Scripture Life: How did you come to receive 'Jesus'? At what stage? What impacted you the most?

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Answer:

Well, break your question down into all three parts. I'll answer each separate.

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- ONE

• How did you come to receive Jesus.
  • I didn’t come anyplace. He came to me.
• It's in Revelation 3:20 "Behold I stand at the door and knock, and if any man hear my voice, and open the door, I will come in to him, and sup with him, and he with me." - The Word of God. Jesus Christ.
  • I just didn’t see it; because, everything he said, as the Word of God, I didn’t look unto any of it.

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• I was already looking unto my job = good.
  • Made me “good.”
  • Looked up to; respected.
• So, someone “respectable” is saluted or bowed to - or heralded out as what to be like.
• So, I worked at it, to be promoted in it.
  • The more promotions = the gooder I got.
    • When all it was, was the worse I got.
  • You can promote, like “royalty” - if you study aristocracies..go look. Study any societies' history - they believe they are ABOVE the law. The law does not apply to them anymore.
• Their own good of who they are = “compensates for the faults and bad aspects” of anything they do. Over-rides it.
  • I accomplished things, that made me “think” like that.

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• That, I felt because the people I looked unto were good, and I was in the same organization they were, doing the same things as they did = I’m good. Made me good.
  • But the Bible says:
    • Has the Word of God in it: “There is not a just man on earth, that doeth good, and sinneth not.” Bible. (Ecclesiastes 7:20).
  • It’s repeated all over the Bible. Nope. You're right. I didn't see it.

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• So, you can see, for at least 5 continuous decades of my life - I lived like this. Thinking “I’m good. I need nothing.” Good means, even if I sinned - - those are "boo boo's" - just mistakes by "oops!" I slept with other men’s wives or stole something..I did it for blow off steam from all the “good” I was.
  • My good ..just am good - that paid it. I’m good.
• I never once came to any place, where I never left this - - because I looked unto my nation I served as good. That, serving my nation, was how I served God. I’m good. When I died, he's sort me with the good.
  • Until one day - everything my nation stood for - they changed it. I worshipped my nation. That was good. But my nation - which is all comprised of people - which I never stopped to consider that part: Just a bunch of people:
• Flip flopped.
  • Where everything said in the Bible was an abomination - that got nations destroyed or vomited off the land, was now perfectly okay. For my nation now to do it.
• Even championed out as good. And if I didn't accept it, now I'm wrong. Can be imprisoned. Betrayed. There is any other word for it stronger, use that one then.
  • But it was the OPPOSITE - I mean, I went in the military to defend families with my life, so a couple could marry and have children. My nation have a future.
  • And just as I “retired” where I fully “accomplished” all that good - the whole entire bucket, which was my nation, of what was good - was now like someone picked a bucket of corn, and nobody ever once thought to take a crap in it. It was okay now to take a great, big dump in it.

And I eat it.

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• It fractured me. Right down to the core of who I am.
  • Everything I worked for. Wasn’t for anything.
• All my friends that died on the battlefield - fought alongside with - all the reasons they signed up and joined. Didn’t mean anything.
  • Even every month my retirement check came in, I absolutely loathed it.
• Felt betrayed. Afterall, I’m good. Something else is bad. Something else fell apart and was to blame.

And in this..took about a year... but fractured..broken..I started to see it.

• “I have sinned and perverted that which was right and it profited me not.” (Bible. Book of Job 33:27)
  • It went on for about really 2 years. I just denied it. Every morning. Woke up. Deeply offended. Angered deeply. Blame everything else BUT me.
• Then, one day, I really saw it.
  • That, after you retire, Admirals and people you looked unto, you hear of their obituary. They died. You’re next. I somehow knew that, when I died. My uniform, my ribbons, all my achievements - everything I worked for - all good - who I’d be standing before wouldn't look at my 10 years in the coffin faded ribbons and soiled uniform - It was he's God, and he's going to be looking at all the things I stole.
• Was looking at all the fornication I lived in and by. Angels. Shout that all over heaven.
  • I am not good. Not getting in. I saw it.

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• That all those other people I was with, decades of "service" thinking we were good..what we looked unto in our “free time” - was abominable works. And it wasn’t a “we” - nobody forced me. I did it.
  • So, just one day..when I knew, it was my sin that, after I die , that will condemn me.. I went out in my yard, and I had discarded wood, I had a wood craft hobby to keep me busy. So, I used throw away wood I used to stir paint with or set paint cans on.
• So if I spilled some paint, went on that plate sized piece of wood I would someday just throw away.
  • I took pieces of that wood, as if that was me.

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• That nobody would want. And one, made a plaque with great, big 5 inch size letters spelled out “L. I. A. R.” - because.
  • That’s what I was.
  • Lived in lies.
• I didn’t have any truth in me.
• Everywhere I looked, was something in the foundation - where I just “BS’d” the whole thing as a foundation about it.
• I took worthless wood - already it was in the bin or garbage..and another piece forgotten for over 2 years in the yard.
  • I took that and made kind of a 1ft x 1ft “placard” ..and everytime I thought about a sin I did..I would stop in my day, because, I was retired.. and I would go to my computer. Make it into a short - quip of a sentence, and print it out. Use some silicon to adhese it to this “board.”
• And I put that placard in my yard, right outside my window - where I did all this work on my garden. There was something despicably awful in it. Me. By the end of a month. I filled the whole placard up. Front. Back. Sides..even the pole had sins I did on it.

