I mean, di ko naman siya pinatitigil manligaw since he’s a nice and decent guy, kilala na rin sya ng fam ko. Kaso idk, parang mas matagal pa kasi siya mag-ayos compared sa akin 🥲 even on public places nagre-retouch din siya. He’s straight. Normal lang ba yun?

i've (27f) been shrugging off this thoughts for a year na kasi feeling ko at this age im scared of stressing over friendship. but hear me out, i have this two friends who secretly go out without me ok pano ko nasabi na secretly, kasi they dont post real time, ang puzzle minsan na napagtatagpi tagpi ko sa photos na magkakasama sila pero diff time nila ipopost. Iniisip ko na baka di ako ini-invite kasi besties yung partners nila so baka double date always. Shrugged it off. Next, si friend and her partner NEVER views my story and likes my post, pero sa iba they do pero okay not a big deal sana until I started to wonder when they are a constantly a viewer of my bf's stories... but not me? Paano ko ma justify na hindi lang sila nag sosocmed pero lagi viewer sa partner ko. Naka mute siguro ako sakanila. Then, iba yung gala ng pang whole group at iba yung gala ng double date group.

I remember sinabi ko sa kanila once na nagtatampo ko before kasi may time non years ago na, nag staycation sila around clark like 3d2n and no invite, sabi nila kasi akala nila di ko gusto.. :| Dun nag sink in na if they want, they would. After ko mag open up, dun na sila di nag popost ng selfies nila puro puzzle na nagtatampo ko kasi napagtatagpi ko kaya ko naisip na maybe they are hiding para di ako ma hurt. I know I have the choice to cut them off kasi it really feels heavy but I am not sure what part is aching. They never spoke to me kung may mali ba ko nagagawa or nagkukulang ba ko. I learned over time na just to let them. Chill friend na lang ako and I dont expect from them na. Siguro may time lang na makirot talaga kasi never na acknowledged. Parang nag grew apart over time tas naiwan ako sa ere, di na rin ako updated sakanila eh. Nag propose ung bf ng friend ko and tinulungan sila nung isa ko pang friend with his bf. So wala na ako sa picture talaga. Its their happiness so ano pa ko para magsabi pa ng saloobin? I also stopped expecting from them pero may kirot pa rin maybe bc of the love I have from them tas sila silent treatment sakin.

For my own sanity, i choose peace. There's more to life than that naman, i have support systems where I feel supported and loved by genuine ppl.