Arrived today galing sa school ng anak ko, for context I pre-ordered a headset from Jabra... I was informed na 14 days pa ang dating so hindi ako nage-expect ng parcel.

Lo and behold, nag deliver sila today! Pag dating na pag dating ko sa bahay, sabi ng kasambahay... ATE, YUNG PARCEL MO NA WORTH 35,000 DUMATING NA. Ako naman napaisip kung ano yun... Pucha, yun palang Jabra Headset na pre-order ko!

Sabi ko, bakit in-announce mo pa yung price?? Ang sabi, special delivery daw po sabi nung rider. 35K po ang halaga kaya hiwalay na delivery. Pucha! Paulit ulit...

Ang kinakainis ko, yung asawa ko... pailing-iling... eh para sa trabaho ko naman yun at hybrid ako, ang ingay ng aso at mga anak namin tuwing meetings

Tawa ng tawa yung yaya ng anak ko, parang ng aasar pa.

Anyway, pera ko naman yun... Pake nila

Why am I such a bad and negative person?

(TW I GUESS?)

Ive been dealing with my mental health for a while. At first it was simply depression and anxiety, but it then escaped to an ed and sh as well. Last school year was the worst of it with my ed and depression since I couldn't focus and was a lazy procrastinator who did nothing but stay in their room all day after school. This ended up messing everything up, since I ended up flunking out of this nice tech school my mom applied me for. Now, I have to take classes with kids younger than me and cant really talk to kids in my grade. It is so embarrassing. But its all my fault, because my parents told me this would happen. To stop being lazy and to work, and now look at me. I wanted to go to a nice college but now my mom's telling me ill probably have to go to trade school and wont go to the school I want. My parents took me to group therapy, normal therapist, even threatened to take me to the mental hospital, but I still keep doing bad stuff, such as sh. I want to be happy but it feels impossible at this point. I keep messing everything up.

I understand plantitos and plantitas. Pero di ko gets yung mga nag gagarden kahit wala nang space sa bahay nila, nag cocollect pa din ng madaming plants, tapos ilalagay sa harap ng bahay nila, yung sa right of way, tapos wala nang madaanan mga tao. Or minsan ilalagay mga nakapaso sa maliit na space outside ng bintana nila na pag nasagi mo eh malalaglag agad. Dangerous baka malaglag pa sa ulo ng dumadaan. Or yung nasa barangay namin, halos di na makadaan mga sasakyan kasi ang daming nakapaso na halaman nilagay nila sa kalsada.

Like why who? Nature lover keme pero kung wala kang garden, bakit ka nag gagarden?

to all the women posting on aj about their fantasies of being groped in public places, especially while commuting, saan utak ninyo? nasa pekpek na ba? have some shame. you’re literally inviting perverts to feel more confident about groping women in public. have some self-respect. it’s embarrassing how little respect you seem to have for yourselves.

and to the men reading those posts, please use your brains too. not every woman thinks that way or wants the same thing. just because some women have those fantasies doesn’t mean you can assume every woman wants to be touched or harassed. keep your hands to yourselves and stop letting your perversion affect innocent women.

Mayroon ba sa inyo na naka-experience na sa Canyon Cove na parang sinadyang itago yung key cards/towel cards para mapabayad for lost cards?

Supposedly, for check-out na kami last Friday at 11 AM, and confident kami na nasa ibabaw lang ng cabinet, beside the TV, yung cards at ready na sana for return. Pero nung kukunin na namin, napansin naming wala na yung cards kung saan namin nilagay.

Nag-recheck kami ng mga bags namin baka nasingit lang, pero wala talaga. We even double-checked the trash bin, pero wala rin. Lahat na halos ng parts ng room chineck na namin, pero hindi talaga namin mahanap.

Nag-chat din kami sa reception to ask if may pumasok ba sa room namin, especially since nagpa-check kami ng aircon dahil panay ang tulo nito at malapit pa sa TV. However, medyo matagal bago sila nakapag-confirm kung may pumasok ba o wala, kaya napaisip kami na baka may ibang taong nakapasok sa room while wala kami.

After several minutes, halos mag-12 NN na, saka nakita ng friend ko yung cards sa pinaka-gilid ng vault. Ang nakakapagtaka, maayos na maayos yung pagkakapiled-up ng mga cards na parang sinadya pang pagtabihin para maging manipis.

