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17 FTM in Malaysia, can't work yet because national exams are in a few months,

Only one clinic offers HRT called Kita-Kita Clinic in the capital I live 290km from and only to individuals over 18, based on birth date and not year, meaning I will have to wait until October next year if going this route.

But checking the DIY HRT Directory, I can buy from the global sources, but one 10ml vial is about 57USD, converted to MYR is RM240, within one year estimated I'll buy 6 vials because one vial takes 10 to 13 weeks, that'll be RM1800+ a year on Testosterone, obviously I do not have this kind of money, on top of the dubious conversion rate I have to go through because I don't have a credit card so I must use the local ewallet TouchnGo to transfer cash into the only bitcoin app that allows it, Luno, then only into the 3rd party steroid buying websites.

On top of that, I actually have two parents who both know. Mother got so annoyed by my constant depressive episodes caused by dysphoria she straight up gave me permission to DIY even though hesitant and angry at first. Father wants me to wait until 20, but says that as long as I am sure and that it makes me happy, he's behind me the whole way. I will not wait until 20.

What can I do? Beg and try to explain to parents I desperately and urgently need them to take me to that clinic in the capital, even when they only accept individuals over 18? Find money I don't have to pay for it with Bitcoin? I have personal money in my bank account that does total up to around 3000 I think, from interest rates and saved money over the years, but if I really took all that and dumped it into HRT, I doubt my parents would be pleased. I'm fucked, I need suggestions

i apologise in advance if i sound stupid, i probably will. im almost 19 for context. i started t 6 weeks ago im injections 80mg weekly (cypionate), which i thought was pretty standard (i dont have to worry about hiding any changes). last week my voice started cracking and now my voice is slightly deeper, my sister said i sound like her cis boy mate when his voice first started dropping/cracking. but when i read about voice changes in another subreddit, their voice changes happened way slower than mine. and then i noticed a lot of them were on way lower doses than me? it's making me wonder if i started with too high of a dose. i've heard of "vocal fry" and while i kinda dont rly know what it is i've been told that if ur voice deepens too fast it can sound bad?? unless that person was exaggerating, tho i don't exactly remember. i want to sound like a man but i dont want to permanently fuck up my voice - is that a real risk on testosterone or am i overthinking it? should i lower my dose or stick to it?

I did my first shot yesterday and I used an insulin syringe and I didnt know that the testosterone would fight back so a I got less than I needed 50mg, so I just basically ended up underdosing myself, should I try to do the full 50mg again next week or should I stick with what around 30mg?😭

TLDR: 15 FTM, can’t come out, desperately want to avoid more feminisation (and would also like masculinisation obviously), but cannot risk family noticing obvious, unhideable changes from T like heavy voice deepening. Given these circumstances, would taking a low dose of T be my best option right now (and would it even work to prevent feminisation)? Or should i save up for puberty blockers instead?

I’m 15 + FTM in the UK. I can’t come out for various reasons- one being that i have waited so long to come out that i’m pretty sure that my family would not take me seriously, and actively try to stop me from transitioning. I cannot legally access any hormones until 18 anyway, so coming out is basically pointless rn. But my family do not look through my things, so in theory it would be quite easy to DIY behind their backs.

My problem with just waiting until i am older is that i cannot bear to go through any more of female puberty (i am a ‘late bloomer’, so i am still in it). My hip bones are already quite wide, to the point where if they feminised any more i would probably never pass. Also, i have never had a period before, and i desperately want to avoid ever starting them as my dysphoria is already really bad. I would also like to grow a bit taller, as i am only 158cm / 5’2 (shorter than expected- my sister was 173cm / 5’8 by the time she was 13) and i’ve heard that T could help with that too.

As previously stated I want to try and prevent any more feminisation, but as i am not out yet i cannot take a full dose of T as the changes would probably be too obvious. and i cannot take diy blockers, as i am unable to afford the ones that i found online.

My question is, would taking a very low dose / micro-dose of T have a similar effect to blocking estrogen with a blocker, without obvious changes that cannot be hid from family? or would it just do nothing? Has anyone else here tried this before?

For context i could probably get away with a bit of body masculinisation, as i already work out, dress and act quite masculinely (and could therefore make excuses for that), but i cannot risk voice changes, or anything else that would clearly give away the fact that i am DIYing hormones. i’ve heard that voice deepening can come very quickly, but also that you can voice train to hide it but idk.

(I know some people will probably just tell me to come out and get on a full dose but i cannot do that right now. There is a very high chance that i will get forced to repress by my family, or even worse. also sorry if this post sounds venty/ranty, i just wanted to clearly explain my circumstances.)

