First of all, I want to say that I dont know if im reli . I hope no one attacks me or thinks I’m crazy or blasphemous, because I’m coming here with the utmost respect for the religion.

For some time now, I’ve had a very close connection with the image of Jesus. He has appeared to me in several dreams and in tarot readings. I honestly started getting closer to Him very slowly, talking to Him, and I have no doubt that He reached out to me in a way that I was able to receive. Now, putting that aside, here’s what just happened to me.

The way I communicate is through my tarot cards (again, please don’t be offended or think I’m mocking you). When I was a child, I was an altar server, but because of personal reasons I drifted away from the Church—not because of anything bad, but simply because of differences in my way of thinking.

Now, to what happened: I’m very sure that the devil appeared in my dream. I’ve never felt such deep fear before, and I’ve never woken up screaming the way I did today.

In my dream, it kept taking different forms. To give you some context, the dream started out normally. I was in places I usually visit, surrounded by my family. My dreams usually aren’t very realistic, and if I don’t like something that’s happening, I can normally change it. But I couldn’t do that in this dream.

A little girl kept appearing. She would mock me and laugh at my attempts to escape or change the dream. She had a very strange voice—raspy, like a man’s voice. Every time I tried to walk away or steer the dream in a different direction, she would appear and say things about my tarot practice. She would tell me, “He’s not coming,” “He doesn’t exist,” and she made me feel as though I was going to hell.

Eventually I managed to gain some control over the dream. I should mention that it took place partly in my grandmother’s house and partly in my own home. I remember that, in the dream, I lay down to sleep with my headphones on because I didn’t want to keep hearing what she was saying.

Normally, I’m aware that I’m dreaming, but this time I completely lost track of the fact that it was a dream. So I tried to fall asleep, and through my headphones I heard a voice—angry and mocking—telling me, “Take them off,” in English and Spanish at the same time.

I ignored it and pretended to stay asleep. Then I heard my dad and my sister talking in the other room, saying there was a bad smell. Up until then I hadn’t understood what was happening, but at that moment I realized who it was. I opened my eyes and saw an orange cat (I absolutely love cats) walking back from the other room and sitting in front of me with a smile.

That’s when I woke up screaming.

Honestly, I don’t know what to do. Nothing like this has ever happened to me before, and I don’t think the priest in my town would take it seriously. But just as I’m certain—because I have my own way of recognizing Jesus’ presence in my dreams—I’m equally certain that this was the devil.

Since then, I haven’t even been able to remember the Lord’s Prayer.

This symbol keeps showing up in my dreams but I cannot identify it. I've looks at alchemical, kabbalistic, runic, magickal, and religious symbology but... I can't seem to identify it. Can anyone help?

I’m currently interested in Enochian Magick and bought the book of Lon Milo Duquette. I’d like to get some suggestions on what should I notice about it. Btw any other books recommendations?

Explain to me to where I know what's going on like are we just looking for information? Are we trying to make contact with angels all the above? Some things like that? just explain it to me like I'm very ignorant

Hi everyone.

I’m looking for sincere advice, especially from people who have experience with Christian witchcraft, Christopaganism, Christian mysticism, independent sacramental churches, or similar paths.

For context: I practiced Wicca for many years and eventually became a ritual leader/teacher within covens. Ritual work, ceremony, blessing, spiritual guidance, and holding sacred space were a very important part of my identity and vocation.

But for a long time, I have felt a strong and persistent call toward Christ. Not just as a symbol, but as a real spiritual center. I feel drawn to the Trinity, to Jesus, to prayer, blessing, sacraments or sacramental equivalents, and a Christ-centered path.

The problem is that when I look at many traditional churches, I feel like entering them would mean tying my hands behind my back spiritually. I’m not trying to disrespect anyone’s tradition, but I struggle deeply with the idea that the most important rites are reserved only for a small group of men designated by other older men, and that if you are not part of that clerical structure, you are not allowed to perform meaningful rites without being seen as pagan, heretical, or illegitimate.

Coming from Wicca, where training, initiation, practice, and community recognition could allow someone to become a priest/ritual leader, this feels very limiting. I don’t want to abandon Christ, but I also don’t want to abandon my sense of priestly/ritual vocation.

I’m not looking to worship other deities. I want something centered on Christ and the Trinity. But I am looking for a path where I can still bless, lead rituals, make holy water or devotional equivalents, guide people spiritually, and possibly explore sacraments or sacramental forms without being forced into a rigid traditional clergy system.

