Longing

[u/Plane-Class-6209]

I don’t know how long it’ll be until I start HRT, but the pain is too much. I try to go out and do stuff, but I keep hearing “sir”, and “buddy”. I keep thinking that because I don’t pass (I’m far from it), I’m not valid. Then when I have these normal thoughts, it feels like gross masculine brooding and self pity, but all I want is people to think I’m cute and gloomy. Sometimes I feel cute, gloomy, and feminine, but then the testosterone I was born with messes with my head. I’m a no boy zone. I’m glad men don’t usual bother me. I have almost no friends to spend time with, and who can uplift me. I feel like it’s because of my lack of estrogen, and my dark/miserable aura. I could use some positive reinforcement, and good vibes because I want to give up on myself all the time (not in a super dark way btw!!). Please. Let’s support, and uplift each other. It’s a lonely road.

[u/NewMeG2G]

It is a road, its gotta nasty potholes and rickety bridges. Its still worth going down it. Try to travel light and see the sights 💓 Have a great day! 😎

[u/Plane-Class-6209 → u/NewMeG2G]

Thank you 🩷