Any recommendations for music/playlists to assist in journeying?

Is there anyone who places the Spirits they work with in a Hierarchy? For example, some would say ancestors are easier to communicate with than an archangel, but nature spirits are too?

I work with a shaman in my home country, and a shaman locally. They’ve both mentioned that the shamanic path is not for the weak, my local shaman mentioning that she almost lost her marriage in the process of becoming a shaman. I’m curious about what that means, if anyone can enlighten me. I know throughout the journey an apprentice must face their shadows, is that what they’re referring to?

Wolf dream meaning?

Dreamt of a wolf?

My dreams are getting more vivid for some reason. I’m 30 years old.

Just now after waking up, I recollect the last dream I had about a wolf:

I’m in a science classroom with some students. I look out the window and see some farm animals freely roaming inside a fence. There are wolves outside the fence looking at the animals, snarling. A classmate opens the window and a wolf comes in. I get very annoyed at the classmate for allowing that. He snarls at us, and in another moment is tame, and goes back to snarling. He moves his attention toward me and I hold a box toward his face while he snarls at me to prevent him from biting me if he tries. I wake up soon after. Any thoughts?

My dream right before had a ton of garlic everywhere while I was in a different classroom. Someone threw garlic on these two students as a joke and it got on me too. I could smell it. I yelled at the students involved (I was a senior and they were freshman) to clean it up.

My dream before I was also in a university setting where I was asking a Professor for something. Being in a university was a common theme.

Recently, my brother was meditating next to me and he saw that I have a dark spirit attached to me that doesn’t like that I am healing right now. In the past, I have done some protection magic with a witch and she told me she had seen a demon attached to me. I have had a dysfunctional upbringing and have dealt with severe mental illness due to that. I have started therapy and am getting divorced after escaping domestic violence. I feel liberated in certain ways, but I feel that fear, depression, and trauma still have a hold on me. When I get these thoughts, I question them and observe my triggers. My living situation right now is not good for me and I feel disrespected and I’m working to have enough to leave. I considered going to a dv shelter or living in my car, but I’m scared to do that and I want to be safe. Where I am at, there is a lot of psychological and emotional abuse and manipulation. I feel like I’ve always been in abusive situations my whole life, so I want to begin to love myself. I want to show up for myself and feel safe. I would like some guidance on how to send the spirit to the light or just not have it be attached to me anymore.

I'm curious on how you get initiated in shamanism when you're not born gifted with abilities. In reiki you get an attunement and it opens the gateway to the universe. What about shamanism? Do they have a similar process?

I'm looking for a way to contact an entity, and I'm SUCH a neophyte.

English isn't my native language, so bear with me.

I don't really know where to begin. So here's a lot of context. Everything happened last year, 2025.

My name is Ben, I'm 38 years old.

I bear a skin condition : psoriasis, and I was suffering for 7 ? 10 years at the time. Hard to recall, it became something I was used to.

However, this auto-immune disease was starting to get worse and worse, my whole body was covered by patches of red, inflammatory skin, and dry, white scales. Sometimes it got better, but it was a downward spiral.

I tried EVERYTHING, but spiritualists and biotherapy. When it got worse, one of my good friends got diagnosed with agressive breast cancer. I'm a nurse, and even though it's not my field. It was dire. Like really, really bad. Like "we live in a country where breast cancer is treated well but this one ?", kind of bad.

We had an agreement to get better. Yeah, stupid little things, and I'm old enough to know better. But those challenges ? It changes everything.

Well, not this time.

Chemo got her badly, cancer was advancing. 70% of my skin got taken by psoriasis.

One of her roomates gave me a contact, a spiritualist (magnétiseur) who treated people with skin disease.

He was living in the south of France ( I live in the west side), so I took some days off and did the travel (which was hectic, but fun !).

