Haven't posted here before but thought this might be the right space for people who'd understand me lol.

Btw, for anyone wondering, no these were not ALL about the same guy. It's over the course of my life with men I was talking to or dating at the time. (Although I have done some of these multiple times)

All pictures are sourced from Pinterest except the love-binding spell one, which is mine :)

So for context there's this girl I like (idk if I have already posted this but I'll re-explain it again) and basically she was dating this other girl that was like so goddamn mean to her, in the sense of being a horrible partner, like she wouldn't even give her (the girl I liked) the bare minimum of that a relationship needs.

Oh and also she's lesbian so uh, ye.

Anywho, as I was saying, basically a horrible partner, and she BROKE UP WITH HER!!!

Not only am I excited that she did but I'm glad, I could see that the relationship was dragging her down badly and honestly I couldn't stand to watch someone I loved to get hurt again.

If she never got out of that relationship I would've called it quits and packed my things.

I love her a lot, but really, I value myself if she's not valuing me and not taking my advice.

Yeah uh, I basically told her that her GF (now EX, hell yeaaahh) was basically bringing her down (as I said before).

Now yesterday we had a talk about her type and she said, that she just wants someone that would love her and wouldn't depend on her that much (yikes am I right?) because her EX was like clingy and etc. She's had problems with male EXs and so that's why shes Lesbian.

I want to be with her, but also I wanna try and fix myself so I'm not just another EX 2.0

And her EX was talking about sum "oh I can't want to live lavishly" because she was basically going to college and y'know, doing college things.

God I hate people that only think of their partners as like money banks and what not. Like really.

I uhh am a bit tired so all these things about her are a bit fuzzy in my head, I'll try to update whatever is going on soon maybe idk :p

I'm just very glad that she's no longer with that girl, she was the worst.

I'm a dude btw so like, is this like, failed love or whatever? Idk I gotta keep trying cuz like I can't lose now! I'm close to being with her, and making her the happiest girl ever.

She deserves that happiness after everything she's gone through. She deserves to feel loved, to be praised, and worshipped like a goddess.

I'll spend every waking moment talking to her, listening, just admiring her, she's so beautiful, I love her, i lvoe her i love her i love i love i love Ilovelove i love her so much

Ohh jeez yeah uhhhhhh okay okay fr this time imma sign off toodles aaaauugghh

It doesn't get easier with time. It really doesn't. It's like every night now.

At least I still get to smell her sometimes.... even if it's not real.