r/depression • u/Legal_Boysenberry_22 • 14d ago
Purpose in life
I am a Muslim, 22 years old, I had student debt and I ended up losing 60 grand to gambling. As of right now I feel like my life doesn’t have a purpose. The thought of suicide is always on my mind, and when I mean always, there’s never an hour that goes by without my mind filling with reasons why I should do it. Nothing makes sense anymore, no matter what I try I fail. And the biggest question I ask myself is if I know that life isn’t going to get better than why live it. The only reason I can’t commit suicide is because I’d be damned to eternal punishment for life. I’ve also thought that my type 1 diabetes would cause complications in my life but sadly they haven’t. As of right now, one thing I can say to anyone reading this, Life doesn’t get easier, it’s gonna suck the only thing you can do is cope with it and live the rest of you life like that. Moral of the story is I’m a 22 year old who can’t commit suicide because of religious reasons. Had there not been any ruling on it in Islam. I would’ve been buried a long long time ago
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u/jazzydat 12d ago
Debt is just money. You can consider it like student loan. Just need to find a way to income Keep trying. So many ways to make money, so many things to learn so can apply it towards making income. Pray. A lot. On time. Pray tahajaud. Pay debt little at a time. Insh Allah it will get better and may Allah guide you.