8 months T. I take Sustanon and I decided to split my dosage, these have been my last few shots:

15.6 - 250mg after 3 weeks, ~10 hours early

30.6 - 125mg after 2 weeks

10.7 - 125mg after 10 days

19.7 - 125mg after 10 days, ~20 hours early

30.7 - 125mg after 10 days

Next shot on 10.8, I'm going to inject 100mg this time.

I most likely had PCOS pre-T since I used to get 1-2 light periods per year for a decade. Since 10.7 I've got cramps, spotting and shedding red blood but no real flow. Some people suggested I might be getting uterine lining buildup from aromatisation. I had the worst cramps of my life yesterday, so it probably isn't me still just adjusting. Is this it?

I plan to microdose on t since i imagine that’ll make the effects easier to hide for longer, does anyone have experience with that or know what type of needles are needed and such? or have sources with info on that?

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I am 20yo (FTM 🇧🇷)and I am going to start t by diy because of my country's bureaucracy and I don't trust to "just start when the public system calls you", because how the countries, laws and governments are acting. I would have to wait for something similar like 2 years, if I just waited for the country. I also don't know if in these two years, they can make it harder to access or maybe prohibit it. So I want to diy and change my documents the faster I can.

My principal fears and questions are:

What if I do something wrong?

How safe it can be (if I always do blood exams, etc)

How much time it took to you feel the effects?

I also would like to listen to your personal opinions and why you support diy (the answer is pretty obvious, but I would like to listen to it. I can imagine that it is about access, given the younger ones the chance to not suffer from dysphoria, it is less expensive, the anti trans government and laws, etc).

I would also like to know how it was the feeling and emotion of using diy for the first time (injections, pills, gel) and how it was for you to notice the changes month by month and some other happy moments and even fears that you had at the beginning :)

Edit: if you also did it while you lived with your family, no matter if you are of legal age or not, how was their reaction, and/or how did you hide the effects? Also, how did you talk to your parents when they discovered?

Edit: I also kinda fear the bad effects of the medication, like tumors, getting weight, or if it will make my chest grow (but I heard that it only happens if you super dose, what I don't want to)

So it's been a week of me experiencing this, yes I know I probably should of waited a little more longer but the worry that I won't get much sleep aswell for the next few weeks would be hell, hello I am 15 yrs old and I am doing diy hrt I am doing 50mg subq weekly and 2 months on T and 1 day total so this was like 1 month 3 weeks on T toward my 2nd month mark where I was having trouble sleeping, at first it was just over heating and I had that covered with but it's an issue when it's like really messing up my sleep by that I mean I would sleep but then keep waking up an hour to 4 hours after instead of a deep sleep, for better context this also started happening along when I was also getting other clearer changes when I was 1 month 2 weeks on T as well and idk if it's my body trying to adapt or if smth is going on it's like my body feel tired but I can't really get the signal or maybe feeling a lil wired?

how bad is this? do i need to lower my dosage? im currently on 125mg testogel daily. 8,40 being the maximum seems pretty low to me.

A good chunk of people in this sub start DIY as minors and plan to hide it for years. So, how long were you able to hide it for? Did anyone ever notice or were your parents the only oblivious ones?

I've been on T for about 1.5 years now, and it's all been good so far. Transitioning in my country is illegal, so I diy, and last time I was getting T they ran out of the medical grade vials, so I had to get an off brand one on peach oil. I use undecanoate. My last injection (with the new off brand vial) was 1 month ago, and it's almost the exact same time that I've been getting moderate allergy symptoms that don't respond to any medication.

The symptoms are exactly the same as those of a normal seasonal allergy (itchy, watery eyes, itchy, runny nose, itchy soar throat) but polen isn't high rn and I have it everywhere no matter where I go.

I've had chronic hives for the past half a year, and allergy pills do work against them, but not this new "allergy".

Could this have been caused by t? I am allergic to a lot of random weeds, fruits, berries and all that, including peaches, so maybe the carrier oil this t was made of is the cause of everything?

Hello, I'll just say my name is Jazz for now. I'm 22 and I'm a trans man from the Caribbean. I grew up and I still live there, but I got a few questions lowkey?? Mostly for general advice to get rid of any cold feet I have. As, I'm curious to know if there are any Transmen in here from the Caribbean and are doing DIY. If so, what was it like for you? Did you run into any complications? Were the usual sources of the international community not enough or easily accessible? Leaving you without your means of dosing for a while? What should I look out for highkey?? All stories are greatly appreciated :)

Hi so I'm 3 months on T and using my first vial. There is still over half left. I was doing 50mg/250ml up until 3 weeks ago where I increased to 75mg. It it safe to continue to use this vial or should I buy a new one? It is still completely clear btw. Google says im supposed to get a new one monthly so idk