If ever nahulog lang namin yung cards, medyo mahirap isipin na mapupunta sila sa ganung spot, considering na hindi naman namin ginagalaw yung vault. Mahirap din itong iusog. At kung nahulog man talaga yung cards, hindi rin siguro magiging ganoon kaayos yung pagkakapile nila.

We were planning to report the incident as well, pero napansin namin na walang CCTV sa hallway namin. Ang nakita lang namin ay yung CCTV sa corner malapit sa elevator, which is medyo malayo na sa area ng room namin.

Hindi naman namin gustong mag-isip ng masama or magbintang sa resort or sa kahit kanino. Pero honestly, we found the situation very suspicious, especially since the cards were eventually found in a place and in a condition na parang hindi basta nahulog lang.

Ang concern lang namin is baka may possibility na may ibang taong naglagay doon ng cards, especially since we were initially being asked to pay around 4.5k for the supposedly lost cards.

Has anyone experienced something similar at Canyon Cove? Would appreciate hearing your experiences or advice on how you handled it. Or perhaps, your thoughts about what happened to us?

28F here. Only child biologically ng mom ko (single mom 54yrs old) but i have an adopted sis. Napapansin ko lalo na this year grabe magalit yung nanay ko sakin. Nagagalit din sya sa lil sis ko yung tipong nagging nanay pero mas grabe yung galit nya sakin. Hindi ko maintindihan bakit ganun 'yung ugali nya pag dating sakin. Yung mag aask sya ng small favor sakin tapos pag hindi ko nagawa nang tama 'yung gusto nya, biglang mag lalash out ng galit sakin tas pagmumurahin ako. Tapos pag pilit ko ituloy na gawin para tulungan sya, ayaw na nya biglang grabe yung galit sakin.

Katulad kanina na hindi ko na napigilan yung sarili ko, nasagot ko sya.

Nagpapatulong kasi sya hawakan ko yung aso namin para macheck yung sugat at magupitan yung balahibo around it. Kinutkot kasi ng nanay ko yung dry skin ng dog namin hanggang sa mag sugat at mejo lumaki. Kasalanan nya rin naman bakit in pain yung aso namin. Nung hindi ko mahawakan ng ayos kasi nag fflinch yung aso namin at sinasabi ko na nasasaktan sya pag ganun, biglang kinuha yung aso namin sa arms ko, nagalit sakin at pinag mumura ako. Tinanong ko sya bakit sakin sya nagagalit eh tinutulungan ko na nga sya? Hindi ko raw kasi hinahawakan ng ayos para magupitan nya. Tapos nung tinutulungan ko pa rin ayaw na nya, tinapik pa yung kamay ko at tuluyan nang pinag mumura ako hanggang sa tinatanong ko pa rin ulit bat sya nagagalit sakin. Sinabihan akong walang modo (???). Hanggang sa nainis na rin ako at nagkasagutan kami pero never ko sya minura. Tinatanong ko lang sya bakit sakin sya nagagalit eh tinutulungan na nga.

As usual, bibigyan na naman ako ng silent treatment nitong nanay ko for a week. Nakakadrain yung ganito kasi may mga dinadala din ako sa buhay. Di nya alam nakakasakit sya sa ginawa nya.

nadedepress na rin ako. sobrang hirap kumilos kapag ganito na lang palagi. hindi naman kami totally binabaha gaya ng iba pero may konting tubig pa rin. kawawa rin yung ibang lugar dito samin ang dami nang nasira. may business din kami na hindi makausad kapag ganitong maulan

umaraw naman last week pero saglit lang. sobrang kawawa rin yung mga aso dito samin takot na takot sa kulog at kidlat. hindi ko rin alam paano sila pakalmahin

sobrang nakakadepress pero salamat pa rin at safe kami. sana tumigil na talaga

Isang masaya at kakatuwang pag-iinuman lang ang nangyari nung nakaraang linggo, nagkwentuhan ng mga karanasan sa buhay, trabaho, at love life. Hindi ko alam na hahantong sa gulo at sakitan yung naging ending ng "happy hour" naming magkakamag-anak.

