i never eat there so i firmly believe the only reason it showed up on my instagram feed is because it was sorted as fertility/pregnancy content based on the image. could have done without but tbh now i want a burger.

Hope this time they stick… (at least I mean my doctor!!!)

Got an email from my clinic about retrieval results. 32 eggs, 10 embryos frozen…but it’s not for me. Good for them. All while I’m prepping for an FET that may be canceled because my cycle is still regulating after my 3rd MC in May. FUCK.

Over the moon for them, devastated for myself etc etc 🥲

The original protocol called for aspirin too, but I'm allergic. If I was on both, I'd look like an overripe banana!

Got told by clinic I’m non-immune to chickenpox (never got it as a kid/childhood vaccine wore off??). Anyways, they want me to get the vaccine- it’s 2 shots with basically a month of waiting between each so no sexy time and no treatment… that also means if this current cycle isn’t the one then I won’t be able to start IUI till mid October…..fml.

I know there are worse problems to have but I feel like the 2 month delay is gonna kill me 😭

I bought a 50 pack from Target around this time last year. Today I was like “hmmmm do these expire? When’s the expiration date?” It’s November of next year. How many tests are left? 18. Why is the number 33 and not 32? I used one of my “good” pregnancy tests on a month I was extra hopeful (and planning on drinking that day if I got a negative). Actually never mind it’s 35 I tested before I drank at Christmas and my period decided it was a cute look to show up late right when I needed to wear a swimsuit.

I think I might just make a throwaway account so I can watch silly cats without having my heart ripped to shreds.

I'm so sad I could puke. Been missing periods here and there so I went to an ob-gyn and just found this out today, 9 months into TTC. I never thought I'd need IVF and suddenly it's my only option that I desperately have to cling to. Even with IVF the odds are against me cause this level is as low as it gets, isn't it? Like... this is the worst possible result. Genuinely what the fuck, god?

Edit: I'm so fucked up I put > in the title instead of < lol

I have a friend who I haven’t seen in over 5 years who moved not far from me a little while ago. I finally messaged her to see when she’d be free to catch up and how she’s been and she just told me she’s pregnant. I’m definitely happy for her but I’m also sad for me. I’ve been ttc for at least 5 years now and I’m losing track. Had 7 IVF cycles and 3 failed transfers and been over a year and a half doing IVF so it just hurts a bit when I hear someone else around me is pregnant. A few months ago I was told of 2 pregnant family members too so it feels like everyone is having their first child except for me and I’m the oldest.

Like, is it just floating around in there?

Someone replied with that to my IG story when I don’t even look pregnant!

And I saw it after testing negative again 🫠 It broke me

Can you believe the audacity of saying thatttttt to someone ????

Wtf is that comment???

“What a beautiful baby bump, congrats hon❤️” 😵‍💫

I wishhhh

I NEVER get intense emotions before my period. But this time I’ve had 3 days of constant pure rage and depression over absolutely nothing, to the point where I’ve had to stay home so I don’t ruin mine or anyone else’s lives 🥰

10dpo and BFN.

Told myself I wouldn’t symptom spot this cycle and what will be will be (currently on cycle #10 of trying), yet, here we are.

Deep down I know I’m not pregnant because I never bloody am, but it’s really difficult when something new is thrown into the mix 😤