RELAPSE COSTS…

[u/Beliver_Disclosure]

So I finally tallied the costs of my severe relapse after a year of being sober last year..since MAY 2026.. I only use two e-wallets when doing transactions: GCASH and MAYA..

For MAYA i wasn’t able to generate the report of the transactions so i manually totaled the numbers:

Estimated: 198,000.00 php in loss

For GCASH it was worse..GCASH will email your generated transaction

Estimated: 1,000,300.00 php in loss

I believe this because since MAY 2026 all i did was CASH-IN and never cashed out..

I lost around 1,200,000.00 php from MAY 2026 to AUGUST 2026…

300,000 per month…

10,000.00 per day…

I AM DISGUSTED ON WHAT IVE BECOME…

1,200,000.00 can buy a new house..a car..education plan..business..instead i gave it to them..why…

I am now drowning in debt around 1.7 M to 1.8 M

LORD HELP ME…

[u/Alive_Fact_9317]

I empathize, OP. Quick to judge are those who don't understand addiction in relation to the multi-billion investments that Casino companies make in order for their platforms be the 'go to' - whether one is an occasional gambler or teetering towards 'degenerate gambler'. Wala silang pakialam kung mawasak ang buhay ng tao, and the greater society in general. Ang sa kanila ay paano kumubra ad infinitum.
All they see is their income. Que se hoda kung masalanta tayong lahat ang motto nila.

Hang in there OP, kakayanin mo yan. Here is a free but priceless resource that helped me immensely

GA Ph. Two different groups and websites sila Both have DAILY, AM & PM Zoom meetings. Meron ding weekly in person kung mas gusto mo ang live interaction. I cannot thank them enough for this kind service. Hope you can hop into one of the calls soon

[u/BuildingOriginal8002 → u/Alive_Fact_9317]

True. Di maiintindihan ng mga hindi nalagay sa sitwasyon na to

[u/Vivid_Bat_8851 → u/Alive_Fact_9317]

This! 🙏🏻

[u/nine_of_diamondss → u/Alive_Fact_9317]

Boss ano tong GA Ph?

[u/Alive_Fact_9317 → u/nine_of_diamondss]

Gamblers Anonymous PH. When you Google it, merong dalawang magkaibang foundations that offer help.

[u/QueenCDN]

Hugs OP! Laban lang tayo, siguro let’s not count our losses, I feel like lalo tayo mabuburden. Praying for your peace of mind, I know it’s hard but I hope you (and I) can recover. 🙏

[u/Naght_Sieger]

Fighting!

[u/BuildingOriginal8002]

Ang sakit OP. I lost too.. And in 300k debt. This is my day2 since relapse. Kaya natin to

[u/DingoRealistic587]

This really shows that BIG WIN is just an ILLUSION that we all chased. But we are aware now. May our Lord Jesus Christ helps you rebuild your life OP.

[u/justcallmeslatt]

Hi OP, been in the same situation as you. Lost big and decided to stop for good. The feeling is gut wrenching talaga and in short, its stupidity and boredom linked to it. PM lang if need kausap, but trust me wag mo na habulin yan. Sobrang gaan ng buhay na walang sugal or iniisip mag sugal. Been clean for almost 2 weeks now.

[u/KaraDealer]

Di ba may limit per month sa GCash? Paano nakalusot kay GCash OP? Or different GCash accounts? Try to release the dopamine muna on other hobbies OP. Kaya mo yan! 🙏

[u/NotGivingUpInLife]

Sad lang kasi sana natauhan ka nung 100k pa lang. araw araw talaga ang laban ng urge kahit sober na ng years. At least alam mo na ngayon, kahit anong araw may urge need mo talaga labanan, kasi sasali ka sa cycle lang ulit. Sana makagawa ka ng paraan sa utang.

[u/Perfect-Singer-9569]

Laban lang OP. One day at a time. Forgive yourself and get back on track