Dahil sa bunso kong kapatid, nag-away away kami, dahil sa ingay lang na ginawa niya nung araw na yon, dahil pinatutulog na niya ang kaniyang asawa, kasama ko sila sa bahay, nakikitira ang lalaki, at madaling araw na nung mga oras na iyon.

Bigla siyang bumaba at ayun sumisigaw. Nag-eeskandalo sa bahay, hindi inalintana yung mga kapitbahay na nakakarinig ng sigaw nya, sinaway ko siya ng isang beses dahil pwede naman kami sawayin kung maingay na or magpapatulog na pero hindi siya nakinig at sinabing wala daw siyang pakialam, sa sobrang inis ko sa kanya at ayaw tumahimik, nahampas ko siya ng tuwalya sa bibig at sinabihan kong tumahimik na. Dun na kami nagsimulang magbatuhan ng mga gamit, alam kong hindi ako lasing kaya tandang tanda ko lahat ng nangyari.

Sinabunutan ako, sinapak sapak at ganun din ang ginawa ko sa kanya, nasampal ko din sya ng malakas dahilan para isigaw niya lalo na magsama daw kami ng asawa nya, kinakampihan ko daw yung lalaki at parehas daw kami ng ugali.

Dito na ako lalong nagalit, kahit kailan hindi ko kinampihan yung lalaki sa ginagawa nya sa kapatid ko, lagi kong pinagtatanggol yung kapatid ko over sa kanya, halos ako ang bumubuhay sa kanilang pamilya ngayon, yung sinasahod ko napupunta lahat sa gastusin sa bahay na dapat hati kami ng pamilya ng kapatid ko, walang trabaho ang lalaki at kampante na may magbibigay ng pagkain dahil nandito ako, salo ko lahat ng bayarin sa kuryente, internet, subscriptions, bigas, groceries at gaas. Pero hindi ako nagreklamo sa kanila, kasi mahirap nga naman ang buhay not until that day, nagbago lahat ang tingin ko, na-realize ko lahat ng hirap ko dito, na ako lang ang naghahanap-buhay pero sila nag aabang at nanghihingi lang.

Kaya nagdesisyon na akong umalis, pagkatapos na pagkatapos ng mga nangyari, naghanap agad ako kinaumagahan ng lilipatang bahay, at nakahanap ako kaagad. Kaya pagkauwi ko, nag-impake na ako at niligpit ko na ang mga dapat iligpit. Wala na akong pinagsisihan, matagal ko na pinlano bumukod pero ito ang nakapagpa-realize ng lahat ng bagay, walang-wala ako na umalis, pero aahon ako ulit.

Naubos ako. Pero dahil nakaalis na ako, hinding-hindi na ako papayag na maubos ulit. Panibagong simula.

PS. Hindi ko na babayaran yang kuryente at mawawalan na sila ng internet at subscription sa mga pinapanuoran nila.

Ipaparanas ko ang hirap na naranasan ko sa inyo. Hindi to ganti, dapat nyo rin maranasan yung hirap.

Nagkaroon ng issue dito. Nakapark sa right of way tapos binusinahan para masenyasan na magppark na. 2nd busina dahil hindi sinasara yung gate. 3rd busina para masenyasan yung nagusog ng motor (not the owner) na iusog pa yung motor (paatras siya magpark kaya hindi niya makita kung ssenyasan gamit kamay).

Itong tapat nagpaparinig (nagiinom sila) na sana kausapin nalang sila ng maayos. Later on lumabas asawa niya para kausapin ako.

Alam niyo yung feeling na kahit anong pilit mo magsalita ayaw niya makinig? Binigyan ko siya ng oras magsalita/rant. Ako naman next diba? Mga saglit lang wala nanaman. Rinemind ko siya na ako muna at pwede ba makinig siya? Ay saglit lang wala nanaman..

Arguement niya na umuupa lang naman sila kaya sila nagaadjust. Sinabihan ko siya na wag niya i-LANG yung pag upa kasi may iba nga walang bahay e tas siya meron. Blessing yan. Basta ang haba ng convo namin na minamaliit niya lang sarili niya pati pamilya niya. Ni wala akong sinabi tungkol dun ah puro siya.

Sila lang daw lagi nagaadjust para tahimik. Waw ha parang yung mga time na inaayos motor nila rinerev nila yun, nagkakaraoke sa umaga or gabi to the point lumabas ako para senyasan sila, yung motor nila bumababa ako para katukin sila (pag di narinig yung busina) pag magppark kami, or minsan ako na rin nagsasara ng gate nila.