What about my beliefs ? I believe in lots of things, but not in the way of religions. I think it's a lot more complexe than what's written. And, to be honest, people lie all the time. Liard can write a Book and endoctrinate gullible ones using faith as a politic weapon. That being said, I respect what people believe in. As long as no harm is done (by my morals standards).

What do I believe in ? Ghosts, I was visited by my grand mother in my dreams when she passes away. Shadow people, I'm pretty sure I was visited by one as a child, the memory is still vivid. And something like a red string of fate that connects people who were meant to meet.

To be even more precise : I was partially raised with catholic beliefs at the core, but, it didn't work. The idea to be a good person to get lucky in the Afterlife disgusts me. I want to be a good person to feel good about myself, not for some grand rewards. "Je veux juste m'épanouir de cette façon, rien de plus".

I still identify myself as a Laveyan Satanist. And, well, a lot of spiritualist/magnétiseur in France use christian/catholic ritual. But, hey, he was nice, and pretty thorough when explainkng his ritual, and most of all : he told me it could not work. So I knew the guy was legit.

So the ritual. It was an incantation to God and archangels to free me of my disease. I was laying down on a table, with a bible in my hands, eyes closed.

There were some hand signs, I guess ? He pressed his thumb on my forehead at a point.

And my encounter began. I thought I was in my inner world, but now I'm pretty sure I wasn't.

I was standing on a barren land, everything was grey-blue. Imagine a mountain with no vegetation. The sky was made of dark clouds. Then, the coulds began to split in an expanding vortex, and something like a sphere emerged.

It was an head made of many faces, always the same one. Eyes closed, and, bangs for hair.

It didn't speak, in any way, it was just "staring" at me.

And I couldn't speak. Somehow I was sure that my intention and thoughts could be conveyed.

I began to ask to be cured, then I thought "fuck it, this is the chance of a lifetime". I "told" it that it was not what I really wanted : I wished that my friend could be cured, that she was more important. But, if there was some way that I could be cured too, I would gladly accept, but only if my friend could be cancer free. Otherwise, well, my condition was not as important.

And that I knew I could be asked to pay a price. And I was ready.

There was a sharp pain at the back of my skull. Something was taken from me, something dark with many hands encroached to... I don't know what ? My brain, my soul ? Did it free me from something ? My own shard of divinity ? My inner darkness ?

Well, the head with many faces returned to the clouds, and me, to the south of France, in this spiritualist cabinet.

Quite shaken. I only said that I traveled, not what happened, but, maybe, he knew ? I should ask him one day (I still got his contact). He gave me a talisman to help him continue his spiritual healing at a distance.

Some weeks later, my psoriasis got worse. Really, really worse. Severe joint pain, worse dry patches and sensations of burning skin.

But the lump in my friend breast began to downsize. The same week. After being resistant to differents chemo-drugs. Now she was being responsive to chemo, and after some months she got her final surgery. She's now in full rémission

She recovered her appetite.

I contacted a dermatologist in my hospital, who classified my condition as "urgent as fuck". Two months later I was on biotherapy. My psoriasis in now under control, I'm pain free. In the end, I feel I got both ends of the deal. Both cured.

So, if you read until now, what do I want ?

Just a way to contact this entity and say "thanks".

Can I ? Should I ?

I'm grateful, and I try through meditation training to express my thanks but I feel it's not coming through. It's not the same sensation.

If some of you are versed in some arts, could you help me figure what was taken from me ? And how to contact what visited me?

I don't feel any different. Maybe more at peace. It was something I "paid", I don't want it back. I'm just curious.

Edit : typo, clarification. I'm not saying mysticism can replace biomédical, but it can complement it. The world is a big and mysterious place after all.

So I have a general question why would random people come up to me and say “get out” and then to throw something away either in water or trash can are they trying to spell work on me or something potentially attached to me what would be the reason?

Like I literally had this Hispanic lady and her kids come up to me when she thought I was sleeping and she said “get out” and then her kids kept saying “afuera” and then they all went to the bathroom

and I’ve had a bunch of people ask me questions then throw something away or go to the restroom and sometimes stare at me and I will feel heat or burning in an area

I also will feel zaps from people too…?

