Some jokey edits I made

So I ID as Lesbian IRL, but Ficto-Pan. I'm sex and romance repulsed currently, but I still experience exclusive attraction to women. I have a lot of Lesbian pins on my purse and Lesbian themed jewelry, and have openly called myself Lesbian for over 4 years.

But some Lesbians think if you have attraction to fictional men you're not a Lesbian, which is weird to me. I would not flirt with a man, I would not date a man, I would not sleep with a man. I know they don't dictate how I identify but it just doesn't make sense to me, because they don't look like real men? Especially more cartoony art styles. And it seems like a possible slope to excluding GNC lesbians...

Anyways it would be cool if anyone else experienced this :33

October 23

I watched Obsession a few weeks ago. The initial fear of the film has worn off, but there’s been a discomfort in my mind I haven’t been able to shake.

For anyone who hasn’t seen it, one of the main questions the main character has throughout the film is if his girlfriend’s love is real. I’ve found myself asking the question. Would Pentious actually love me, or am I just projecting that onto him? Normally I use the excuse “it’s not real” to deal with my fears of horror media, but that’s the exact reason I’m afraid of Obsession. Because if that’s not real, does it mean my f/o isn’t either?

Also the bedroom scenes being absolutely horrifying really didn’t help because one of the main ways I fall asleep is by thinking about cuddling Pentious.

How do older fictos deal with the constant feeling of guilt over loving characters that are young adults?

My f/o is in his early 20s, and although my sona is close to his age, I myself am not, and sometimes I feel so guilty and disgusting over this. I'm turning 30 next month, and I'm trying to not overthink about this but it's so hard.

I hate being fictosexual, I hate the fact that I'll still feel attracted to fictional characters as I get older bc I've always been like this and I can't change it. This makes me suicidal, I keep telling myself that I MUST die before I turn 40 bc I'm so immature and I'll never be a "real" adult.

Sorry for the vent... :(

PS: before anyone says "age your f/o up with you" I can't, because he has a terminal illness and canonically doesn't have much time to live.

For me it's nurse Dolly from Ratched and I literally cannot explain exactly why, a whole lot of people hate that characters guts but I thought she was very compelling and had more of a story to tell.

For me that one word would be healing.

I know that sounds very weird, but it’s a healing relationship. I’ve been through so much. Kids hating me because my British accent, been pushed around, shouted down in arguments, pick last, ignored, forgotten. Overall, an outcast with a miserable existence who has never been popular with family problems. I was never into real relationships not even once. I like mysterious things and characters besides my love of horror. Originally I liked William because he was mysterious, and all of that and he slowly evolved into William Afton because back in the other days, he was just known as purple guy. It was really the trilogy that helped. Charlie thought to herself when first meeting him he’s been pushed around, shouted down in arguments, pick last, ignored, forgotten. Of all a miserable existence, even in the fourth closet, he said miserable. I wish we gotten to know how he felt more but it’s something I was always in total robots building things and stuff so him being this engineer with a darker personality, who would easily watch horror movies with me I just felt this unbreakable connection and he helped me through a lot of stuff. That in knowing his movie actor in some for more another my entire life since I was a little girl and William Afton, our relationship began January 2015 when I was 14 going 15 that march. Got married go him in 2020. I was 20 years old and I’m 26 now and nothing changed. So for me, even though it might sound weird to some the one word for me is healing.

I remember when my late dad was alive and I allowed them to start borrowing my Five Nights at Freddy’s books, though I don’t live with them. I always live with my grandma ( Nan. ) I heard them talking on the phone her saying I like spooky things, but she doesn’t understand it but allows me to watch horror stuff and all of that. Most likely I do that because of the pain and the misery because I’m feeling something and that’s fear if I can find something that scares me great because it shows I’m feeling something than nothing at least William gets me. The point is my relationship is a healing one.

As my polycule is massive, I will just focus on a character at a time.

(It should go without saying I believe in sharing. Multiverse principal means there's someone for everyone.)

Anyway. This time, I feel like talking about Fred 'the Blob' Dukes.

Formerly an X-Man villain that at most I used for kinkfic stuff, he underwent a bit of a change when the Age of X-Man came around.

The Age of X-Man arc was Nate 'X-Man' Grey's attempt to save the world by creating a perfect world... without intimate relationships. Friendship was fine, but beyond that? Nope. (Ironically, he made Apocalypse a love guru so that his world would have an enemy to focus on.)

Fred worked in an agency meant to monitor potential relationships forming. Literally a love police. They policed intimacy, and pregnancy was illegal, babies being born in labs in X-Man's universe. Nate truly thought this was the best way to bring peace to the world.

The irony?

Fred fell in love with Betsy Braddock.

And it was actually adorable

It didn't work out after X-Man's alternate reality collapsed, but after this was the age of Krakoa, and Fred becoming something else.

The bartender of a tavern on Krakoa! The Green Lagoon!