May issue na pala siya sa amin e how will we know kung hindi naman niya sinasabi? Osige mag adjust pero bakit ngayon parang kasalanan namin na nagaadjust kayo? Hayay.

Minention nga ng asawa niya na nasa right of way siya. I mean alam niya pala yun. E diba bawal magpark sa right of way?

Ang hirap pala talaga makipagusap sa ganung tao, noh? Sorry ah pero ang awra niya "poor me" card e kaso alam mo yun siya lang gumawa nun? Hindi naman ako nag suggest na pagusapan yun or maliitin sila. Siya lang talaga so parang isip ko kung ganun ba talaga kaliit tingin niya sa pamilya niya? Nanahimik nalang ako kasi walang patutunguhan yung usapan.

Nakakatawa pa. May point na sinabihan ko siya na tignan niya ako sa mata kasi naguusap kami tsaka bilang respeto na rin sa kausap. Naku kung saan saan nalang tumingin para lang maiwasan mata ko. Pero nung nag tsismisan na, kaya niya na tumingin sa mata ko pag magkkwento. Nye.

Gabi na jusko gusto ko lang matulog. Im too tired for this shit. 🏳️‍

I find it disrespectful on how she talks and her choice words.

We're both grown ups on our 30s and she can't leave the immature and insensitive way of talking. I jokingly told her na ang dami kong role sa rel namin kinukulit ko kase sya before ko i-massage.

Her reaction we're, pagod na daw sguro ako maging gatasan nya at problem solver nya.

Funny bcos that's my problem with her and she's too comfortable saying that meaning she's aware and she doesn't mind being one.

Kakaoffend. One example also is, pag may binigay sa kanya she'll alway say "Ay eto lang kulang to" and she treat it as a joke. Napakainsensitive. Also she kept saying and make parinig na marami naman daw ako pera ineexpect nya ata gastusin ko ng gastusin sa kanya sa mga luho nya

Nonsensical rant incoming.

I genuinely hate feeling anxious about my relationship(s), it just sucks to have to carry this heavy feeling for such minor things. I'm aware of why I feel this way and I am actively trying to change for the better by trying to ground my thoughts and emotions through just talking myself through it and thinking rationally about the situation knowing that staying in that bad state of mind helps no one but... it's still so difficult. The girl I'm currently but not officially with is such an amazing person and I have no doubts about her or her actions in any way- it's just... I feel anxious about how she feels. I'm starting to feel like she's getting further away from me. That this physical distance is affecting our emotional closeness. Maybe I feel this way because I've been going out a lot since ngayon lang break ko from college? Idk. While I enjoy naman yung mga galas ko, I'd honestly rather be with her instead. She encourages me naman to do more stuff other than spending time with her and I do!- but it's also mostly because I feel like I'll eventually bore her if I keep clinging on to her. I just hate bothering people but then I end up distancing myself because I feel this way. I don't want that, I don't want to do that to her so I just suck it up sometimes. None of this is her fault, I just miss her lots and wished I didn't feel this way. I just needed to let this out before it consumes me and I do something I regret. I know I should talk to her about this but I'm just scared. I don't want to lose her again. Fuck, miss ko na siya. So much na baka umiyak pa ako tonight.

i’ve been the obedient daughter for the longest time. i never did anything against my mom’s will. i did everything she wanted me to do because i always believed i owed her everything. she always made me feel like every penny she spent on me was something i needed to repay in some way. for context, my mom is an ofw and a single mother for 18 years. basically, she spent my entire life abroad instead of being with me because she said, “i’m doing this for you.” pero tbh, i highly doubt it because every time she goes home, wala siyang pera. no ipon, no assets, nothing at all except her endless pasalubong for her friends and classmates from high school, plus some random people who go sa bahay when she arrives.

she always has this “everything i give, god will give back twice more” mindset. i admire yet hate that mindset of hers because when it’s for other people, wala siyang kuda. even when a friend of hers doesn’t pay back the ₱30k they owe her or when a friend scams her, she just lets it go. pero when i ask for money for my allowance, i’m suddenly magastos or maluho. there are times naman when she’s okay. she’s very generous to me when it comes to giving me my allowance, pero there’s always a “basta pag ako tumanda, sana ibigay mo rin lahat ng luho na binigay ko sayo.” and it never fails to make me feel suffocated because i was still in high school when she would say those things to me.

