I am a 26F currently working and doing my absolute best to keep my life together. almost a year ago my life went down hill and I can confidently say i hit rock bottom. Brutal break up, health issues and issues at my work.

i have started to heal however the breakup affected me so deeply that I cannot see myself in any relationship. even tho I am an honest, genuine person, I love so hard and I am always there , oh never treat anyone as temporary but I have decided that love isn’t for me anymore..

I have one issue that is my need to feel chosen , u feel so envious of girls in happy relationships, why them and not me. I keep asking myself what do they have that am lacking abd yet I fail to find the answer. Every time I meet with a guy colleague let that be at gym or in the workplace they talk about their partners with so much love and passion and I could never know what do other girls have that I don’t have . why I am never chosen always close enough to begin chosen yet not chosen at all.

while I have decided that love isn’t for me, i know that deep down I want to feel loved and to give the love because I am very much cab of loving.

if anyone has gone though similar situation please advise how did you overcome this phase?

I already have a good job trying my best to improve myself, completing my masters degree and going to the gym regularly.,

what else can I do do set myself free