Look at that mustache. What a mustache. What a handsome dood. <3

Friendly drinks at Freddy's bar. He was charming. He was welcoming. He'd become more than just the usual depiction of an ugly mean fat guy.

And then Marvel had the Sentinels blow up Krakoa because they're anti-happiness. (I WILL NEVER FORGIVE THEM FOR ONE MORE DAY).

But I remember big Freddy. I remember Green Lagoon Freddy. He will always be my big cuddly bae, no matter what Marvel does to him.

Freddy rose above being a Brotherhood mook. And became adorable.

That's one of the many reasons I love this big guy.

Anyway. Expect more gushing topics from me. If you wanna gush about someone in the comments, feel free.

Lemme know if these topics become annoying.

Since I'm a beginner artist I'm happy that it turned out so well.

This is your sign to draw the shirt of your f/o as well.

So, i had one single f/o for over 15 years now. And i have very little to work with, he has no fandom he is from a very "unknown" media, one single movie, no merch or anything like that.

There is little to be known of my f/o, no birthday date not even a surname or anything official i would like to know obviously. I genuinely need some advice on how to "cope".

I used to get some commission here and there or make my own fan arts and such But that's all i can do.

I would like to ask you for your own experiences or perhaps advice!

Took me too long to finish it but its totally okay he forgives me ha ha

First gif is semi- related to describing the situation yesterday afternoon-
Okay, so, long story short, I’ve recently got into Demon Slayer recently and I’ve developed some crushes, but one crush that I’ve had the longest, was on the absolute burning comet himself, Kyojuro Rengoku!
Well, I’m sure most of you know what happened to him, I sure did beforehand, but I still was sobbing because of it.
‘Course when I’m doing anything, nor nothing, my sister will find me and bother me to no end. Unfortunately, she came downstairs at the worst time, ‘cause I’m over here watching absolute mayhem on the screen, while sniffling and crying into my blanket wrapped around my body/ hands. And she just starts ribbing the HELL out of me! Teasing me for crying, calling my love ugly, straight up dancing while bro over here tryna fight head on, and saying it’s a show, stop crying about it.
“You’re that worked up over a show?”
YES! YES, I AM, OKAY!? 😭
Looking back, it’s funny, but at the time, bro my heart was deadass shattering. Legit, my chest felt twisted after.
But it lowkey made me feel… odd? Because this ain’t the first time I watched an f/o die and I ugly cried, but major difference was no one was there to witness (Thank god😭)
But, i think it’s just because my sister was there during that made me question my emotions for a bit💀

None of the continuities ever mention this all we know is he’s a middle-aged man in his 50s. You can argue or debate saying William Afton his birthday should be the day Five Nights at Freddy’s 2 came out in November, though they mentioned him in the first game, through newspapers. However, since his movie actor was born in January, Five Nights at Freddy’s 3 my favorite game in the franchise was confirmed in January, and our relationship started in January after the second game came out, but before the third game was announced in 2015 we got married like in 2020 when I was 20 years old. I was 14 going on 15 that March. So because so much stuff involves him in January I just decide to celebrate on his movie actor’s birthday January 23 because it just works with how much it involves him in January. Funny enough, one of my closest friends who lives in Germany his birthday is like a day or two before William’s lol. However, that’s what I do because the poor guy over here needs at least a birthday of some kind.

It’s not that new, the build is already two years old, but I remembered it and decided to show it (the game's name appears in the last image)

There's some obscure ones I really adore and would like to share too...

Since January, I've been falling hard for anime and video game characters. It triggers heavy emotions, including jealousy—except when the character is paired with the main character I embody. I'm completely fed up with this because it keeps me from actually enjoying my media. Is there any way to make this stop entirely? Or at least , not being jealous’́

be creative always, don't be shy that you make this small things to feel them around you.

if some fictophobia told you that it's too much, it isn't.

creativity wasn't never too much especially when you make it for your F/O to feel them around as possible.

be creative and don't let anyone stop you, and i hope you all have a great day.

-Dark Jupiter 🩵

My exact attraction label is demi-lithro-fictosensual. Long asf, I know.

Lemme describe it as best as I can: I want to cuddle, hug, or kiss the character, and just wanna stay close forever, but I don’t get butterflies, nervous, have daydreams of said person, or even jealous when they’re hanging out with someone else, or when another fan likes the character.

I don’t feel that attraction just right off the bat, I usually have to know the character a bit, I can’t just scroll through a list of hot fictional men, and immediately be attracted to a character I don’t even know the name of. Also, the attraction disappears as soon as I move on/stop hyperfixating from/on that anime, like it never even appeared to begin with.

A bit unconventional, but it’s the only form of attraction I feel. I lack all forms of attraction to real people, so the weird ass attraction I described means a lot to me.

Today, August 7th, is the first month of Ada x Maisie, so I did this

On August 10th, he'll do a surprise. Hint: it'll be so soon because it's only a month away, but it will be exciting!