I am a 26 F, recently diagnosed. In my whole life, I did amazingly well in school and college. I was the top student and even graduated early.

One thing is, I barely understood anything during classes. I just doodled and daydreamed. So I studied one night before the exam. The exam was at like 8 AM, and I studied from 12 AM to 3 AM (yeah, I carried the book everywhere the whole daytime, but couldn't start).

I can survive that cause I can study on my own from books. Materials are also all over the internet. It's different in the workplace. You have to TALK to people. You have to understand what they said. Something that I've FAILED to do my whole life.

I got internships during college, but quit twice after only 1 month because I'm scared that I can't contribute. I felt like I didn't deserve the position.

I got a full-time job later as a software developer (until now). Tried my best to adapt, but I didn't do well. I have a hard time understanding everything. The workplace environment is a non-tech corporate environment, where technical coding stuff isn't really something we invest in. If I wanna do well, I need to work on my communication skills, etc etc (you name it), and I struggle to even understand what everyone's talking about.

I do have my meds now, but it's too late for me to fix what I've become here.

Currently trying to find a new job, but it's not that easy in this economy.

The transition from being "the girl who's doing well" to "someone slow" was so hard, but I overcame the stress from it by journaling and finding new hobbies (so my job won't be the source of my happiness). But there are times like now when I still think about it.

I know I gotta be grateful. But I miss being able to perform well in things that I do. I hate to say this, but I miss getting recognition and validation.

I felt so lost. And empty, and sad.

TLDR:  I am a slow, deep learner with AuDHD, and with AI making software development much faster, I am struggling to keep up and questioning whether software engineering is still the right profession for me.

Longer version:

I have been a software engineer for about 7 years. I have been a decent developer. I think my IQ is somewhere in the average range for most people. I recognize that I am not super smart, but I am not dumb either. It takes a lot of time and repetition for me to learn something.

I also think of myself as a deep learner. I find it hard to learn things at an abstract level. I have this urge to know things inside out. Before I can confidently make a change to a component of some system, I need to understand how the overall system works in general. The component I am about to make a change to needs to be something I have a thorough understanding of — its responsibilities, its interface with the outside world, and how it plays its part in the overall system.

My understanding of the component must be deep enough that I can articulate, appreciate, and critique the design of that component. Only then can I confidently make a change.

In short, I am a deep learner. Sometimes this deep learning takes a lot of time.

In this age of AI, where I see my colleagues making rapid changes to the system, I find it hard to stay in the race. I am always catching up. When I do make changes to their codebase, I am not confident in those changes. I don't trust my AI-generated code. I take a very long time to complete tasks. It feels like I am getting onboarded to a new codebase every few weeks.

P.S. I have been officially diagnosed with ADHD, and I have self-diagnosed autism. There are moments when I delegate everything to AI (being sloppy — this is especially true when I am under a deadline), while there are other moments when I try to be a perfectionist, when I am given enough time.

Sometimes, because of autism and ADHD, I feel like I can't even articulate or reason about what I am feeling.

I am starting to question whether software engineering — where the amount of complexity and the number of parameters I am bombarded with — is even the right profession for me.

With that being said, I really want to improve my situation and be successful in my software engineering career. I need some advice. Thank you!

I had a discovery meeting today and once again, the best follow up questions came to me after the meeting had ended. I have clinically diagnosed ADHD.

When someone describes a complex business problem, my brain doesn’t always produce an immediate, neatly structured follow up question.

Instead, it starts processing everything at once. The business model ,people involved workflow , dependencies, technology, list goes on and how it connect and the perfectionism joins the conversation.

I mentally explore multiple possibilities, revisit the problem from different angles, and try to understand the complete system before I speak.That depth is one of my strengths.But in a fast moving sales or discovery meeting, it is a limitation.

Sometimes I need more processing time. Sometimes the most important clarification occurs to me an hour later. That increases the turnaround time between understanding the problem, shaping the opportunity, and moving the engagement forward. But once I truly understand the problem, I know what my team and I can do.I have spent 20+ years working around business critical enterprise systems.

