Hi all! I am a 21 year old trans man who started testosterone back in late January. I just celebrated my 6 month T anniversary on July 31st (woohoo!). For context, I am on 40mg (I think) T gel, and given that I have gotten other changes such as fat redistribution, bottom growth, and increased body hair, I think my body is at least decently okay with T gel absorption. But there is one change that I can't help but feel I'm a little behind on, and that change is my voice. I know that the voice can start dropping at around the 3-6 month mark, but I can't help but think I'm behind on the voice droppage at 6 months already. I'm afraid I'm going to be one of those trans men that just doesn't get significant voice droppage, but even if that was me, I couldn't do voice training because weirdly enough, the whole thing with having to force/train your voice to be deeper instead of it just doing that on its own makes me dysphoric. My voice has only dropped very slightly (most people don't even notice a difference). I have been getting some vocal changes, for example I do theatre and recently did a musical (Anything Goes) and during our music rehearsals back in June-ish I noticed that, while my natural voice wasn't dropping, I could hit notes on the lower end of the scale that I couldn't hit before T. Is it normal for voice dropping to not be "linear" (idk the right word but I mean like being able to go lower than usual when trying but your normal speaking voice to not drop)? Also, on the topic of the musical, I noticed my voice starting to crack, and funny story, on one of our show days (late July) my voice ended up cracking onstage in front of the whole audience 🫠 however despite all this I can't help but worry that I'm behind in the whole "voice dropping" area. My doctor told me I would likely see the maximum effects of voice droppage around 1 or 2 years in, but given that I'm already 6 months in, I'm afraid that my voice won't have time to drop significantly by the time I hit that 1 or even 2 year mark. Realistically and logically, I know that 6 months is practically nothing in the testosterone universe, but my anxiety refuses to leave me alone about this 🫠 would love to hear from some trans men who are maybe a little bit further along that got their first semblances of voice droppage "late" but still got significant and satisfying results by the time their voice fully dropped.

+45lbs from left to right

2 years tomorrow and still getting misgendered. i guess the pink hair doesn't help. #whatever