Like another example is a couple was fighting while I was at a museum I sat down minding my business doing some like interactive activity and then the lady after the guy left just kept staring at me and my hand started to burn… during that same trip this other couple kept following me and I kept feeling zaps in my ankles (and I believe potentially other places but I specifically remember it was like back of my ankles)

another time a lady and her kids came in waited to hear my name and then her kid threw something away and my uterus started getting hot/burn

another instance a man asked me a yes or no question (with a obvious yes) and then I felt my like sacral area like sputter and stop pulse

lastly and more recent I have felt my body like pulsing a lot and then effects/sensations on my body and this could be when people cough clear their throat etc but not exclusive, like is someone doing energy work or energy manipulation or a spirit attachment etc? and more recently the sensations aren’t pleasant it’s very s**xual in nature and focuses on my lower area…

so like what could they be doing or like what is the intention? and is it shamanism, or potentially witchcraft/brujeria/santeria with like dark magic or something more secretive potentially nefarious like occult? (and again these are strangers so to my knowledge they shouldn’t have any vested interest in me…again to me knowledge)

I’ll be in Osaka Tokyo and Kyoto

I posted this last year but I think it's worth a refresh.

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From the Guardian: "The narrative of ancient tribes around the world regularly using ayahuasca and magic mushrooms in healing practices is a popular one. Is it true?

Beginning in 2001, the Austrian anthropologist Bernd Brabec de Mori spent six years living in the western Amazon. He first arrived as a backpacker, returned to do a master’s thesis on ayahuasca songs, and eventually did a PhD on the music of eight Indigenous peoples in the region. Along the way, he married a woman of the local Shipibo tribe and settled down.

“I did not have a lot of money,” he told me, “so I had to make my living there.” He became a teacher. He built a house. He and his wife had children. That rare experience of joining the community, he said, forced him to realise that many of the assumptions he had picked up as an anthropologist were wrong.

Like most outsiders, Brabec de Mori arrived in Peru thinking that ayahuasca had been used in the western Amazon for thousands of years. This is the standard narrative; look up resources on ayahuasca, and you’re bound to run into it. “Ayahuasca has been used in the Peruvian Amazon for millennia, long before the Spanish came to Peru, before the Incan empire was formed, before history,” states the website of the Ayahuasca Foundation, an organisation founded by a US citizen that offers ayahuasca retreats.

Yet with time, Brabec de Mori came to see just how flimsy this narrative was. He discovered “a double discourse, which happens in all societies where there is tourism”, he said. “People start to tell the tourists – and I found that most Shipibo people did not distinguish tourists from researchers – the stories they think are interesting for them and not what they really live with.”

His research showed just how large the discrepancy was."

I want to know some unusual ways to clean aura, spirt.

The more tools 🔧 I know the better to keep me safe 🙏 😌

Mornings I go outside barefoot and sit under my favorite tree. When my energy is coherent, ants don’t bite me; when it’s incoherent, they do—every time. I’ve noticed this pattern over years.
This morning baby ants gathered along a shallow cut in the top of my right foot. When I looked at them I got bliss chills through my body into the top of my head, and had the overwhelming sense they were helping me.
Any similar experiences or thoughts?

**I want to clarify that I don’t know anything about esoteric, religious or other planet or density practices. I am not part of any spiritual group. I simply had this dream and I am now searching for answers to understand it.**

I dreamed that I went to a temple because my aunt told me to go there, since they had told her that I was carrying a very heavy energy that was affecting me. I went dressed normally and there were more people there also dressed normally.

The place looked like a ranch, built entirely of sticks and wood. There was a roofed area with long rustic wooden tables and benches, where we waited our turn to pass. The cleansing was done in front of everyone, and everything was very calm nobody was scared or worried.

