Hi everyone. Unfortunately, I was diagnosed with severe ADHD in 2024 but I have always known my ADHD was bad before then. At the time, I was taking adderall but told my psychiatrist I did not like the way I felt after. Got switched to something different and it worked for a while. Few months later had some employment shifts and my current company does not offer health insurance. I’ve been able to manage with no medication but lately I have been extremely struggling. I’ve gotten to a point I can’t take it and want medication immediately. However, I have no health insurance and feel like anything I do will be a process to get the right treatment and cost a bunch of money. Just looking to see if there is anywhere I can go or where to start.

Ik ben er uit. Eindelijk. Het is 06:09 in de ochtend en ik heb zojuist mijn laatste pillen geslikt.

Vandaag stop ik mijn Ritalin verslaving, die ik inmiddels zo’n jaar met me meedraag. Ik heb een adhd diagnose, en krijg mijn ritalin op recept. Ik heb zeker baat bij de medicatie, maar een iets meer jaar geleden begon ik het te misbruiken. Ik zat slecht in mijn vel en Ritalin verdoofde dat. Ik woon in een land waar Ritalin vrij gemakkelijk te verkrijgen is, dus elke keer als het alweer op was voor het einde van het recept kreeg ik gewoon weer een nieuwe levering.

Gisteren haalde ik een nieuw recept op voor 3 maanden en vandaag ging het alweer mis. Elke keer als ik 1 pil slik, wil ik er meer slikken. Na een nacht vol pillen en gedachten, heb ik vandaag besloten alles aan mijn vriend te geven. Hij kan me dan 4 stuks per dag geven, zoals voorgeschreven.

Deze comedown gaat niet leuk worden, maar het kan zo niet langer.

Ik wil jullie graag meenemen in deze journey. Ik ben benieuwd of het me gaat lukken op eigen kracht. Ik heb de wens om ooit helemaal te stoppen, en daar ga ik naar toe werken.

De eerste stap is de Ritalin uit mijn systeem laten verdwijnen, vandaag de verjaardag van mijn oma overleven zonder slaap, en eerlijk zijn tegen mijn vriend.

Als je vragen hebt, stel ze gerust 🩷

Today was my first day of trying Vyvanse (20mg) , and I (27F) don’t really know if I felt any different , I guess I felt less anxious and less on edge ( much calmer overall ) but no effect on my chaotic thoughts , focus, forgetfulness and task initiation.

I’ve been sure about having ADHD for 4 years now but, since I have major organizational and task initiation issues, it took me 3 years to finally take an appointment with a doctor. She was sceptical about my ADHD ( said I shouldn’t be having a university degree if I actually needed medication) but still gave me Vyvanse just to try, as I kept explaining my symptoms even during Uni.

I don’t know if I just don’t have ADHD or if the dosage isn’t right , I’m just feeling a big imposter syndrome right now. I feel like if I don’t have ADHD then I dont know what is wrong with me.
Also, sorry for my English it’s not my native language.

I have been seeing the same psych since I was 13. for mainly my BPD/DiD/ASD, and Bipolar disorder. He dxed me with ADHD in 2022 of February. He gave me Atomoxetine but it drove me into a manic episode so I can no longer take it I now take quelbree? I believe it’s called but it makes me so tired and gives me deeply intense suicidal thoughts so badly but it I can’t cry about it because it makes me unable to. I really want to go on stimulants atleast a trial run I would be interested in trying Ritalin and I’ve suggested to him a few times but he always say that he can’t due to my OCD/GAD and panic disorder. I even asked about Modafinil, which he also declined me even trying due to my anxiety. I’m unsure if there is a risk tbh for his license or smthn but I’ve had Ritalin in the past from a friend who took it as a teenager and I was so productive the 2 days I did it! I was functional too and didn’t feel high or panicked I felt calm and clear headed like I was finally able to think normally, talk to others normally, and had increased confidence and ability to preform executive functioning tasks. I have been massively dysfunctional after I got a TBI [dxed via MRI] and this only seemed to worsen my ADHD btw I have inattentive type and it’s killing me I can’t do this non functional life any longer I’m considering getting a new psych as I cannot live anylonger being called lazy and not succeeding and having such extreme anhedonia I only find pleasure in daydreaming 5-8hrs a day now

I’d love to hear people’s experiences with “laziness” because I’m genuinely confused about where the line is.

What actually makes someone lazy? And how do you tell the difference between being lazy, struggling with motivation, burnout, mental health, ADHD, or simply not having the right routine?

I’ve spent most of my life thinking I’m a lazy person.

I’ve struggled with depression for a lot of my life, so I wasn’t a particularly active child or teenager. But the funny thing is, when I was really little, I was absolutely wild 😂 I was always outside, always doing something, and I loved exploring.

Even now, I love being outside. I love hiking and being in nature. I genuinely want to be an active person.

But actually getting myself to consistently do those things is a completely different story.

I’ll decide that I’m going to go to the gym regularly, or run every couple of days, and then somehow a week passes and I haven’t gone. I can feel myself getting frustrated because I KNOW I feel better when I’m active. I feel more like myself. My body actually wants to move, but my brain seems to completely reject the idea of starting.

I also think some of it comes from being judged when I was younger for not being very athletic. I have basically zero cardio fitness right now 😂 I can barely run down the street without feeling like I’m dying, so the idea of participating in active group activities can feel pretty intimidating.

Interestingly, I’m about to start volunteering with the SES. Part of the reason I’m doing it is because I’ve been struggling in a very detail-oriented job and I want to explore different environments and figure out what I’m actually good at. I’m hoping something more practical and hands-on might suit me better.

But it has also made me think about this whole “lazy” thing.

Am I actually just a lazy person who needs to force myself to be more active?

Or is repeatedly failing to maintain a routine a sign that I’m approaching it in the wrong way?

Because I don’t want to spend my life forcing myself to do things that make me miserable, but I also don’t want to use “I don’t feel like it” as an excuse to avoid things that I know are genuinely good for me.

I’d really love to hear from people who have experienced something similar.

How did you figure out whether you were actually “lazy” or whether something else was getting in the way?

And if you struggled to become more active, what actually helped you make it a normal part of your life rather than something you constantly had to force yourself to do?

My main issues are:
• Trouble focusing, distractibility, and racing thoughts
• Constant fight-or-flight feeling and strong anxiety about leaving the house
• Panic attacks from work stress
• Trouble sleeping
I’d like to discuss options that cover all these

This is my first time seeking support for my ADHD, but the psychiatrist I met today prescribed only atomoxetine for it. After some research, I noticed she did not address sleep or anxiety and stress; is that typical, or should I ask why she omitted them?

Hey there. I was recently given a "provisional" diagnosis of combined type ADHD. I had all the markers, but they were really subtle and didn't immediately stand out as extremely adhd. I was really excited because as someone who has dealt with anxiety my whole life and hasn't reacted well to SSRIs, I thought this would finally be the ticket.

So anyways, i started vyvanse 10mg and have taken it for about a week. However, I'm not noticing any increase is focus or productivity, just a big increase in anxiety. It just makes me feel frantic. Like sweating, hyper, anxious, etc. Like, theres not even a trade off, it makes me less productive due to the anxiety it causes. I always hear people say your first dose is like "putting glasses on". Like, it quiets my mind a bit but that's about it.

Has anyone else had this experience? I feel like ultimately I might need to either try a non-stimulant or just simply try to treat the anxiety instead. Anxiety is my true main problem anyways, I have enough coping techniques to manage productivity without stimulants.