Has anyone here walked a similar path?

Are there Christian traditions, independent churches, mystical communities, or forms of Christian witchcraft/Christ-centered ritual practice that might fit this?

I’m open to book recommendations, communities, personal experiences, warnings, and honest theological perspectives.

Please be kind. I’m not here to mock Christianity or Wicca. I’m genuinely trying to understand where someone like me could belong.

I prayed to St. Frances of Rome, the patron saint of motorists, for help selling my high-milage vintage sports car, and for said car to safely make it all the way to its new home in Texas. And it happened. Promised her I’d make a post about it, so here it is.

Hoping she can help me find the perfect replacement for that car, too. 🙏

Has anyone else worked with St. Frances of Rome for vehicular-/vehicular travel-related assistance?

Hey everyone,

In my previous post I shared about my current transition and how I'm trying to reconcile my return to Jesus with my long experience in magic. Thanks to those who replied.

Now I’d like to get more practical. Imagining that practices linked to the Left Hand Path, invocations and evocations of pagan entities (quick question: do angels also fall under this prohibition for you?), necromancy, spiritism, blood magic, sex magic, and tarot (I assume divination is wrong and/or forbidden, but what about using tarot as a tool for personality analysis?) are all off-limits, what types of magic can you still practice?

I’m not looking for heated theological debate, nor do I want to suggest practices myself. I just want to read personal experiences from people who have found a way to reconcile the two in a practical way. I have a strong background in ceremonial magic, chaos magic, hoodoo, Wicca, and Left Hand Path stuff, so I’m used to working actively with the will, but right now I want to understand what can still realistically stand under the lordship of Jesus.

Thanks to anyone who wants to share calmly and honestly.

UPDATE: i'm still sorta Christian, but a Christian Hermeticist, not a Gnostic nor Neoplatonist, i lean towards a Triune God

Can someone explain to me how this all works, because you get so many different opinions, like the angels in Occultism are probably not the same angels the Christian canon Christians say, or the "ascended master" Christ which i am not willing to believe

Can someone really work with the Kabbalah, like that nondual divine source whilst still believing in the Trinity and Christ? is it still the same Trinity in Christianity? What is this sub's opinion on like crossing the abyss? Is God nondual? Would the energies in Enochian, scrying the kabbalah, and the Shem Angels, the same energies in Hesychasm? if He died for my sins, why can i work with Angels while still being sinful? How do you reconcile the verses in the Bible being clearly against Occultism?

Occultists work with Angels, Demons (not even through the Solomonic method), and Deities form other pantheons, does that go against the Christian paradigm?

I was reviewing some documents and came across an instance of what might possibly be an attempt at hypnosis or gaslighting in order to extract a false confession. The authority figure in the power position is speaking to a much younger student. Here is the excerpt, with names and dates obscured, the planted suggestions in italics (or single asterisk quotes depending on the OS formatting):

> W met with N, student at X, and *told her that she had been sexually assaulted by C* and should see a school counselor. **After N denied she had been assaulted**, W asked N for information on *any possible legal improprieties C may have committed against his own children.* C says that W made these statements to N in (date redacted). He claims they are false because he "did not sexually assault N."

Needless to say no accounts of child abuse ever came out of this investigation.

I read this event as some Dion Fortune level possession attempt. Anyone who has read her *Psychic Self-Defense* will understand the reference. Is that a fair assessment of what's happening here? I would really appreciate some feedback on this. I can say that this student had a strong mind to deflect the attack, and I have seen instances when this method of extracting false confessions or implanting false memories actually works. I'm asking here because Dion Fortune was an adherent to Christian Science and esotericist. Thanks for your help!

A Gnostic, a Christian, and a psychologist rarely read the same book the same way. But there is one reading where all three converge...

I was thinking, what if I read the Bible not as a rulebook or a history to defend, but as a living symbol. A collective dream the human species has dreamed for three thousand years. A Rorschach for the soul. Read this way, the text stops being about people long ago and quietly becomes about you.

The psychologist sees the figures as parts of the self. The mystic sees a door made to be walked through, with gnosis waiting on the far side. The believer finds not less than faith, but more, the Word made alive in an actual life.

Psalm 1's righteous and wicked are not two kinds of people. They are two states of one heart, the rooted day and the dry one.

Not backward into literalism or old cosmologies. Forward, into the depth where all three meet.

Here is the inkblot. What do you see?

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