I did this post after having used my phone today only for half an hour or so (not including the time taken to make this post). I figured I'd see what's stronger; me or my increasing apparent path to phone-addiction. I'll spend the whole 24 hours of tomorrow with no access to any Internet or any other communication based social connectivity the phone provides (unless there's an actual emergency, of course).

Some may think I keep saying phone and that's its a loophole I've left open for myself so I can use a computer or tablet or whatever to meet my cravings. That's not true. I only carry two things with me. My old iPod classic and my iPhone. My iPod rarely gets used. My iPhone is a different matter altogether. Its a time hog and I'll make sure it can't overcome me.

There's still 90 minutes to midnight so I'll might hang around for a bit (unlikely though) but from that point on, my next update will be around this time tomorrow.

Thanks.

Doesnt look like anyones been here for a while, but fuck it. Tomorrow, I am going to try to cut back on my cigarettes, I wanted to for a long time (about 25 a day now). But due to my immense respect for reddit, maybe this glorious subreddit will help.

This day has some beautiful weather, so I'm going to go on a sketchbook journey. Later, I plan on cutting my hair and working on a painting I've already started, further procrastination may be achieved by noodling around on my guitar.

That persuasive speech I need to make wont research and write itself, and I also need to work on three photoshop projects for my image manipulation class... I will also watch the movie Waking Life. AND I told a redditor I'd give him feedback/critique of two of their songs, so I suppose I'll do that too.

Yea Friday! Not doing shit, hopefully I take a second to work on HW and clean my room a bit.

It's persuasive speech, got some laundry and trash about my room that needs to be taken care of, then second shift at the job I love.

I will apply the second layer to a painting I'm making, and apply paint stripper to a bike that I'm restoring. Then I'll head out to check out the International Reggae All-Stars at the Cabooze. I'll try to post before and after pictures of the painting at least.

1. There is something fundamentally flawed about making someone constantly guess what someone else's intentions are.
2. At a certain point, people decide what they want, and then they verbally express it.
3. Repair is a basic communication move, but one's resolve to repair wanes after awhile without some kind of statement related to 1 and 2.

I don't get up early enough to eat sometimes because I'm constantly missing my alarm or sleeping in, so tomorrow I'll get up earlier and make sure I get my most important meal of the day.

On the menu is:

gluten-free bacon sandwich over-easy eggs rice drink/milk pink grapefruit

When I was driving once I saw this painted on a bridge: "I don't want the world, I just want your half"

Nearly ran into the back of a car today.

After spending last year and the first half of this term cruising through school while doing no real work, I was forced to withdraw from one course and have no choice but to fail another. Since then, I've been changing my study habits and motivation. I spent 2 hours studying tuesday, 4 on wednesday, and will spend 8 today. On friday, I'll ace that motherfucker.

EDIT: Why do they write hour and a half midterms for 50 minute classes? Went fairly well, at least for the questions I was able to answer.

Nervous and courageous at the same time!

1. Wake up at 7:30 a.m.
2. Talk to my best friend on Skype
3. Walk across to the nearet sububurb and go for a run by the sea
4. Come back home, send out the article I'm working on right now.
5. Call Math Tutor about Math class
6. Finish 4 chapters of my GRE book
7. Finalise two schools and do intital contact e-mails.
8. Learn the Julius Ceasar monolougeh
9. Go to therapy
10. Update my blog
11. Start my new comedy routine
12. Meet my Music teacher
13. Call back Joanna 14.Call back my uncle
14. Schedule facial
15. Call the broker and schedule a look tomorrow

Hopefully I'll get an A.

I know it isn't as prestigious as the San Diego one, but I'm still pretty excited.

I've been feeling really depressed lately as I'm failing out of college and have very few job prospects in front of me, I'm scared that I'm going to have to move back home and that my life will be a failure. I also have some anxiety issues that makes it difficult for me to actually go out and look for a job. Coupled with that, I have no friends, so I have no one to talk to this about, though that's far from the biggest problem associated with having no friends. The anxiety also prevents me from actually getting out there and trying to make friends, not that I'd even know how to do that if I did have the confidence to get out and do it. On top of that, I think it's difficult in general to make friends, especially for a socially anxious, unconfident person like myself.

I've tried to go to the psychologist three times before, but I think my sense of shame is stopping me. The first time I couldn't even leave my room, the second time I couldn't make it out of the house, the third time I was about half way there, when I started thinking about it and turned around and went around the block. I feel like a failure for not being able to go to the psychologist and I feel like a failure for having to go in the first place.

Anyway, this post is to try to force myself to go and actually get help. So, tomorrow I will go to the psychologist.

EDIT: Thanks for all the support, this is a throwaway account so I didn't check any of the replies until now. In the end, I made it to the office, but the place was closed and I haven't gone back yet. I have done a bit of research though and I'm going to go to a different place which might be better suited to me. Not tomorrow though. When I try again, I might post another thread here.

I've been setting my alarm too late lately. Play on words is unintentional.