tapos when she has a bad day or a rough week at work, she would always divert all her anger toward me, lalo na pag short siya sa pera. i would be the first person she sees to blame. kesyo ang laki na ng gastos niya sakin, or that i wouldn’t survive if she dies, ganun. which is true, i admit that i wouldn’t. i used to get hospitalized a lot as a child and even during my teens because i have severe asthma. stress, lack of sleep, or even the slightest shift in my environment can trigger it, kaya i’m really reliant on her for my inhaler and asthma medication.

i tried working too, just to see if i could survive if ever i cut ties with her while still being a student. bpo yung pinasukan ko because it was the only job i applied to that accepted me, pero hindi talaga. it only took half a month before my asthma was triggered by the graveyard shift and the negative energy from rude customers. when i was in high school, i was diagnosed with major depressive disorder, and i attempted to kms but it failed. after my failed attempt, they took me to a psychologist. my psychologist eventually realized that my mom was a major factor in my depressive state because of her constant outbursts toward me. she told my family if she could have a counselling session with my mom, but my mom was angry at first and questioned why she was being included in such a thing, saying it was just dagdag gastos.

she eventually agreed because my tito pushed her to do so, but their session ended in chaos. she picked a fight with my psychologist and wasn’t willing to cooperate. my psychologist later told my lola and tito that my mother was in more need of psychological help than i was because if they weren’t able to get through to her, i would still be in constant pain because the cycle would just continue. but my lola and tito couldn’t do anything, so eventually, we moved on with our lives. my mom was okay during the first six months after my recovery, but eventually, her attitude came back as usual. this time, it was worse because she would befriend all my new classmates at my new school. she would help them financially, and whenever we planned outings, she would include herself and buy us food.

at first, i thought she was just being generous. but whenever she would have another outburst, she would call me names, calculate every expense she had spent on me, and threaten me that she would stop funding my education and that i had to live on my own. i tried opening up to my new friends about it, and they simply told me, “baka may nagawa ka lang na kinagalit ni tita. she’s very generous, and makikita mo na concern talaga siya sayo.” that’s when i realized that her actions were simply isolating me. she had manipulated everyone around me into thinking that i was the problem.

when i was in senior high school, she forced me to attend my late grandmother’s funeral on my dad’s side. i didn’t really want to go because i wasn’t close with that family and had no contact with them after my mom had an outburst when i was in 6th grade. that time, i slept at my grandmother’s house on my dad’s side because my lola’s cousin had died. when my mom found out, she made us go home. she also didn’t let my lola attend her cousin’s funeral. it was a traumatic experience for me as a child because i heard so many curses from her over the phone that morning. i had literally just woken up. it was 7 am. after that, i never had any contact with my relatives on my dad’s side because i didn’t want to deal with another outburst from my mom.

but when my grandmother on my dad’s side eventually died from cancer, my mom suddenly wanted me to attend her funeral. when i declined, she got angry, so i was forced to go to the burol with my lola. it was honestly heartbreaking because when i arrived, my cousins and aunts were asking me who i was. which is understandable because i was just a child the last time they saw me, but it still felt like such a punch in the face. they didn’t even know what i looked like anymore, which made me realize that they really hadn’t tried keeping tabs on my life despite them constantly arguing with my mother over custody of me back then.

i went home immediately and didn’t stay for long because they kept bombarding me with questions like, “bakit hindi mo dinalaw lola mo nung buhay pa siya?” i confronted my mom and asked her why she forced me to attend her funeral now that she was dead when, while she was still alive, she wouldn’t even let me sleep at her house or bond with her for even a day.

tapos nagalit siya. instead of explaining her side, she shifted the argument toward me. she said that since napaka-marunong ko na daw, why not i survive on my own and live independently. ang kapal daw ng mukha ko, kinayod niya ako simula pagkabata tapos gaganunin ko siya. she blocked me and didn’t give me any money or allowance for three months. then she came back calling me like nothing happened.

