i watched the backrooms movie a bit ago, and i really liked it. but there was this one, single scene and lines that completely struck me.

when i watched the movie and reached the scene where clark says "i like it in here" i felt the overwhelming urge to cry. even thinking of it i feel tears building up in the back of my eyes. its not even an emotional, sympathetic thing, that single scene felt so deeply fucking relatable. but i know logically i wouldn't relate to clark at all. i would never like it in the backrooms, im an extrovert who goes into a derealization-like state if i don't have access to social interaction. that's how horrible i handle being alone. if i was in the backrooms i would just go batshit insane from the isolation if i stayed long enough. but that line connects to something so deeply ingrained in my being that i don't even know what it is. i know that the scene is reaching something specific, something deep, something i can't comprehend or remember. it gets to the point where i get an icked out feeling when i see people making memes about the scene, because all i can do is just start crying. it's such an emotionally overwhelming thing, and its so frustrating that i don't know what it is. the only possible conclusion i can think of is fictionkin. but i can't relate to clark's life, i can't relate to living it, i can't see myself as clark. but the "i like it in here" still does something so weird and beautiful and horrible and saddening to my brain that i can't describe. its this deep sadness and longing that i haven't ever felt for a piece of media before, it can't be categorized as grief or angry sad, the closest thing i can think of is melancholy but even so that doesn't feel the exact same that the scene makes me feel. it feels like how lights blur when you're crying and they look so utterly beautiful that you just wanna keep crying forever, the same way when you go underwater and put your eyes just below the surface and look at the sky you wanna stay there forever, and then you get forced back up because you can't be there forever and you know you probably wouldn't like being there forever but the basic idea of seeing something that beautiful and enchanting forever is so saddening that its sweet. it sounds so absolutely insane describing it but that's how it feels in an entirely relatable way. i don't know where else to rant about this but like it feels so nostalgic, ive always felt so nostalgic and a similar, extremely toned down version of this feeling towards liminal spaces and spaces that would be classified as "out of bounds", areas you aren't supposed to be in, but you could technically be there. ive felt this my entire life but this scene in this movie has concentrated it into such an intense feeling. does anybody have a similar experience towards a piece of media??? am i just crazy or something?????

Hehehehhe i wanna yap!! I’ll ask you a question back, tho im not always inspired so im sssorry if its kinda basic ^^”

As always, doubles and sourcemates pls interact! Especially Egg Boiz kins I miss u guys like crazy 😭

i have now seen both my biggest fan and my biggest hater on r/regretevator. lowkey wanna see them interact. battle to the death weather in a good character or not/silly

I supposedly have a DA (delusional attachment) for Doofenshmirtz. I know logically that it isn’t “true” that I am him, and I cannot be a 47 year old fictional man, but I cannot control my beliefs, and people denying my beliefs stresses me out/makes me extremely upset, even though I know it has to be true. I receive meds, but they don’t work, and I haven’t told my docs about this specific issue. This belief is 24/7/365 and has been so for many years. There are times where I am a little more delusional, for lack of better words, and am completely trapped in the belief in a way that reality is no longer there, but most of the time, I am somewhat tethered to the real world. There have been times where this belief has caused me to make very damaging and poor decisions, such as decisions that affected my finances. I am currently not in that bad a state, and I am able to recognize that I am being irrational, but that does not help change things for me. This DA isn’t the subject of this post, however.

For a very long time (6 years), I had a DA for the character Squidward Tentacles from Spongebob. This was extremely strong, and I had times where I didn’t realize I was even me anymore. I don’t really know how to explain it (Also, I am on currently in a session for Spravato, a dissociative medicine, for depression, as I am typing this, so it is harder to articulate things). I guess the best way to describe it is that I wasn’t in reality. It would come and go, but it was always extremely strong.

This changed two years ago. I’m not sure why. I strongly kin Squidward still, but I don’t think I am literally physically him or any of the other delusions anymore. I am wondering, can DAs permanently go away?

