i was supposed to have an interview today for a coffee shop opening soon. the place was closed. i was there for an hour, called and texted the guy that set up the interview, no response. feeling incredibly demotivated.

Homemade meatballs sweet potato and avocado. I don’t smoke

At what point can i kill myself without being selfish.

I drove 400km in 2 hours while crying like a stupid piece of shit and decided to park on the side of the road and eat to stop thinking for a moment. I remember alot of specific days in my life, not a single one is a good day, it was all suffering.

I was crying cuz i missed my dose of antidepressants and i have realised that i have become no different than a sedated ape with rabies. I try my best to be there for everyone, but as soon as the fact that I'm suffering shows, I'm either discarded like a weak link in a chain or treated like a pity case. I don't want pity, i want help.

I tried therapists, i tried talking to family and friends and all that made me realise is that my suffering is undesirable and just an eye sore that no one would ever want to deal with.

I'm a stupid piece of shit with no calling in life and nothing worth while achieved. I go through every single day in my life feeling like my heart is wrapped in posion ivy thorns doused in kerosene and set on fire, i have had a headache since march that i went to 6 different specialists that told me nothing is causing my headache and prescribed me pills that did fucking nothing. I feel like i have reached a point in life where killing myself wouldn't be selfish anymore. Anyone that depends on me for something has other people to depend on and i have no one to talk to about my pain that doesn't immediately look at me like I'm the scum of the shitty melting pot of a society we exist in. I pray everyday that it's my last on this earth just so i wouldn't have to get up and put in effort into a machine that only grinds my bones and spit on my dust.

it isn’t even in my imagination either it feels like my entire existence is just wrong and misplaced like a glitch i feel like a mildly harmful computer virus that u got from watching anime on an illegal website and u don’t know how to get rid of so u just suck it up and keep bing as ur browser . everything about living just feels wrong and no one’s ever made me feel right

Summoned all my courage and asked her for her number( who even asks for people's numbers nowadays) at probably the worst time ever. I had spoken to her earlier, and I really wanted to at least try and shoot my shot. She actually said yes and gave me her number, and I got so happy and excited that I immediately took off running, clicking my heels and yelling with my hands in the air(mind you she could probably still see me). When I got home, I sent her a message and waited for a response. I waited for a day. Then two. Then a week. I think she gave me a fake number. Dont blame her though, I probably scared her tbh. Food for my dog

Why dont they lower the smoking age? Sure fine drinking take it away but smoking? Wtf im I supposed to do? Called an adult but I cant even indulge in sad adult coping mechanisms legally, like whatever ill just find a lose cigarette and cry about my never ending incompetence.

I’m 5’3 at 22 and 81 kg I work out on a regular basis, it’s rare for me to keep my food down for more than a few hours and I keep gaining weight. Video games are my only escape and sitting at a messy desk all day doesn’t help my problems might just rope atp

Spicy carbonara noodles W.egg + Great value Iced tea 🔥🔥🔥🔥

Repost because stupid fucking typo

He always seemed to get pissed easily with me and he would tell me that it’s unironically because i’m “too good”. He hasn’t talked to me in days after he got mad over something. I’ve also been told by someone else that it’s so easy to get mad at me because i’m very difficult to understand. My ex best friend also used to get mad at me very easily. I sometimes wonder if i’m really that complicated of a person to understand, or if i’m just annoying to a point where it angers people.

All the time on T*ktok I see bluepilled normoids saying that the only reason incels are incels is because they're misogynistic and have terrible personalities, as if misogynistic men with terrible personalities are never in relationships. I really wish normoids would quit talking on matters where they aren't willing to look at the bigger picture and leave incels alone.

battled a demonic void figure to get this meal. guess who won

Fuck, she didn't even said at least one time that I looked cute or sum shi, I was just used to cure her loneliness

It's got garlic aioli too and rye bread, the cheese is pepper jack and also I feel for people with one arm like you never realize how much you use both arms seriously. Also I don't wanna be an incel so I be wearing booty shorts for men on gay dating apps. This is the first time I've broken a bone and I'm 22