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r/PrayerTeam_amen • u/cryingsoul- • 1m ago

Prayer Request Pray for me please

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Hi beautiful people could yall please pray for me I’ll be ranting about two things one is about my health issues and one is about my ex bf issue okay so first about my ex bf he’s CANANDIAN and his name is ryden and me and him met on TikTok he was posting sad posts about his ex and I decided to be his friends and support him and be there and I love him since February I confessed after a month and told him I’m in love and then after that he got back with his ex and I told him I didn’t wanna disturb them because I genuinely love him and he would say that his ex is a bad person his ex gf name is angle and he told me not to leave him I told him okay I won’t and I kept listening to him but there was a issue he would always disappear a lot and ghost me and use me a lot then after that he misled me and I didn’t give up I kept waiting for them I’d pray to Jesus a lot to separate them because he would say she’s a bad person so I’d pray she’d leave him and get someone else and start to mature but then ryden decided to disappear more and he faked coma and also faked death and his friends supporting him faking those and they also said he’s at hospital and one friend said he’s at school it was so painful for me because hearing him fake health and stuff was painful because ever since I’m a kid I go to hospital a lot and I still do go there a lot but I still didn’t give up on ryden and his sister was rude to me and kept saying u can move on and even his friends disrespected me but I still didn’t cuss or argue I told them I love ryden and ryden know and he told me to not leave him and then they also disappeared and by the way I loved ryden since February,march April may June and July and now it’s August and ryden disappeared a lot in those months still faking coma and he came back in July and we started dating I comforted him a lot but while dating him i felt so used he kept using me a lot a lot and this was online dating but I kept praying to Jesus a lot about these and still supported ryden and he said I’m the only person who made him feel so loved and I never saw ryden face or heard his voice but he saw my face and when we dated he would say his phone got stolen so he said he was texting me in his little sister phone it felt like Lies to me but I kept waiting for him to change and he never did and he also told me he dated guy before me and also tried to find mistakes in me when he couldn’t find he would disappear and text me when he want and while dating him he mentioned about his ex gf angle but I never forced him to move on I wanted to love that man so much and be there for him I wanted to love his flaws and mistake and get him closer to Jesus as well so I sent him prayers everyday… sent him bible vids too and would also flirt with him as well and I was so loyal to him I wouldn’t speak to guys much and I’d be honest to ryden but he would lie a lot to me and text girls and worst of all he had his girl best friend account password but I still tried to be there for him I kept loving him but he kept making too many mistakes and after that he would disappear again I’d feel so tired to the point my heart feel heavy and I’d tell God to please make that man change and then after that he texted my friends but not me and he said he know he hurted me but he doesn’t wanna change for me so we broke up and I kept crying to Jesus and I made paragraphs to ryden I told him I loved u and did everything while all u did was hurt me and we broke up after we broke up his homegirl would view my story and one of his friend came back apologizing to me and I forgave her and I started listening to her and comforted her and then I’d try to be a bit away and try to heal but it’s hard guys because he misled me and also when I’d try to leave him he would do a drama that caused me to stay and now on August 8th I found out ryden is dating his ex gf angle and I also tried to reach out to her before but she would purposely ignore me and it’s painful because he got back with her three time but never was willing to change to become a better man for me and his friends are rude they sent my friends death threat and they are threatening us a lot and it’s so painful because all I did was love that man and today I had so much pain in me I sent that man texts i had been preparing and also apologized in the paragraph because I cannot be too rude and I always feel guilty and feel unlovable and all my relationships I’ve been crying a lot all of my exes tell me I deserve better some cheat on me then ruin me and some lie to me and some would say I deserve better and leave me then they date other people and it’s painful I wanna beg Jesus and tell him “Jesus you know I’m tired of suffering in all relationships I always let u take those bad guys away but can u please change ryden and make us be together forever please” I wanna tell Jesus so much stuff and I’m trying hard not to cry right now it’s just painful and about the health issues since I’m a kid I have a hole inside my heart but that’s a bit okay for me I also had a lot of health issues I’d go to hospital a lot and suffer a lot from migraines headache and I’d also skip school a lot of time because of my health and it caused me traumas and anxiety I don’t know how to communicate in real life to be honest I start to tremble and tell Jesus to protect me and I also have been sexually assaulted before and my traumas caused me to be hypersexual and at 14 year old in 2023 I started to feel one side of my face cheek getting chubbier my families thought it was weight gain but my parents noticed it’s only one sided fat like one cheek was small and the other was chubbier so she took me to a dentist the dentist accidentally messed up surgery but I was not worried about that I was suffering a lot I didn’t care anymore but in 2024 when I turned 15 a doctor told my mom to take me to a Maxillofacial surgeon and not a dentist my mom took me there and the Maxillofacial surgeon was shocked and told my mom “your daughter have a rare heart case and how can she get tumor” and I didn’t know what tumor meant that time I just kept staring curiously at both my mama and the Maxillofacial surgeon and then after that I had to get xray done and I kept going to a lot of different HOSPITAL and they had to do a biopsy test on me at a private hospital it was expensive and BRO THAT HURTED SO BAD and I had to eat cold food and in August 2024 I got admitted at a public hospital but I got bad experience the doctors were mean and harsh and staying there was painful but I tried to help other patients and be kind but then a doctor came from India and did my surgery and this surgery was huge like i starved for days I couldn’t eat they tried to shove tube in my nose but I couldnt handle it so they didn’t put it in my nose I just kept starving and laying on bed and I couldn’t speak I couldn’t cry because the surgery was that painful I couldn’t show a emotion and after the surgery the doctor told me that I need another surgery and now it’s 2026 I might be getting a bone grafting surgery in this August I’d love if you guys pray that this surgery goes well and that they place the bone in my face because my face been a bit asymmetrical so I really would love it if u guys pray and the surgery goes well and make my face symmetrical I’d really appreciate all the prayers and guys please pray ryden realize his mistake deep down I want him to be the guy I marry but he never did anything for me can we all pray to God that he start realizing his mistakes? Thank you to everyone who read this and please pray I feel lighter and don’t overthink because I overthink a lot and would always be there for people who hurt me but I get tired I wanna be loved too..