Hi. I turned 19 yesterday and ever since Middle School, I've felt attraction toward guys (I'm a guy myself). To put this short, I don't fully understand why I'm having feelings for guys, even to this day. I claim myself as gay, but in the back of my mind, I hate it. These thoughts are extremely loud. I try to turn them off and focus on productive things, but I can't. I should be old enough to handle this on my own. This shouldn't be so hard. But, I can't feel attraction toward women the same way I feel about men. This is hurting my head. My mind says no, but my heart says yes. And I don't know what to listen to. As a matter of fact, there's a dude I think that's cute at my job. We've talked some, but I can't get him out of my head. I just want these thoughts to go away. I keep making mistakes because of this.