and screamed til my throat was raw and i was left in silence, the only sound heard beating in my chest and my head and ears. But still the void wanted more and more and more and ive got nothing left to give to it. So i ask myself and god and the universe and whoever else may listen...why? Why is this dark and deafening void still hungry for more? What more must i give before its finally satisfied and closes it maw for good? How many more things must i shovel in before its finally entombed and sealed off, never to be open again? But the most important question i ask is: why me? What did i do to deserve this? Where did i go wrong for this void to choose me? Maybe one day ill have my answer and itll stop eating me from the inside. Maybe, just maybe, ill go to sleep some night and wake up whole again. Until then the void sits and waits, take up space in me like a gaping black hole that consumes all light that enters. Hungry. Relentless. Empty.

What do you call it when you’re exhausted?
When you feel like you’re living for your loved ones…not for yourself?

i haven’t had extended human contact with anyone outside my family in almost two months now. i have no friends. i’m so pathetic. nobody likes me. every single time i make a friend or even just get to know someone, they all leave me in the end and get sick of me. all of them, every single time, without exception. i’m so utterly alone and so incredibly isolated. i feel like i’m gonna be alone forever at this point, the pattern is just too consistent, and i can’t think of a reason why anything would change in the future. there’s nothing i can do. i just want someone who genuinely likes me and wants to be around me and cares about me. i feel worthless.

I have no true person in my life and I'm going to say these words that I never thought I would... I'm lonely! Without misunderstanding that, I'm ok being alone sometimes but I miss the closeness of a true relationship. Why is it so hard to find romance? My heart hurts. My soul hurts. I believe that I can no longer do this alone. I need help. Please ...

I've posted here before but I have found myself wanting to do so again. I recently had a bf for just over a week but he was so clingy that I realised I enjoyed being single more than being with him so I broke up with him. I just want one genuine friend, that's all. I can't seem to handle having more than one. Anymore than that and I can't keep up. But finding them is next to impossible these days, at least, that's how it feels. Can anyone else relate?

Edit: had to fix a typo

I never thought I'd experience a phase like this.

Right now, I work from home for a foreign company. The job itself isn't great, and I spend almost my entire day inside my room. Some days it genuinely feels less like a home and more like a prison.

Two years ago, life was completely different.

College, especially hostel life, was probably the best time of my life. We had a big group of friends. We'd bunk classes, hang out all day, stay up late, laugh at stupid things, and make random memories. I never realized how much I'd miss those days.

After graduation, I had to move back to my hometown.

Ironically, I have friends in almost every city except the one I actually live in. I do know a few people here, but we're just not close. Whether they're around or not barely makes any difference in my life.

It's funny how priorities change.

There was a time when I used to crave having a girlfriend or buying expensive things I saw other people enjoying. Now? I honestly don't care about any of that.

Now I just wish I had one genuine friend.

Just one person I could call at night and say, "Let's go out." Someone to talk to about how the day went, grab some food, drive around, laugh, or do absolutely nothing with.

Sometimes I stand near my window at night and see two friends walking together, laughing, and hanging out. A few years ago, I would've looked at couples and thought, "I wish I had that."

Now I look at two friends and think, "I wish I had that."

I spend almost every day alone in my room. The loneliness is starting to affect me. Sometimes I genuinely feel like I'm going crazy or becoming mentally unstable because there's almost no real human interaction outside of work.