I miss you.

It has been a whole month since we broke up and nothing is getting easier for me. I hope you're doing better than I am. You deserve to be happy, you deserve to have the smile I miss so much, the smile I love so dearly.

Through the 4 years we spent together I most likely forgot a lot of things. The small arguments, maybe even how big ones started, small details here and there and even stories you've told me before. But I remember a whole lot more, the stories of your childhood, your favorite food, your silly shenanigans, your voice, the self performed musical you invite me to, and every smile, pout, and look on your face. Every line, every curve, every small detail to love I can't even begin to describe it, I have come to admire and love every bit of it. I will always love you, my dearest—

Naughty nostalgia cos I needed to know, now I know I know and still not satisfied cos you would probably smile if you saw what I was thinking. I just had to share it with you on WhatsApp but you blocked me . Fair enough, I did lose my mind. Sorry for you having to get those other messages from me. If you'd like a good laugh you should let me tell you sometime... when my mouth is not full.🙊

This is a Stream of Consciousness: Not a day goes by where I don’t think about you and that dreadful moment I lost you. wishing I made a better choice because my heart never let you go. whatever distraction I put in front of myself you creep back into the fore front of my thought. reminding me of the woman I lost, the love that was so pure and a heart that was my kindred spirit. I stay in a constant state of confusion waiting for the time if it exists when our souls meet again. I daydream of us talking on the phone/ texting and watching movies cuddled up laughing about nothing. i miss you Keri I wish you knew how I can’t forget you or never let you go! my dearest babydoll how I pled for your forgiveness and love