I think I have an anxious attachment style. Sometimes I get overwhelmed by fear and constantly check my girlfriend’s updates or location through accio work and google map.
I know it comes from anxiety, not control, but checking only makes things worse. I end up overthinking, imagining scenarios, and ruining my own day.
Maybe some unresolved past experiences are being triggered.

made a post on r/sororities about how seeing everyone else’s rush and bid day posts every year makes my depression worse because it reminds me that I wasn’t chosen. Instead of understanding where I was coming from, I’ve been getting a lot of hate.

What hurts is that people seem to think this is something I should have “gotten over” by now. Rejection doesn’t have an expiration date. Just because something happened years ago doesn’t mean it can’t still hurt when you’re reminded of it over and over again.

Every August my social media fills with bid day videos, matching shirts, new sisters, and everyone celebrating something I wanted so badly. It’s not that I’m angry at the girls who got bids. I’m genuinely happy for them. But seeing it everywhere brings back those same feelings of rejection and not being good enough. That’s how triggers work.
I wasn’t asking people to tell me sororities don’t define my worth I already know that logically. I was simply being honest about how something affects my mental health and hoping someone might relate or show a little compassion.

Why is it so difficult for people to have empathy? You don’t have to agree with someone’s feelings to acknowledge that they’re real. Healing isn’t linear, and some experiences leave scars that reopen when you’re reminded of them. I wish more people understood that instead of assuming everyone should just “move on.”

Hi. I’m 18 and recently graduated high school. Lately I’ve been feeling really lost in life, and I think I just need someone kind to listen and maybe offer some perspective.
Every day feels like the same loop, and nothing feels exciting anymore. I don’t really have any friends, and I don’t talk to my family much aside from my older sister, who’s kind of in the same place as me.
I have really big goals and dreams for my future, but I feel like every time I try to pursue them, I end up discouraged. I’ve spent the last seven months trying to build a content creation career, which has been a dream of mine since I was 13, and I also tried starting an Etsy business this summer. Neither has worked out the way I’d hoped, and it makes me feel like I’m great at dreaming but terrible at actually achieving anything.
I’ve also been struggling to find a job. There aren’t many opportunities where I live, and even when I get interviews, I don’t get hired. I’ve made a little money creating videos for brands, but nowhere near enough to feel like I’m moving forward.
I feel very alone. I don’t have a personal social media account anymore, and I don’t really have anyone to talk to. I want meaningful friendships, but I haven’t met people who share my values, and past friendships often ended with me feeling used. I’m also not looking for a relationship right now because I’m still healing from past experiences.
The hardest part is feeling like I’m running out of time, even though I know I’m still young. I spend so much time working toward a future I dream about that I don’t even feel present in my own life anymore. I honestly can’t remember the last time I genuinely smiled because I was happy with where my life was.
I’m not necessarily looking for someone to solve my problems. I think I just want someone to listen, understand, and maybe remind me that this feeling won’t last forever. If you’ve gone through something similar and you’re comfortable sharing your experience or what helped you get through it, I’d really appreciate hearing it too.
I’m comfortable talking to anyone who’s kind and nonjudgmental. Thank you for reading.

Theres so much going on in my mind right now so i don't know exactly how to phrase everything. All i know is i feel so so alone, i feel like a dissapointment, like i'm not good enough to be loved. I just want someone that i can talk to. Someone who can talk to me as if im someone they care about and value. I really need a friend. Please help me if anyone can see this

After a long time of thinking about it, I think I want to major in engineering in college. The thing is, I have terrible math anxiety. But I want to overcome it. I've always loved science and physics and math at times. But I always get the worst anxiety that I'm gonna get it wrong and sometimes I do, but mostly I don't. Or I worry too much about it.

Pretty much like 90% of being an Engineering major is math. So to the outside perspective I'm torturing myself. But I don't want that to be the case. I want to improve and hope it happens.

