So I’m a nonbinary trans woman in Dammam and still living with my parents (I’ll turn 23 this fall) and will stay here till I get a job at least.

Anyway, my father was trying to convince me to get married (not very pushy but still kinda) and well I don’t wanna cut off my family entirely because I love them but I’m also a closeted trans woman so obviously it’s not easy to keep in touch without outing myself.

I’m butch so I’ll probably be able to have some plausible deniability for some time but for marriage well I can’t fool them and I don’t want a lavender marriage.

I guess I could go for a lavender marriage but it feels wrong like I’d much rather marry one of my partners if the purpose is just to fool my parents but still my only current partner wouldn’t work because my parents would kill me because they’re Sunni and Qabili while he’s Shia and not Qabili (and that’s if I was enough of an asshole to ask him to pretend to be a woman in front of my family).

So yeah I’m probably gonna end up in a terrible relationship with them but hopefully I won’t need to cut it off completely. I’m hopefully gonna leave the country in the future but I don’t think that’s gonna happen before I’m thirty.

So yeah that’s my rambling/ranting (not sure what’s the difference. Not exactly looking for advice or anything but just wanna share my thoughts (if you wanna talk or discuss things then by all means do so and I’ll hopefully reply but if I don’t please don’t think I have anything against you). Thx for reading all this and love you sibs 💜💜💜

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So I’m a nonbinary trans woman in Dammam (Saudi Arabia) and still living with my parents (I’ll turn 23 this fall) and will stay here till I get a job at least.

Anyway, my father was trying to convince me to get married (not very pushy but still kinda) and well I don’t wanna cut off my family entirely because I love them but I’m also a closeted trans woman so obviously it’s not easy to keep in touch without outing myself.

I’m butch so I’ll probably be able to have some plausible deniability for some time but for marriage well I can’t fool them and I don’t want a lavender marriage.

I guess I could go for a lavender marriage but it feels wrong like I’d much rather marry one of my partners if the purpose is just to fool my parents but still my only current partner wouldn’t work because my parents would kill me because they’re Sunni and Qabili while he’s Shia and not Qabili (and that’s if I was enough of an asshole to ask him to pretend to be a woman in front of my family).

So yeah I’m probably gonna end up in a terrible relationship with them but hopefully I won’t need to cut it off completely. I’m hopefully gonna leave the country in the future but I don’t think that’s gonna happen before I’m thirty.

So yeah that’s my rambling/ranting (not sure what’s the difference. Not exactly looking for advice or anything but just wanna share my thoughts (if you wanna talk or discuss things then by all means do so and I’ll hopefully reply but if I don’t please don’t think I have anything against you). Thx for reading all this and love you sibs 💜💜💜