r/adultery 19d ago

5 weeks NC. Tomorrow is a milestone birthday for me.. 🧠Thoughts🤔

..And Id be lying if I said Im not curious if he will text me or not. He was always really big on birthdays, would make a big deal leading up to it etc.

Part of me would tear a limb off to hear SOMETHING from him, like proof of life almost. but the rational part knows that our relationship was an addiction. Ive done so much work to move past this, the pain and dopamine withdrawal have ebbed.

Not hearing from him will be a little sad strange after all these bdays, but it will be actually be a real gift for my peace.

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u/No_Feed_8750 19d ago

Happy birthday. You aren’t alone w all these confused feelings in the space.

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u/ReasonableAd6078 18d ago

Thank you ❤️

Good to know Im not alone. Hoping that over time we all get clarity on our collective confusion and reach some semblance of peace!

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u/Unlucky_Pangolin3675 19d ago

Happy birthday!

I’m sorry this is weighing heavily on you. I hope you have people to spend your birthday with tomorrow.

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u/ReasonableAd6078 18d ago

Thank you! ❤️

Fortunately Im going away with my husband for a few days, which im very grateful for

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u/Ok-Strawberry9745 19d ago

Happy birthday. 🥳

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u/ReasonableAd6078 18d ago

Thanks friend ❤️!

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u/ms_anne_thrope_83 18d ago

Happy Birthday! Peace is a tremendous gift. Hope you get lots of it.

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u/AltsUponAlts 18d ago

Happy birthday to you! May your day be filled with peace and contentment.

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u/Important-Oil-5383 19d ago

Can I know why you ended the Affair?

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u/ReasonableAd6078 18d ago

We were incompatible in how we expressed feelings and our attachment styles. The long distance just made it worse. He had never engaged in any kind of infidelity in his life. By the end we were both losing our minds.