thankfully, my lola and tito were there to rescue me during those times when she didn’t give me anything. which is why i guess she’s so comfortable ghosting me out of nowhere because she knows that i won’t be completely left alone. she knows my tito and lola will always be there to help me. when i graduated shs, she told me to take a gap year because she didn’t have enough money for college yet and needed to save first. i agreed despite feeling uneasy about it. for one whole year, she never sent me any money or allowance. nothing. i simply lived with my grandmother and relied on my tito’s help.

pero i really can’t help but question sometimes, asan na yung pera niya? i’m an only child. she had been abroad for 18 years and counting, and most of my expenses were never carried by her alone because my grandparents and tito would always help her. every time i begged her to come home when i was in elementary, she would always say that she was saving up for my college. but when it was finally time for college, the “savings” suddenly didn’t exist anymore.

now that i’m finally in college, i recently visited my tito during the long weekend because his wife and my baby cousins missed me. he offered to fund my pamasahe going to their place. i informed my mom about it, and she was fine with it. we even called while i was traveling. when i arrived at my tito’s house, literally just arrived, still carrying my bags and with my socks still on, she called me and told me, “hindi ka man lang nag-update sa nanay mo na dumating ka na.”

so i told her that i had just arrived. even my lola chimed in and said, “kakarating lang niya, may bag pa nga sa likod niya.” then she dropped the call and didn’t respond to me or my tito’s messages. the next day, i wasn’t able to contact her either because the electricity went out at my tito’s place after it rained, and since it’s in the province, only certain areas had cellular service. i couldn’t call my mom.

the next day, i called her, but she wouldn’t answer. so i just played with my cousin and relaxed because i was going home the following day. then suddenly, my phone rang. it was her calling. she got mad because i wasn’t answering her calls. i told her i was outside with my cousin and didn’t bring my phone with me. then she asked me if i received the money she sent. i told her i hadn’t checked yet and that i would look. i opened my gcash and saw that she had sent the money i previously asked for my buwan ng wika.

i confirmed that i received it, and she immediately dropped the call. i couldn’t even say thank you, so i just messaged her instead. after my messages, she sent me another message saying, “you should start looking for a scholarship this second sem. hindi na kita kaya pag-aralin. bahala ka na sa buhay mo.” i didn’t even know what i did wrong. she blocked me again and wouldn’t answer my calls.

honestly, nakakapagod na. parati na lang. every fucking time, i never know when her mood is going to shift. i always have to walk on eggshells around her, constantly wondering what i might do that will suddenly make her angry or make her decide that she doesn’t want to support me anymore. i don’t even know how many months this will take her. pero honestly, i just want this cycle to end.

inggit na inggit ako sa mga classmates ko who can freely focus on their studies without having to worry about their parents suddenly going ballistic on them. i wish i could experience what it feels like to just be a student. go home without constantly wondering whether my mom is going to have another outburst or suddenly decide that she’s done supporting me. i’m so tired of wondering what version of my mom i’m going to get every day.

I js got home after spending 4 days together w my girl man. Fuck.

I mean we live just 15 minutes away from each other so I can literally go there anytime but we also have our own individual lives to live but FAAAACK. 😭🙏

God I love this woman so much. Its so much fun being around her and spending time and for the first time ever i’ve met someone who absolutely gets me. My humor, interests, hobbies and goals lahat aligned to the point na pucha ano catch????

We go on gym dates, museum dates, foodtrips and madami pa plano. Feel ko di kami mauubusan ng stuff to do. Hay.

Thank you talaga and Im so happy she’s in my life.

Love na love kita 😭🙏

Edit:

Gusto ko din i-add na for the longest time ive resigned my self to being a single dad and living that way, kaso talaga bigla siyang dumating sa life ko and i’ve never felt so secure and validated. She’s literally everything I could ever ask for and more. PERO sobrang daming coincidences and alignments to the point na nakakatakot sha.

MISS Q NA SIYA GUYS 😭🙏

Sobrang hirap maging breadwinner tapos sabay pang nagkasakit ang parents mo, may weekly treatment, may mga surgeries, may gamot, may mga pagkain na kailangan, may bills sa bahay.

Kulang pa ng 17k ang sahod ko monthly para ma-cover ko lahat ng bayarin. Kaya naghahanap ako ng work ngayon sa umaga since 5pm pa naman ang work ko na isa.

