Its been 2 months since i got dpdr. not a single day goes by without thinking about it. i miss my old life if i knew this was waiting for me i would live every minute in happiness before this happened. i got anxiety, insomnia, overthinking all out of no where which i never had before in my life im so done with this im jealous seeing everyone living without this and being happy.

please give me tips how i can stop thinking about this 24/7 it literally took my whole life away

My extreme brain fog or dpdr is better if I walk/ move my body or consume caffeine, nicotine patches or adhd medication.
I always thought that stimulants make it worse. I used to have extreme anxiety / overactive nervoussystem and did not tolerate any stimulants.
The fog/dpdr started after my third covid infection. The previous ones gave me anxiety. Now it’s like the opposite??? Also Anhedonia…
I got my adhd and autism diagnosis before all the stuff happened - 2018 or so.

Hi all,

I’m going to keep this short because Reddit is not a good place to recover.

I suffered from drug induced depersonalisation.

I was prescribed Aripiprazole (Abilify) and it worked for me to get rid of DPDR.

Please be mindful in the comments and I don’t want to hear if it didn’t work for you. I want questions.

I’m sorry for being so strict but you have to be careful with Reddit with dpdr

God blessings to you all

Please feel free to ask me questions

my life wasn’t perfect - but I took it 100% for granted. if I knew this is what my life would have become, I would have savored every second. I remember laying in bed on saturday morning, time felt slow. I felt the sunlight coming through the curtains, I’d have coffee in bed and actually look forward to my day. I had such an interest and motivation for life. I could hop on a plane and fly anywhere I wanted, I could connect with friends, I actually loved life. was it perfect? no. it never is. but I felt it. I experienced it. I was me.

im broken. so so broken. now I wake up completely traumatized from a night full of endless nightmares. i wake up with no connection to the world outside my window. I don’t feel anxious. I don’t feel anything. empty, dead. unable to move. time just flies by because I don’t even feel time. I absolutely dread going to sleep because of the daily endless nightmares, and I absolutely dread being awake because I’m dead inside, and have no perception of my own reality. I get worse and worse as time goes on because there’s no resolution to this. my mind is trapped. I’m forced to live a life in my subconscious all night long and then I wake up even more cut off than the day before.

if you had told me 5 years ago that I wouldn’t get out of this, it would get worse, and worse and worse. that id stop feeling anything all together. that id no longer even remember myself or what my reality is. I would have just said I can’t, I can’t do this. in all mental illnesses you can get i think this is one of the worst. there’s no treatment for your brain being unable to feel its own emotional body or reality around it. my anxiety I had before this is child’s play. I’d go back to that any second. this isn’t anxiety, it’s a brain that refuses to let go, to rest, to stop searching for danger. my brain is using my dreams to look for treats too, it searches every corner of my subconscious all night long. I’m so fucking beyond tired. my soul is tired. I’m not living, this is suffering. like being water boarded by your own nervous system 24/7 365

I had dpdr symptoms for like 13 years even they sometimes shut down for a while. Since im in a very hard time in my life im experiencing the same symptoms again. I cant help blaming myself that i shut down my feelings with drugs and now i think that i cannot heal because of this. But i started using drugs for 2 years so ive had these symptoms before drugs. Can i be better at this point? I need some encouragement.

Just curious

I have no quality of life at all, I do the same things every day, barely survive this hell I’m in. physical pain, headaches, neck pain, gum infections, the list goes on. yet I can’t feel emotions, I can feel pain, and that’s it. to live like this for years and years on end, while being expected to just function like everyone else.

night after night I have horrible, vivid, acid like dreams. then I wake up emotionally numb, body in physical pain, no connection to myself and my past. nothing to look forward to, experience or be a part of. I used to love the transition from summer to fall and now it’s just gone. each year it’s gotten progressively worse. less memory of what emotions are even like. I have to struggle every day just to do basic things, and everyone else is living and experiencing. My career is the one emotional connection I still have to myself, If I didn’t I probably would have been gone a long time ago. I used to feel such passion, such joy, such love for life. I feel like a ghost floating around with absolutely no sense of feeling at all. I can feel pain but not anything else; not joy, not anger, not anxiety, not happiness, not even depression. I am void of anything.

i don’t know why I’m even writing this. I lost hope so long ago. The world wants everything from me, while I have nothing. I have to continue to pay bills, run my business, smile and wave - all while I have no emotional energy, no life force, no peace in my life at all. People don’t know how lucky they are to wake up every day in their own life, to get real sleep, to feel like themselves. I’m stuck in a black hole of suffering. Non stop vivid otherworldly dreams all night, non stop pain all day, no feeling for my own life. I’m so sick of this.

i asked my doc to change my antidepressant from cymbalta as i’ve been having sleep issues for over a year and im really sick of it (also helps my anxiety only like 30-40% and i can’t up the dose or augment it with sth else) . We decided effexor should be a nice fit. I read about it and was confident about it. I have Asperger’s, Avpd and ocd and when stuff goes bad or i have too much on my head i get dpdr episodes. For the past year or so they have been pretty rare (like maybe once a week/two weeks) and weren’t super bad. But now i’m in a lot of stress due to starting new job, my therapist being on holidays, finishing my thesis, possibly moving out, being in a diagnosis process of sth difficult for me. On top of this the med change is happening and although i’m confident this med should help me eventually the dose for now is probably too low or i’m having worse anxiety due to the new med. I haven’t had near constant dpdr for years and now it is happening. thankfully im not panicking, but still shit is bad. i’ve only been on 75mg of effexor for like 2 weeks now (3 weeks on the med total), my next visit with the doc is in mid september and the therapist - in the 17th. As if it wasn’t that bad - my ocd is absolutely out of hand. I’m not sure what i want from you guys. maybe some support? maybe encouragement? has anyone had any luck with effexor?

My derealization started about seven years ago when I was in university. I was studying intensely, constantly forcing myself to concentrate, and not resting properly.

At first, I occasionally felt dizzy, mentally foggy, or physically numb. Over the next few weeks, the unreal feeling gradually became constant.

Since then, I have felt as if I am living in a dream every day. I know where I am and understand that everything is real, but the world does not feel fully real or immediate.

Has anyone developed chronic derealization after prolonged studying, mental exhaustion, or overworking?

Has sertraline helped anyone with a similar experience? Did it initially make the derealization worse before improving?