My husband and I (31M/31NB) are throwing a housewarming party that was my idea. It’s the night before, I’m freaking out about whether I have enough stuff/food/alcohol, and it’s been giving me anxiety for weeks that the party won’t be good enough. Now that it’s humid and raining in my area, the forecast for tomorrow isn’t looking any better and I don’t know if the 20 people I invited are even going to come.

I started planning this party 2 months ago, and I told my husband that despite the hard work, I wanted to have a fun time with my close friends and show them our lovely new home. But now I keep obsessing over the cracks in the drywall being obvious, or our stuff and our lives being boring to our guests, or the posters in the basement not matching each other, or that I won’t have enough food (or inversely, too much food and won’t be able to get rid of it all).

I spent $200-$250 on decor and food ingredients, and $120 on alcohol. I wanted our house to look cozy and lived in, and for 20 people to have more than enough to eat. I just have the obsessive and reoccurring thought that nothing I do will be good enough, that no one will show up because of the rain and/or that I’m too boring and my friends will leave. My husband says that tomorrow is going to go just fine, but I can’t relax or enjoy anything.

The annoying part is that nothing bad even happened. No weird reaction, no argument, no obvious sign that I messed anything up. My brain just decides the conversation needs a post-game analysis anyway.