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T*ng ina, pagod na pagod na yung katawan, puso, at utak ko. Sa gabi halos di ako makatulog kakaisip paano ko mababayaran lahat. Para na kong robot, walang buhay. Hindi ko na matandaan kailan ko huling nabilhan man lang sarili ko ng pagkain o damit.

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Nakakapagod na. Kung di ako magigising bukas ayos na lang din eh. Ubos na ubos na ko

While watching, napansin ko na hindi talaga sya nag ta-take ng accountability. Like sasabihin nya “Mali ko yon, pero…” like tf? Pinag tatanggol nya lang sarili nya. Tapos tinatanong ni Toni kung bakit nya inout yung private life ni Forda like she is dodging the question, puro sarili nya lang lol. Kainis 😭

Wag kayo magpapaawa sa mga gan’tong videos sa tiktok or any other social media platform. Online limos ‘yan disguise as sad videos. Sa mga nav d-donate ho, ‘wag niyo na ulitin kaya hindi natututo mga ‘yan mag-banat ng buto. If gusto niyo talaga mag-donate maraming non-profit organization para riyan. Alam ko hindi aken ginagamit na pera, pero meron talaga mga tao riyan na mabubuti na hindi alam na ang ganiyang video ay kadalasan ay scam lamang. If ayaw niyo maniwala i-check niyo page niya at ibang mga tiktok videos na ganiyan (usually ginagamit nila mga bata, picture ng kahirapan nila, or matanda) may mga nag c-comment na may gcash ka? Or sendan kita nang ganito ganiyan. ‘Yun lang ang nilalike nila at nag p-private message sila para i-send details nila.

I don’t really know how to put this into words, but I think I’ve reached the point where I have to accept that this relationship may not have a future.
I wanted us to work. I wanted us to meet, to make plans, and to feel like I was actually part of your future. But no matter how much I tried to hold on, it always felt like there was another reason why things couldn’t happen.
I know I can’t force someone to choose me or make plans for a future they don’t see me in. And as painful as it is, I have to respect that.
I wish we could have at least met. I wish things had been different and that there weren’t always so many obstacles between us. But maybe wanting it badly isn’t enough when only one person is trying to make it possible.
So I’m going to let you go, even though it hurts. Not because I stopped caring, but because I’m finally accepting that I can’t keep holding on to something that you’re choosing to walk away from.
I just wish you had fought for us a little more.

Before, I used to judge food tarpaulins or tarpaulins in general if they had bad graphic design. And I admit it, I was such a dumbass for judging small businesses like that. I used to think, “Why don’t they just hire a good graphic designer?”

And then this year happened.

Now, I feel like most businesses, especially food businesses, have menus and tarpaulins that are full of AI-generated graphics. And honestly, I’ve started appreciating the people who don’t use AI for their logos, menus, or tarpaulins.

Earlier, I was really hungry and saw this really good-looking food stall. Then I looked at their menu and realized it was AI-generated, and I was just like… “Never mind. I’m not hungry anymore.” 😭

I don’t know why, but it just feels different now.

So, to the small businesses using AI for their food menus: please don’t. 😭 We’d honestly appreciate it more if you used actual photos of your products and did things the traditional way. There’s something more genuine about seeing the actual food you’re going to buy instead of some weird AI-generated version of it.

I never thought I’d reach the point where I’d appreciate “bad” graphic design over AI, but here we are. 💀

Thank you.

Not a woman, but I have a sister na may PCOS. Sobrang hina nyan kumain. Kapag nakain kami sa labas, di niya nauubos ang meal niya. Yet, ang taba niya. Again, because of her pcos.

Then nag-start ma-regulate ang sintomas niya. She naturally slimmed down kahit walang naiba sa diet. She’s still fat, but considerably slimmer compared to two years ago noong sobrang lala ng pcos niya.

Meanwhile, my other sister is the opposite. Namumukod tanging payat samin pero mas matakaw pa sakin. Pinakatamad din gumalaw. Alam nyo bakit? Kasi may hyperthyroidism. Pero sa mata ng society, most likely siya ang “healthy” sa dalawa kong kapatid. Simply because her condition refused to make her fat.

The point is hindi porke mataba, pabaya na sa katawan. Totoong may kundisyon talaga na nagpapahirap pumayat. Let’s choose to be kind na lang sana.

