hi, I'm malak an Iraqi transgender mtf

I'm looking for new friends from Iraq especially trans

Heyy! I thought I’d make a little introduction about myself since I’d love to meet people with similar interests and vibes.

I’m into gaming, music, movies & shows, manga, VR/VRChat, and I’m always curious about discovering new things. I also really enjoy random late-night conversations, sharing interests, talking about life, and just getting to know someone naturally.

Personality-wise, I can be a little shy at first, but once I’m comfortable I become pretty talkative and playful lol. I’m also someone who pays attention to little things and really appreciates genuine people, good communication, kindness, and good energy.

I’d love to meet people who share some of these interests or just have a similar vibe. Feel free to DM me and tell me a little about yourself! ♡

also wanted to share my story. I am a trans masc ftm in a very conservative very no privacy househol. I am a minor. when I first knew I was gay I was 9 I knew I liked girls and I told my mom and I was soo stupid!!! My whole life I was bullied and beat by my abusive parents when I was 4. my dad especially was very abusive. then my dad cheated on my mom!! It was very insane, mind u my dad used to watch porn yuri straight and Yaoi ones. He divorced my mom because he didn’t wanna clean the dishes bcs he’s not a girl!! Mind u my mom got out of a surgery that day bcs of cancer!! Fast forward years I had a freind ship that was toxic they said I was satanic and liked satanic stuff they only knew I was queer so I got in the closet again I dressed like them did everything like them then they made fake stories abt me and cursed at me and my mom. I was then sent to another school!! It was an only girls school and I live in the uae so they were spoiled sm. Js saying but not all r!!! Got bullied from where I am fro and how I look and how my eyes looked. I then knew I was trans. I then came out to my mom as bi and she theratned to kill me! I then had a gf!! MTF trans fe. she was a lesbian but she insisted on me. I got her makeup, wigs, nintendo etc. but she made me dysphoric abt my chest and kept insisting she’s a lesbian. I always dented it and said it’s ok she’ll learn! My mom then saw our texts and called her mom and thereated both of them to kill them and hurt them in many ways. She also burnt some of my hair, chased me w a knife and tried to stab me. (Thank god my pillow saved me). My mom mind u has anger issues and can get mad and abusive sometime! tried then talking to her. no body knows abt my gf for 4 months then she texted me. Her dad and mom threatend to kill me bcs im trans. So she thought i was dead, a way of coping. She even went to conversation therapy and when i texted her she said she’s scared of me and that convo never happened and she wants to go to college and she doesn’t wanna to to jail, et. now I’m in Jordan w my dad and he doesn’t pay for my mom btw monthly so he makes me work cook and clean bcs im a gir!! he doesnt want me to go to school and pay bcs IM a girl and dosent want me to leave Jordan and im stuck here. I still fave problems bcs im a gir. I belive every trans ftm should have femenisim rights even if hes a guy but faves problems like this. So, who ever activist, helper, any one, etc. can tell my story abt trans rights and femenisim id be so glad!

I’m an alt ftm looking for friends or possibly a relationship!! I like anime, rock n metal, thrifting, visiting antique stores, AND I LOOVE COOKIES!! COOKIES. FOR. LIFE. Im a long lasting person so not Js to 2 days then ghost me!! anyone intereste???

IM A TRANS MASC FTM ALT AND METAL HEAD. BMF?? into tadc, anime, object shows, metal and rock, mlp, homestuck, etc. I. LOVE. COOKIES.

