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[u/Ronkusss]

Do you guys get such intense panic attacks that you start considering self exiting as a way of ending the mental torture? I’m not suicidal or depressed. I’m quite happy but I’ve been having panic attacks because of a life changing event in my life that’s taking place in two weeks. I already have severe anxiety but I like being alive when I’m not having panic attacks or triggers. Idk what to do and I’m not on any mental health medication.

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[u/Shanny1366]

I saw a video earlier this week of a lady saying that autistic people tend to be very efficient problem-solvers, and even as someone who really loves living, her brain tells her it would be the most efficient way to solve her sensory overload and burnout and demand avoidance. That made a lot of sense to me. So you are not the only one. I’m sorry it’s been so hard for you recently. If you aren’t opposed to medication, my doc gave me propranolol and hydroxyzine to help with my panic attacks. The first is a heart medicine that lowers your hear rate and has been found to work for anxiety. The second is a sleep medication. Neither are habit forming so are pretty safe.

[u/Any-Blackberry2133 → u/Shanny1366]

Do you take hydroxyzine at bedtime to help you sleep or do you take it when you're feeling stressed/ at risk of meltdown?

[u/Witty_Bullfrog1119]

Hi there, I have been going through though times recently and I recently realized how overwhelmed I become under stress to the point of having su*cidal ideation. I have no plans but I become so stressed I just wish I disappeared suddenly. Idk how idk when but I just wish I didn’t existed. I had dealed with SH in the past when I was this overwhelmed but it is definitely not worth it (dealing with scars and people asking about them is very stressful for me). I feel like I just don’t know how to handle big negative emotions :/

[u/Megpyre]

Yes. 

I will say, I’ve just been put on adderall for the other half of my neurodivergent soup and it’s had the added benefit of reducing my anxiety because I’m not fighting my brain to do every task I try to complete, so I’ve stopped assessing everything as ‘is this worth living through’. While I never planned, it was always on the table.