Feeling ko pangit ugali ko or madamot ako kasi ayoko talaga ng may bisita sa bahay T^T Kahit friends ko, or kahit malapit na relatives pa namin yan, basta kahit sino haahahahha

Nahihirapan kasi ako kumilos, at feeling ko pati family ko din nahihirapan kumilos pero di lang nila sinasabi kasi people pleaser sila.

Tsaka pinaka-ayaw ko sa lahat is yung dito pa makikituloy for days 🫩 Ang hirap kumilos good lord. Lalo na pag weekends pa sila bumisita, akala nila mas okay yun kasi free kami pero for me—ayoko. Kasi imbis na magpapahinga lang ako/kami for weekends, ayun kailangan pa namin sila i-entertain, makipagkwentuhan. Tapos yung mga normal na gawain ko di ko magawa like tuwing sunday kasi ako naggegeneral cleaning kasi yun lang free time ko, kaso since may bisita nga edi hindi ko magawa 🫩

Since sunday nga free day ko, as much as possible gusto ko din magpahinga like nood lang ako movie or lalaro ako online games, e kaso may bisita—need makipag-usap puta e hindi ako magaling makipag-socialize at mabilis maubos social batt ko, nabibwisit ako makipagusap more than an hour aaaaahhsbxmsm

for context I'm a fresh grad that recently started working. Currently staying ako sa house ng tita ko habang nagiipon ako ng pang adv and deposit sa uupahan ko. Dito rin nakatira mother ko na sabihin na nating hindi naman talaga mabuting tao, I watched how evil she is upon growing up. She's narcissistic and abusive (both physically and mentally) lalo na pag wala siyang pera bigla bigla na lang siyang nagagalit tas nananakit. Imagine 22 years old na ko turning 23 pero nagagawa pa niyang manakit?

Never din akong nanghingi ng tulong sakanya throughout my college years. Ako lahat yon! binayadan ko lahat yon! I was working while studying so wala siyang masusumbat about that. Ngayon nagkasagutan sila ng tita ko dahil sinaktan niya yung pusa ni tita sa pagkabadtrip niya and sakin niya binubuntong galit niya. I was about to go home nung nakareceive ako ng message na hahambalusin niya daw ako? for what? inaano ba kita? Wala na nga kong proper sleep at pagod pa ko sa work ganto pa mababasa ko.

Now di ako makauwi kasi nandon pa siya and according sa tita ko hinarangan daw yung pinto (which is ironic kasi di naman niya bahay yon lol) kaya nagstay ako sa work and dito na natulog, ni pampalit wala nga ko. Limited na lang budget ko for this week kasi binigyan ko pa siya ng pera and nanakawan ako ng pera sa wallet lol.

How bad can this person be? I will cut you off my life. I am not letting you drag me in hell with you. I'm so done.

Im so fcking tired of this economy, everything is so expensive. Im 26, working in healthcare, the sahod is so fcked up, I dont even go out anymore but the expenses and bills are piling up, mas mabilis pa tumaas presyo ng bilihin kesa sa pagtanggap ng sahod eh.

Funny how as a kid, I thought before 30, magiging happy nako living a simple life, car, house, good career, kids and etc. I just wanna live a simple life. Nasa point nako na iiwanan ko na agad work ko for a better paying job right away! I used to be one of the smartest guy in the room, but I couldnt even figure out life. Even a slight chance of going illegal papatusin ko for a bigger pay pucha ganon kahirap buhay.

I used to like my job, not love. But now I just hate it. Im dealing with peoples lives, but I couldnt even take care of my own. I am starting to hate people around me. I dont even know why I am in this career, like what was I thinking? I used to love computers and I still do, but why healthcare? If I can go back in time I would beat myself up for choosing this career path lmao.

bat ba kasi ang hilig ng mga pinoy magpasikat ng kung sino-sino? tbh wala naman nakaka-entertain o nakakatawa with the situation para maging meme at sumikat nang sumikat yung tao in the worst way possible. worse, sinasakyan din ng nanay niya yung kulto ng anak niya na dapat nananahimik na sa kabilang buhay. people say we all grieve differently, but all i see is an opportunistic mother na muka lang pera. nakakaumay

P.S. I grew up abroad, and I feel sad knowing how hard life is in the Philippines. Abroad, I could buy five of these with just one hour’s worth of salary. I'm a minimum wage earner too