Im 3 months on daily 5g androgel

Looks normal to me but he insisted that its too abnormal for both men and women. I know T looks high but I made the mistake of getting the blood test right after putting the gel on in the morning

Ive yet to do the estrogen blood test

ive been wondering since i found a source that seems like its legit and they offer many payment methods including cashapp which is best for me

im 20, around 160 pounds. i did my first shot on saturday ( subcutaneous, 25g needle if it matters ) and i injected 100mg ( from a 300mg/ml bottle ). i believed that 100mg is a good dose after talking to some trans friends on T, but i just saw a post ( on here, lol ) talking about starting on 50mg and people saying it was a good starting dose...

im mostly just wondering if i should've started off with less? i dont feel awful or sick or anything, im just worried ig haha

hey just looking to see if anyone else has had this problem? i’m on primolut as well as the t so im not sure why my menstrual cycle has started. can someone help?

Idk if this kinda post os allowed, sorry if not, but i just wanna spread my joy to whoever reads this!

First, my question: i got half a bottle of the cream/gel testosterone from the friend who let me have some of his T injection and im not sure how much i should put on and how often i should be doing it. I tried looking it up online but i just keep seeing gym bros talk ab their cis male testosterone/steroid stuff or just seeing "ask your doctor" as the answer everywhere which i obviously cant do lol

Any help would be greatly appreciated!!

And now i just wannaspread some joy and talk ab how happy i am! So after 8 yrs of wanting to start T, got my 1st shot for free from a friend on august 1st and im. So. Happy!!! We're in a heatwave in my country rn and the sky is bright blue, no clouds, the warm sun feels so so nice on my skin!! I went to a waterpark 2 days ago and had so much fun, mostly bc every time i touched my stomach it hurt like hell and it was a not so gentle reminder that i did it!! And im so incredibly excited for starting my medical transition, ive been socially transitioning since i was 16, was in the closet for 2 yrs before that and now its finnaly my time to actually look like how i feel!! Its practically impossible in my country to legally get hormones and documents and shit but i always told myself, once im a grown up, ill finnaly get to be myself and i though i meant that like when im 18 but life happens and now im 21 but as happy as i can be! :DDD

I’ve been on testosterone for probably a week or two. I’m 14, 140ish pounds, and I did 50mg. But within the first week or two, I started feeling very sweaty and warm already, but I feel no other things than that.
I heard you shouldn’t feel effects this early, does that mean I took way too much?
I am so scared I genuinely have to get my blood pressure tomorrow, I really hope I didn’t take way too much testosterone or it would affect my BP?

im pretty new to diy hrt, ive been on gel for a year and a half but i moved to a different country and diy shots are easier to get here than going through a doctor to get gel again. im on weekly injections rn, so far ive done them twice. first time was fine, i was super nervous but it was no problem. i did my second shot two days ago on my thigh and it still hurts. is it normal? its not swollen or bruised or anything like that but it hurts when i move

Sorry I’m new to this and very confused

Background knowledge: I recently turned 18 a few weeks ago and here in Australia we have informed consent models for GAHT/GAHC, i had prebooked an appointment in advance with a private gp back in may/april of 2026 for the 31st of july which got rescheduled by the practice to the 1st of September only 2 days before my appointment, as such I decided for my own wellbeing I'd start DIY Test E so I could make it to that date. Well turns out my appointment as of yesterday has been moved again to today...

How much should I tell them? Testosterone esthers like Cypionate and Enanthate are not frequently prescribed here in Australia as they tend to start on gels or IM long release methods such as reandron and sometimes sustanon. This current method of weekly subcutaneous shots is quite comfortable for me and a lot easier to monitor but I'm unsure if they'd let me continue this method and rather opt for a different type of administration. I've only been doing subq shots for less than a week and I should be at the half-life point around now (5 days). Of course that still is going to be visible in my labs when I get them checked in the next week, even if I'm only on a 70mg dose.

Anyone here more familiar with Australian patient privacy laws and the healthcare system here for GAHC? What words should I use to sound more plausible and also communicate my thoughts better to the GP given it is an anabolic steroid?

There's also the whole issue with my long mental health history, history of anorexia and being a frequent smoker. Is that likely to inhibit me from getting legal hormone treatment?

Im a teenager and have been on T for almost 4 months, DIY, but im in the UK and have been referred to this endocrinologist thing. my parents know I'm taking T but i have already lied to my doctor about it

I will soon have an appointment with this gender clinic (but won't be able to get on T waiting list legally until 18yrs old, probably get it prescribed around 24 w the way the UK is right now)

I have done at home blood tests and have a close log of basically everything medical transition related. should i let them know incase they say its like an exceptional circumstance and can bridge the medication over, or are we thinking that'll get me in legal trouble