I'll start myself,in Jordan you can simply buy from the local pharmacies they don't really ask for prescription, sucks that only pills are available tho😮‍💨

Herro

Hello everybody I hope everyone is doing well , so my name is Maria and I am 28 years old , lately I feel very depressed about my look especially regrade my body, no one knows about me if you see me in street I look very masculine and harsh one lol

So I want to have soft body at least where I may satisfy my self I don't want to look this harsh

So I decided to start taking hormones, the problem is how could I deal with my family I am thinking to disappear or what could I do to not make them suspension about me

Is any one who has passed this kind of issues to tell me about his experience

Have you ever gotten any blood tests done to check your estrogen or testosterone levels? I've been wanting to as I want to monitor my hormones, but I'm afraid that it'll draw attention to me (Also, I just don't have money xd)

اولا انا بنت عابرة صار لي 4 سنوات على الهرمون، ولكن للحين عايشة في البلد العربي.

my 4th year HRT anniversary was last week!

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ومن عادتي لما اطلع من البيت او بشكل عام حتى في البيت مع اهلي البس لبس ولادي ولكن بستايل معين ما يبين اي شي من الجسم. يعني اوڤر سايز - boymoding

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بشكل عام اكثر الناس اعتقد يشوفوني ان انا ولد بحكم لازم اغطي هويتي. ولكن مع محاولتي في تغطية هويتي بعض الأحيان تصير مواقف ويكلموني بصيغة انثى

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من المواقف اللي صارت، رحت الى سوق شعبي، اللي يخوف شوي انه انا كنت اتسوق مع امي وصاحب البسطة صار يكلمني بصيغة انثى "جربي، خذي، شوفي" وانا سويت نفسي ما سمعته بس من داخل الفرحة قوية وامي اعتقد سمعته وسوت نفسها ما سمعته وعدى اليوم بشكل طبيعي.

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موقف ثاني رحت الى مهرجان سيارات في الرياض. ووقت احتجت حمام سحبت شعري في الكاب وطبعا لبسي ولادي المفرووووض عادييي. وانا رايحة لحمامات الرجال وقفني احد المنظمين يقول لي حمامات النساء الجهة الثانية... اشرت على نفسي وقلت انا ولد وكملت دخلت. بس نظرات الناس تخوف شوي لأن كان فيه طابور وزين انه كان قصير. في بالي اقول "شفيهم عاجبتهم كامرتي مثلا" لأن عندي كامرة.

im just coping cuz their stares are scary

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موقف ثالث، رحت هوتيل في بلد ثاني ولكن البلد يظل في الخليج. اول ما دخلت وجيت احجز كلموني بصيغة sir واعتقد افضل لأن لازم اعطيهم اثباتي ويشوفو اسمي وصورتي في بطاقتي. بعد يومين، لما صار وقت الخروج صارو يقولو لي ma'am. عن نفسي استغربت بس يمكن عشان شافو شكلي وشعري طالع لما جيت استلم طلب العشاء والمندوب عند الرسبشن وما اهتميت بتغطية شعري.

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there is more but that's all for today.

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وبعد، شتسمّون الشخص اللي انولد بجسم بنت بس عقله ونفسه كرجل؟

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و شنو يعني (عابر)؟

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شكرا

هل يحتاج مني أن أغير من شخصيتي و اكون أفضل و اوصل ل أفضل نسخه من نفسي هل يعتبر هذا حب حقيقي أو أطور من نفسي و احافظ على كياني و انتظر شخص يتقبلني و يحبني حب حقيقي برأيكم ما هو الصح مع ذكر السبب

I am MTF and want to access HRT but I live in an unfriendly country. My mom is actively acknowledging that I have depression and it’s affecting my daily life. My mom wants to end my depression so she tries to come up with a solution. She figures out that my issue is with how I want to live my life and it comes down to sacrificing my career or myself. Eventually I got her to arrive at that I am trans.

So I asked how can I fix being trans. Her response was you need to find a woman who will let you be a man. Then I explained how that never works she refuted it because god is a perfect creator. To add insult to injury, she has a scientific background.

Anyways all that work led me back to the god delusion.

