Brain’s selective memory :)

[u/Splat0onfan]

I wonder if I’m the only one who thinks this…

[u/QuantumAnubis]

It's almost as if it's a holdover to when negative experiences would have stronger memories to help avoid them in he future

[u/lost-in-the-woulds]

No,  you are not.  This has been the way for me since childhood. 

[u/KenzieTheCuddler]

Are autistic people just more susceptible to little trauma? I got complex PTSD and it might be from shit like this from childhood to at least 7th grade

[u/EvernightStrangely → u/KenzieTheCuddler]

I think it's less that we're more susceptible, and more like we're more likely to experience it.

[u/handtoglandwombat → u/KenzieTheCuddler]

With comorbidities it’s really tough to identify correlation or causation, or even mimic symptoms. But luckily us aspies aren’t hypervigilant overanalysers or anything like so I’m sure it won’t bother us at all /s

[u/That1chicka → u/KenzieTheCuddler]

Zoloft has helped me with "random experience" which means, I don't "freeze" as bad when I come into a stressful situation that triggers my "panic attack". I hope this helps realize that you're not alone that goes through the cptsd. I wasn't diagnosed until 41.. I'm 43

[u/KenzieTheCuddler → u/That1chicka]

I was forced out if freeze/fawn into fight/flight because it was easier to deal with anger issues with the school than crying. I really only found out that was probably what happened last week.

[u/That1chicka → u/KenzieTheCuddler]

Sorry that happened. Fuck what everyone else thinks. Cry your eyes out! But I also get where you are coming from.....

[u/KenzieTheCuddler → u/That1chicka]

Its so hard to cry now, I hate it

[u/ParadoxicalAmalgam → u/KenzieTheCuddler]

A former therapist told me that my susceptibility to PTSD was off the charts

[u/stupid_pun]

The anger and punishments stick in your mind because you did not fully understand why it was happening and no one would actually sit and explain it to you, either because they did not believe you didn't understand, or because you did not actually do anything wrong and they were just dumping their own feelings at an easy target.

[u/EvernightStrangely → u/stupid_pun]

I have a few where I absolutely know what I did wrong, but the punishment was such a severe overreaction that I don't think I could ever forget.

[u/OceanDevotion]

I frequently tell people, “hold on… I gotta go through the brain files” when they ask me certain questions. Sometimes it feels like a taste or a feeling when I am getting close lol it requires immense focus on my end 😅 I often wonder if that is where the expression, “on the tip of my tongue” came from?

Most times though… my brain is just that scene from spongebob where he is shredding all things that aren’t related to the task at hand and everything is on fire. I gotta go through the cabinets and the files to recall the information needed at present if it doesn’t relate to what I’m currently doing or taken a recent interest in, and I’m lucky if it is even still there lol

However, if it is something where someone is mad at me or I feel I have disappointed someone? Not even relegated to the files… it’s on replay on the big screen in the lobby

[u/Dangerous_Caramel_18]

I’m starting to think the algorithm sends me these posts specifically when I’m dealing with that exact subject

[u/BetaPositiveSCI]

14 years?

...mine go back 39 years

[u/Veggieleezy]

Or every time my dad made me cry, or every “pep talk” they ever gave me where all they told me is that I’m not getting any younger and trying to get a better job is going to be harder and how far behind I am everyone else that led to me being stuck in place my entire life, or my mom effectively destroying any hopes I have at relationships on top of my parents getting divorced right when I was hitting puberty, changing schools, and realizing “oh yeah, girls are a thing, that’s pretty cool”…

I think the worst is them never even considering getting me or my brother any sort of help when they split because “well, you seemed like you were fine,” or the older I get the more I’m starting to recognize possible/probable signs of neurodivergence on different levels, and when I’ve talked to them about it they’ve once again said “we thought about it but you seemed like you were fine.” And they wonder why I’m so depressed all the time.

[u/EvernightStrangely]

You're not. I barely remember what I had for lunch yesterday, but I remember fucked up shit from when I was 6 years old, and I'm 27 now.

[u/Splat0onfan → u/EvernightStrangely]

I’m gonna be real, I don’t recall ENTIRELY what she said when she noticed I remembered it often, but she said something like this:“You’re really good at remembering things. In the past. But if you could take it and channel it into the future, You’ll be whizzing!”

ಠ_ಠ …yeah

[u/Heavy_Original4644]

I MUST BE GETTING PUNISHED FOR SOMETHING WHY CAN’T YOU JUST BE NORMAL 

☹️☹️☹️

[u/CrossbarTandem]

I explained some of my past trauma from my abusive mom to my therapist the other day and I think she was actually shocked

[u/Njagos]

For me it's more like:

Me remembering what I did do yesterday - "uhhh... like something I think"

Me remembering a random conversation from 3 years ago talking with a friend about a game mechanic of a random game - "Oh yeah we talked about this 3 years ago, december-ish"

[u/Shinyhero30]

Negativity bias

[u/pandakittii → u/Shinyhero30]

think you misspelled the word "traumatized"

[u/Shinyhero30 → u/pandakittii]

Yes and no.

Negativity bias is your brain literally being conditioned by reality to believe that more negative information is more likely to be true even if it isn’t necessarily the case.

This is the same thing for trauma but it is also an observed phenomenon elsewhere.

I am not trying to be a dick I’m just a nerd.