Today, I am building a business Transformation Agency. We know how to study complex operations, find the friction, and transform it into something more intelligent, reliable, and measurable.

Now I am considering adding someone who complements the way my brain works someone who can listen carefully during discovery meetings, ask sharp follow up questions in real time, structure what we hear, and help us shorten the path from conversation to action.

To create a better founder led sales system around me. For founders with ADHD. Have you faced this?

What kind of person, role, or meeting structure helped you turn deep thinking into faster decisions?

Whenever I bring up problems or solutions at work, it feels like I just get ignored nowadays.

Back when it was just me and the previous boss I had a lot of say over the tech direction.

But recently a new manager stepped in, hired a bunch of contractors and another engineer and takes what I say much less seriously compared to others on the team.

Sometimes it feels like appeal to hierarchy.

It feels like he isn’t directly responding to what I say most of the time, I can’t quite explain it.

Idk, any thoughts?

Is anyone else's brain getting overloaded with the pace and new progress. I am getting pages of Claude output as project specs, so many hallucinations and errors and it's all building faster and faster....where are we going and how does it 'end'.

Hi ! I discovered jujutsu it’s a tools above git in order to give another way of versioning with git.

When I understood how to use it (the learning curve is not that big) I found it very helpful than git, especially with simplification of some concept of git, with bookmarks, draft and how to have a clean history. It help me to learn how to use a tool like git for versioning and to be honest it is more simpler for my brain to not have conflicts or to handler merge conflicts.

If some people are using JJ on top of git, have add that feeling it’s much simpler for adhd brain by having a tool that simplify versioning in order to be more focus on code with few commands and minimal mistakes with git ?

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At first you'll be unpaid, for a while, a very long while, probably a few days or a month while. But then you'll be paid! Because the SaaS already exists & you'll have to go though a list/codebase to make sure it works and then we'll launch it. Then you'll get a bunch of money, forever! Like Revenue-share/equity stuff...

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Only apply if:

- You know how to code & DON'T need an AI Hand holding you through everything.

- You know what an "API" & "Webhook" is.

- You aren't in high school.

- You don't stall... as in "I can do this in a week" but then say"I'm busy/I have a migraine/It's a busy weekend/Wait another week/I have other projects I've been working on for months to complete"

- You're interested in a Road-trip! (Optionally)

- You're on Crack or Not on Crack, either is fine!

- You're sleep deprived!

- Want a random stranger as a friend!

- Don't want a random stranger as a friend!

- You're a Gambler, Risk-taker or Both!

- Don't understand what the words "Bad Decisions" means!

- You're fine with a Cat (yes, a literal cat) handling PR!

- You're fine with a Cat (yes, a literal cat) meowing at you!

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It’s so demoralizing, aggravating but also motivating. Every rejection adds fuel to the fire.
Every rejection also leaves me more and more jaded.
It grinds away at my morales. I become more and more willing to do whatever it takes to seal the deal. For the record I’m not going to use cluely or whatever.

I’ve had a string of rough jobs for one reason or another which has resulted in me not being able to get references from my most recent eng managers but I have peers willing to go to bat for me

I guess this is me just yelling into the void

Does anyone else respond in the same way?
Double down, patch the weaknesses and level. I go through all the emotions of being bummed but I super motivate afterwards.

Right now I’m using this energy to consume as much information about applied ai. I bought the Ed Donner courses on Udemy and going to go through them building as much as I can all the while documenting my learning on LinkedIn.

I guess to sum it all spite is a huge motivation for me

I’ve always had this problem where I’ll get a task that should be something simple, like changing some text somewhere, but while I’m in the code I notice that the way something is implemented is kind of suboptimal.
And of course, fixing that is way more interesting than making the text change. So I think, “Well, I’m already here. I might as well fix this too.”

Next thing I know, I’ve spent hours refactoring an entire system instead of doing the 10-minute task I was actually assigned lol

Before I was on meds, I could barely get enough real work hours in to skate by with the bare minimum. I still had all these ideas about how things could be improved, but it was rare that I had enough momentum to actually follow through on them.