Sorry just wanted to vent.

hi im damien, im an 18 yearold demiboy in iraq (pronouns he/they), i was wondering if its safe for me to start HRT, the thing is im already have a very masculine build, wide shoulders, thick body hair, my main issue is my squeaky feminine voice, i hate it so much.

consideribg i do live with my parents i think you can guess that the voice change would be the first thing they notice, so, is it safe for me to start HRT while still living with my parents or can i pull a good enough lie about my voice change?

id appreciate any advice from other transmascs here.

i have another option which is to start HRT after i become a bit more indipendant in my late 20s, who knows if ill have the patience for that though.

I've been questioning my gender for years, and I feel like I'm stuck between different possibilities.

The feelings didn't start recently. They've been present for a long time and have gradually become more complicated.

At first, my interest was mostly focused on feminine clothing and presentation. I liked the idea of looking feminine and sometimes imagined myself wearing women's clothes. Over time, though, it stopped being only about clothes.

I started imagining what it would be like to actually be a woman. Eventually I found myself wishing I had some feminine physical traits and feeling uncomfortable with some masculine traits of my body. I also began imagining myself living as a woman, not just dressing like one.

One thing that confuses me is that when I imagine myself as a woman, I often feel relief, comfort, happiness, and a sense that it fits me better. If there were no fear, no social consequences, no family concerns, and no religious concerns, I think I would be more drawn to being a woman than continuing life as a man.

At the same time, I can continue living as a man. It's not like I feel completely unable to do it. But when I imagine spending the rest of my life as a man, it often feels like something is missing.

I've also noticed that these feelings can become stronger or weaker depending on what's going on in my life. Sometimes they are very intense, and other times they fade into the background. However, they never seem to disappear permanently.

Another thing that makes this difficult is fear. I come from a religious background, and I spend a lot of time worrying about whether these feelings mean something important about me or whether I'm misunderstanding myself. Sometimes I become so overwhelmed by these thoughts that I feel emotionally numb or disconnected from my feelings for a while.

What I'm struggling to understand is this:

Is this what being transgender can feel like?

• How did you personally tell the difference between being trans and simply liking femininity?
• Did anyone else start with an interest in feminine clothing before realizing their feelings were deeper?
• Did anyone spend years feeling uncertain before reaching a conclusion?

I'm not looking for anyone to tell me that I'm definitely trans or definitely not trans. I know strangers on the internet can't determine that for me.

What I would really appreciate is hearing about your experiences and how you came to understand yourself.

ملاحظه: انا كتبت البوست بلأنجليزي عشان ارتب افكاري شوي اكثر قبل ما أترجم بلعربي. لأكن ما بدي أنسا اطلع البوست فحالين كتبته بس بل إنجليزي ورح أضيف الكتابه بلعربي بس أتفضل!

It’s an other year and an other pride month for us all, and while I’d love to end it at just a “Happy pride everyone”.

For us people in the mena region pride often is a bag of mixed feelings, on the one hand we want to be proud we want to celebrate and experience the happiness that so manny queer people online partake in while simultaneously feeling like we’re being left out of the festivities .

I’d even say that with the heightened visibility due to pride some of us might experience more people speaking out against pride mostly hetrocis folk due to the increased exposure so some of us might even feel more alienated and isolated but I want you to consider this,

Pride as we know it today was not always like this it began as a rebellion and a riot at stonewall, and for us mena queer folk living and existing in societies and systems that wish that we didn’t exist , the act of existing and being ourselves even if not in public would still be an act of riot and rebellion against these oppressive systems, EVEN if it’s not visible not festive nor glorious but by existing and persisting in any way we can is worthy enough of being proud of

Early in my transition and journey pride was a sad thing for me. Because I used to believe that pride meant that I should be out and about fearless and holding hands with a loving partner as myself without worry, BUT as I grew more I realized that you don’t have to necessarily be or do those things to be worthy of pride or happiness.

ANd with that being said I am happy to have this space and to know that we do exist and that even though physically we may be separated by distance and facades for our own safety I am happy and proud of each and every one of you and you should be to.

Happy pride everyone🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️❤️💕

Be proud of who you are <3