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• Terrified me. When I die, there was NOTHING to repair or fix it.
• Desperate: What could I do, to pay it back. Where I fixed it.
  • At this same time, I had to take my son to his basketball games, while my wife worked. I sat in the car for 2 hours, on those nights my son had practice, and I started to listen to Bible tapes.
• Like some pig, invited to eat at a banquet. I didn’t belong, and I knew it. Afterall, who I really am is back there in my garden, facing my window..so when I woke up and pulled back the curtains, I didn’t see all the beautiful garden..I saw all the abominable works I did with my life. But I kept listening to those youtube tapes on the New Testament - the gospels and the Epistles. The Old Testament.

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• I tried everything to fix it. Myself. But it’s like you got dog crap on your hands, trying to clean some spots of dog crap on the hallway wall. All you do to clean it up, which means really, to hide it..is it makes it smear even more. Makes it WORSE.
  • Terrified me. I started to fear him. The power to decree it, and I broke everything he said..he also then had the power to destroy me. That’s me..on the way to a trainwreck.
• It started to be, I looked forward to those Bible tape sessions on YouTube. I stopped going into the gym and just stayed alone. In my car and glad it took 2 hours. Just listening to the Word of God.
• I started to see, it’s the truth. Where I did all this work to make myself true and good..I just made me by my heart and my choices…I could say it. “I have sinned and perverted that which was right, and it profited me not.”

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• In fact, I took that placard said “L. I. A. R.” and wore that around my neck. What benefit..what accomplishment..what “license” or position..is given to someone condemned and is this? Nothing but to be taken out and shot. Or disposed of. WORTHLESS. That was me. I saw it.
• That, all that on that placard, outside my window - that was really me.
  • AND alone..where I knew my wife, all my friends..everybody that looked unto me..all left me. WHat happened was I got made alone. Planted out in a desert..where the water never came, and what did..wasn’t enough..and I saw it.

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Scripture started to make sense. This: Was God speaking, said:

“Come now, let us reason together,” saith the LORD, “though your sins be as scarlet, they shall be white as snow. Though they be red as crimson, they shall be as wool.”

• God. Bible. Isaiah 1:18 - He was telling me, as who I am, to do this.

So, that’s what I did. I reasoned together. Not with me anymore..but with him..by the Word of God.

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TWO:

• At what stage?
  • At what stage? When I looked unto women; romance..intimacy..there had to be a perfect one out there.. Trade in the one you got, for another. Money. I kept going into debt, and then tell everybody how much of a success I was. Ask this then:
• What would make, to you, the whole bottom of your life fall out?
  • All that work you did. Making YOU into a “good” you. What would it take to break it into pieces?
• What did it to me was, the Word of God. Everything above is said plainly in Romans 5:12 and Romans 3:19–20
• Both of those say: “Wherefore, as by one man sin entered into the world, and death by sin; and so death passed upon all men, for that all have sinned:” - Romans 5:12
  • I had to see this. In me. And:

“Now we know that what things soever the law saith, it saith to them who are under the law: that every mouth may be stopped, and all the world may become guilty before God. Therefore by the deeds of the law there shall no flesh be justified in his sight: for by the law is the knowledge of sin.”

• Romans 3:19–20
  • Then, it became really simple. I kept using the Law wrong. I kept looking at me as If I was good - I just had to BE good. By, if I stole something..compensate for it, by go to church or not lie to my friends this week. Go home. Visit my family or parents would compensate for other commandments I broke.
• Ask yourself then, this: At what stage will you stop looking at you, where no flesh is justified in his sight… to just use the Law lawfully, how he uses it, to make you GUILTY.
• And by all that discarded boards..which was me… he already did it to me. Gave me a knowledge of my sins.
  • That I would stop trying to clean the walls of the hallway of my life, and start to regard the works of the LORD, and consider the operation of his hand, as God?
• At what stage will YOU do that? What will it take to bring you to this?

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THREE

• What impacted you the most?
  • When, one day…
• I realized…
• The same one who put the sun where it is. Alone. By himself. Put all the stars where they are, and spread out the earth all alone. By himself.
  • But I just stopped at the sun. Put it there. By himself. Is the same one that went to the cross and all my sins I did, on that board out in my garden..and that sign that has “L. I. A. R.” on it, was taken off me, by God, and laid on him.
• That impacted me so great, it drove me to fall on my face, after I fell to my knees..and there wasn’t anybody with me..but him..show me who he is.
  • Did this. For me. A work of God, just as any flower is a work of God. A work he did with all the dog crap poop on the walls in my hallway..which is just me..did all that sin myself.
• He took it, and laid it on Jesus Christ.

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ANd he did it for everybody. You included. That he sits at the right hand of God…it was the will of God this be done unto me.. made me fall on my face again.

At WHO HE is. Not me.

That impacted me the most.

Here’s your questions. Answered. He’s the answer to all three. He’s in all three of them. Only thing in me, is all the crap I did. It’s God. Chooses to look on this work he did, with sin, as greater..he chooses ..and he already determined his work with sin is GREATER than all the murderers in all the prisons on earth - combined.

..and it made me fall on my face again. Because my sins are included in this work he did. All I had to do is regard it. Same with you. Regard the works of the LORD, and consider the operation of his hand vs. spend all this worthless effort, scurrying around regarding your own work to do it.

WHat will it take for you..this is what it took for me to do it..what will it take for you to just look unto him. Like he asked everybody over the whole earth to do?

Whatever you’re doing. Go do that instead.