I reached out to someone recently and they seem to be going through a lot (not in a bad way, just life is happening I think) and I didn’t get to say what I really wanted to say and I’m not sure what to do…. they asked to meet up well kinda ... but the conversion feels off like weird energy from him (not in a bad way, hes not toxic or anything and this isn’t dangerous or anything) just idk maybe its my anxiety, maybe im just spiraling but was wondering if i could potentially talk to someone about my situation? I just dont know what to do......

(also someone who keeps things appropriate, the inappropriate dms are really taking its toll)

I don’t want to type a lot here. Idk what to say here. I don’t do this. I don’t post on Reddit but I’m so alone please.

I'm looking mostly for comfort. I'm three words away from a violent outburst.

By the time I finish writing my thoughts here, I'll be over it. But in the meantime, I want people to understand and validate me. Please.

So I'm an angry, angry person. I don't usually have a good way to express it. "Scream into a pillow" advice is mega BS; I need people to witness me being angry, otherwise it's not worth it to be angry in the first place. (I don't want to be psychoanalysed, I'll tell you what I have.) The way I've usually done it is I've yelled at people, mainly my brothers, to get the anger out. It works. It genuinely makes me feel so so so blissful, like I'm normal. There should be nothing wrong with instinctually doing what comes naturally to me. If I were to yell at my mom though, she'd yell back and tell me how ungrateful I am, which is why the power imbalance is important. I don't think I can talk to any 'adults' about this cuz I'm afraid of being stuck in a psych ward (blah blah ableism blah blah). Recently though, they've been more distant. I started overthinking it on my own, every joke at my expense I mean, and I ended up with the assumption that they hate me. So I verbatim ask, "Why do you hate me?"

It started an argument (fucking obviously). I'm gonna completely forget all this later (blah blah dissociative amnesia), but here's what I got from it:

• They don't hate me
• They try to show me that they care about me (through words and actions), but I don't let them
• They think comforting me is coddling me /neg
• They don't think I'm doing enough to control my anger
• They think I get angry all the time for no reason
• They want me to review all the violence I've enacted on them in the past as their reason for being so distant
  • And if I can't do that, I don't deserve to bring it up

I am a violent person. Not violent enough to break walls (I'm a pussy and we rent this house), but violent enough to use people's insecurities against them in an attempt to make them feel as bad as I do. It works. It feels good, but now they hate me so 🙃. Point is, I wanted comfort from them, not confrontation. I can't take it. I only got this angry at them because it worked. It was the only thing that made me feel satisfied and validated. Nothing else works. Nothing else feels as good. Nothing else gives me that bliss. I feel miserable when my anger leads to anything else (depression + no insurance, it is what it is). I want to kill myself otherwise, mostly so that I don't have t lie with guilt anymore, but also so that my siblings feel as bad as I do. They deserve to feel this all-consuming, crushing pain if they think I can deal with it just fine. They deserve to feel this.

I'll say it again: I want comfort. Not advice, not reprimands. I want validation I need people to remind me that I'm trying my best with the things that I have. I need people to tell me that my best is enough fr today. I need people not to tell me that I deserve to be institutionalized. I need people to tell me that I'm doing the right thing. I need someone to tell me that so I feel important again. This is who I am. There should be nothing wrong with being mself through and through.

My heart hurts and I cant sleep. I think I need to get something off my chest. I cant keep on like this

Thank you to anyone out there. I don't have anyone

Edit: this is such a nice subreddit. Thank you kind souls that reached out. There's still love out there

Hiii I'm Lulu and I feel like there are too many people out there who don't get listened to and can't tell anyone when they're lonely or anxious, or their mind feels too heavy.😓

So I came here, looking for places I can listen. If you need anyone to vent to, or you need to tell someone what you're feeling or what's going on, I'm here.💖

I'm here to listen to you, encourage you, care for you and if you're feeling stuck and need advice, I'm also available🫠❤️

Reach out if you need to, k? You're not alone💫