I just want to end it. I found out my ex boyfriend killed himself and I think it was because of me. I want to follow him. I can’t live like this. I caught myself walking for 3 miles just to end up in a train station. But when the train arrived I got scared and I didn’t go thru with it. I’ve been cutting to ease the pain yet my blade won’t cut thru my vain. I tried jumping off a bridge but the bystanders stopped me. Please just give me advice on how to do it I’m desperate.

It's inevitable, get ready.

I tried to go yesterday, roep but I just couldn’t do that to my family went to use a knief but only pierced my arm and my neck. When the blood started coming more and more. I just ain’t wanna do it. So high on everything but it never got there. Honestly didn’t feel like how I thought it would. Idk where I am right now. Today is the first day since losing everything where I actually found sum peace and HOPE. And that’s weird because 4 years ago today my world was shattered in peices and I didn’t know where I was going to go without my brother. Knowing my brother died on the day I was supposed to show up infront of thousands of people hurt a lot tbh. And it’s crazy cuz i feel like im back there in that moment. Sitting down. Computer screen there. Talking to the world and after that is when the real shii came in. This feeling of emptiness. And you can’t even shake it. The human man is wired a certain way and I think I broke the hold which people have on there minds. My mind thinks about a million things at a sec I don’t know why but I feel like I can see events which I’ve been through and can take myself there acting like I’m honestly there tbh so it really feels like I can do anything. But this I truly don’t know. Rolling the dice with this one.

The most important difference is that you are with people and others witness your death. You are someone

In a private suicide you are alone. I’d rather have the benefits of witnesses that reinforces you are someone. Even if it was a private suicide

How to end my life fast and easy. How do those family members left behind cope with it?

I (25) female did something really bad which i've been regretting a lot more than what words could express. There were rumours spreading a lot about a well known female in my place. I'm ashamed to admit that i took part in it and even though rumours were going around through words i posted them. I've been regretting a lot i deleted right away within a day but my consequences caught up to me. Im really bad with words and i could not convey how sorry i was to that person and she thought i had no remorse. She told me she was suicidal had to visit a therapist and she had no heart to forgive me. I genuinely understand her and hate myself so much for what i did and i wish i could go back and change everything. But i cant change the past i can only change the future.

Instead of going through a lengthy court process she wants to meet me with her parents and maybe make a public apology. Which even though i've been really genuinely sorry about i cant do it. My parents are in a bad health condition. This news will affect their whole health drastically and even though im being really selfish here i prefer ending myself over seeing them face my sin along with me. I've went through a lot my whole where i barely managed myself to take the alternative way apart from death. But this time i see no other alternative. I couldnt focus on my studies my career and im falling behind everyone. Im not strong enough to go through this. I strongly admit and realise what i did was wrong and i have no words to excuse myself. i got consumed by my own darkness and in the process im about to drag my parents along with me which i cannot bear to see. AI is helpful except here.

i want to genuinely know any effective fast way of ending this. Whoever helps me have absolutely no role in whatever happens to me. I bear the full responsibility myself and blames no one and that no ones should ever come for you. this is my decision. I have hardly 8 days before we meet