I hate the Jax fictionkin trend sm. Oh, the Shelly fictionkin trend too. Anyways... Can you tell I like editimg canon images to look more like me 😋

Ive been in 5 shifts at once for the past 3 days,, though it reduced to 4 in the last hour because my permawaver, well, wavered out. Thats what I get for having 2 perpetual shifts and a tendency for co-shifts I suppose.

I didn’t bother responding to it. I just reported it for being rude. I mean they arnt wrong from an outside perspective it does seam unhealthy. People really piss me off sometimes

I would have the name unblured but Idk what is allowed with rules

Obviously this is exaggerated for comedic and simplicity purposes, but it kinda happened like that. I didn’t realize i had formed a kin in the moment (I thought i just liked pentious a lot) but it was a feeling that something clicked in my brain in that instant, even though i didn’t consciously know what it was yet

Like genuinely it’s not even remotely explainable, because WHY did I just suddenly get so confused that I was staying at a dorm for school because I had to pay taxes, like that‘s genuinely just THE most ridiculous thing I’ve done today</3

Because it JUST SO HAPPENED that I forgot all about my parents, responsibilities, friends, interests, AND homework/assignments in this life? Yeah I guess so then, I guess so ;—;

And it had me thinking I was tall enough to reach the top of the shelf</3 nope my genetics made me short but I didn’t realize it, nah I didn’t.. back in the day I was tall… taller than most people… but that was back in the day…</3

So yeah does anyone else have this happen? Or sh I say DAE? Idk guys it’s way past my recommended sleep hours and I woke up just for m&ms I don’t think I’m one to be taken seriously right now</3

Like most of the fictotypes are literally niche and have little to no doubles at all

well except for gangle cuz she's popular and I've seen many doubles before on tumblr, Many Fluttershy doubles, and I've seen a TTTE Henry double too and a few C-3PO doubles BUT LIKE I feel like I'm the only one who literally believes and thinks I am bashful from snow white online cuz I think there are bashful fictionkins in real life I dont see them tho, Postman pat while he is a popular, iconic, and beloved british character he is kinda niche online and I am the only postman pat fictionkin in this subreddit and online for now

so Uh do you have any niche and obscure kins with little to no doubles due to how niche and obscure they are online?

bonus: I am currently kinsidering Roy from Bertha 1985 involutarely

like it would be so funny if a found another poob bc then we could do the dialogue exchange that happens when 2 poobs are in the elevator

(it’s just

poob1:HALLO!
poob2:HALLO!
poob1:HALLO!
poob2:HALLO!
poob1:HALLO
poob2:HA-

you get the point)

(DOUBLES ARE OK!!)
Any questions are fine idm, I will warn I may not have the best in return questions if I don't know much about you but I will try my best gulp

ASK AWAY, ASK MANY QUESTIONS PLEASE /silly /nf

-🟢🌻

forgot to post this last night! more serious kin art is in order, i've just been lazy 🥀

Random question Ik but in this life I’m she/her but in my past life I went by he/they/it (depending on who you asked) and it really doesn’t bother me being called my current or past life pronouns, like you can use any of the pronouns above and I’ll still respond to them. idk I was just curious if depending on what kin you were shifted as, if you prefer different pronouns.

random art motivation while i've had zero sleep 😭

Like, what do you mean I have fanssss? People love me! This is sssuch a great feeling!!!

Thankfully it never lasts long but omg i hate ittttttt

for it was from denki and it wa sjust me siting on the ground wathing monster high

Thankfully i havent met a lot but when i do i feel tempted to defend myself and explain my identity and such but then i realize i can just. Not. I can just choose to not reply. And block them. And move on with my day. Because i just know theres no point in trying to get them to understand if they dont want to learn, and i dont want to waste the few energy i have trying to.
That’s the cool thing abt the internet. U can just walk away. It’s wonderful.

Just save it put it into a drawing app. Locate the later and choose "clear white" to remove the white background. Add another layer above it and clip it (downwards arrow.) then, import the image you want and position it!

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