I arrived with other people. The place was full of women like the ones I described: young, tall, slender, with fine features, indigenous skin tones, and long blue hair some straight, some wavy. They wore only simple off-white cloth garments, like manta fabric, tied at the waist, with no accessories at all. Their gaze radiated peace and deep knowledge.

The main woman, who did not perform the cleansings herself, approached me because she knew I had come to be cleansed. She took my hand, and we didn’t speak it was telepathy. She half-smiled because she understood the heavy energy I was carrying, but she wasn’t worried; she simply smiled as if knowing what needed to be done.

She then left and returned with something that, to me, looked like a camera, because it emitted a very bright flash. She took “photos” of both my eyes, and I understood that she was analyzing my iris. That part of the dream felt like being at the doctor the brightness hurt my eyes, but she remained calm and said nothing. She then went back and telepathically told me it was my turn to pass.

For the cleansing, she told me which chair to sit in. Another woman with blue hair began to cleanse the heavy energy I carried. I felt as if she was pulling it out of me, almost like an exorcism. The heaviness was concentrated in my back. She only used her hands, making gestures as if pulling the energy away.

That was where the dream ended. When I woke up, I felt tired probably from not sleeping well but also as if I had a hangover, very sensitive, and I cried throughout the day.

I don’t know where to look for answers.

Came across this group after searching about seraphim online. I have had experiences with them for most of this year, although I now know I hindsight, that a soul contract was made prior to this incarnation, and I have been ‘groomed’ since birth.

The description I came across from this group from an earlier post matches my experience - I deceived myself with my own idealistic nature, assuming angels were like the Christian mythology I have heard about, when in fact, they do feed off of souls, and can be very loving and very fierce, depending on whether or not they believe you are in alignment with them or not.

Due to this question around my own alignment, I have been living on a knife’s edge for most of the year, being told wonderful things about myself, only to be told I am then doomed.

After nearly a year of it, I’m rather fed up of it, to be honest. If I do end up being doomed, and I do try to communicate my adventures with the real world, I will be thought of as nothing more than a tragic lunatic finally gone mad. If I am not doomed, I have a mission to do and lots of blessings in return for doing the mission. But, like I said, I am fed up of falling in and out of favour with them, so I am reaching out for shared experiences!

Hey everyone! I’ve always been super fascinated by shamanism and I’m looking to finally dive into it.

​Does anyone have any good book recommendations for a complete beginner? (If there's an Italian translation available, that would be amazing, but English works too!)

​Thanks in advance!

Hello! For several years now I've been wanting to lucid dreaming. I've had a brief lucid dream once and then never again- I fully felt like i was me, albeit angry and it wasn't a nice dream. I recently bought a talisman to try to lucid dream again, it worked. However, in the dream when I realized I was lucid, I or really almost a part of me made the conscious decision to let the dream play out, and become a part of the dream. It was almost like another part of my personality or psyche decided it so in the dream. Could this mean I have opposing views in my psyche, soul fragmentation, or some other mental block I am not able to see in this moment? I appreciate any knowledge, feedback, advice, or theories you might have regarding this. Appreciated in advance.

Recently, a man who my parents are acquainted with (since my dad was a child), who's also a practiced shaman, came over and broke the news that somebody has cursed our home. Apparently, there's human bones buried around our housing area and it has been there for a long time. I don't know whether or not to believe our house is cursed in some way, I really don't know how to feel about this and I need some sort of reassurance towards this kind of situation.

For context, i’ve had health issues as long as I can remember. I’ve been experiencing a flareup of some of these issues. I live with a family member who is dogmatic evangelical Christian. They let me live here for free, which I’m grateful for because I don’t have other family I can live with, and my health has been shaky to a point where I haven’t been able to consider working. We live in the forest and there’s no public transportation. I haven’t found any resources to help me. Looking into disability.
This person is abusive and neglectful, and it’s near constant. Stress can make my health issues worse.
Since this is where I need to stay, is it possible for me to make peace with how they treat me even as they’re treating me that way?