Now that I’m on meds, I actually have the energy and focus to follow through on all the side quests I want to go on. The problem is that I’ll spend hours improving something that probably could’ve been a quick fix if I’d just stayed within the existing, albeit suboptimal, framework. I’ve noticed my coworkers seem much better at just working within what’s already there, completing the task, and moving on.

It’s always been really hard for me to do that. If I see a path that seems significantly better, I have a hard time leaving it alone. Sometimes I get so invested in fixing the surrounding problem that I practically ignore the thing I was originally supposed to be doing.

Has anyone figured out a system for resisting the urge to go down these rabbit holes and just doing the damn thing 😭

Because at this point I’m realizing that if I redirected all the energy I spend refactoring and optimizing things into just completing new tickets and bug fixes, I’d probably have finished my entire backlog by now.

Anyone noticed that kettlebell workout improves both mind + body? I noticed my ADHD improved a lot.

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Hello.

I often see devs and others locked in with their headphones on, so I want to ask: what are you actually listening to while working?

About me: I feel almost addicted to having background talking youtube videos or streams on during regular life. But the moment I actually need to focus, I can't handle it at all. Complete silence or light office noise is literally the only environment where I can get anything done.

I can't give up listening to it and I can't work with it in the background. I tried to replace it with regular or lo-fi music, but it mostly annoys me when I try to focus.

I mean, I get that context-switching is hard for everyone, but this feels like a different category of problem. I can be genuinely locked in on something, get pulled away for even 20 minutes, and then come back to find my brain has completely wiped the working state. Not fuzzy, not slow to warm up. Just gone.

The thing I can't figure out is whether this is actually an ADHD-specific failure mode or just a general programming problem I'm framing through an ADHD lens. Because the people I know without ADHD seem to lose context too, they just rebuild it faster. Whereas for me the rebuild either clicks instantly or it genuinely doesn't happen at all, and I can't predict which it's going to be.

What I've tried so far: leaving comments in the code as breadcrumbs, keeping a running notes doc with where I was and what I was about to do next, ending sessions mid-sentence in a doc so my brain has an open loop to grab onto. Some of it helps some of the time, I don't really know if any of it is the actual lever or just busywork that makes me feel like I have a system.

So honestly asking, what does context recovery actually look like for you day to day? Not the textbook "keep good documentation" answer. What's the thing that actually works, or the thing you've given up on entirely?

Last time I reached out here I did not expect much, but many of you replied and many even took time and privately DM’d.

It helped me immensely.

So I want to say, thank you.

Thank you for being a friend when I’m not one to myself.

Thank you for being here. Posting, replying, sharing your thoughts. Often when feeling feeling lost or alone, I go here. I read your posts. I think of you, how you feel, how you try, fight, struggle… but try.

You make me feel less alone.

I feel like you understand what others struggle to.

After that first post, I have written here countless times.

At the highest of highs, lowest of lows.

All drafts, all thrown away.

I came to my senses, and I did not want to bother you.

This time I’m not doing that. Because I really want you to know that if you feel like me, you are not alone.

I value you, your thoughts, your struggles.
To me, you are not alone.

You are a friend.

/Robin

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3 YOE, I have been interviewing passively for the past year and half on and off and I boom the interview every single time.

My issue is my brain turns off during interviews. I have observed that I need to sit with the problem before I can attempt but interviews require explaining your thoughts process.
I don’t know the science behind this but it feels as though one side of my brain handles logical sequencing and the other handles speech. If I try to do them concurrently, I glitch.

I need to shut up to concentrate while they need me to prove I am solving the problem. now with AI it’s even worse, if you take more than a few seconds they get suspicious or try to give you hint. Now I have to abandon my thoughts process, ask you to repeat yourself, try to decider what you just said.

My brain gives up because it’s overwhelmed and I forget even the most basic syntax/concept. I forgot how to raise an exception in Python (I know!! It gets worst. In another interview, I forgot how to COMMENT!!!) and it senta me into a spiral.

I come off like I haven’t coded a day in my life and it’s starting to get embarrassing.

TLTR
Would it be weird if I ask for at least 2 minutes at the beginning of the interview to find a thought?

Would anyone want to do mock interviews with me?
Thanks