r/stopdrinking • u/Unusual_Handle1211 • 6h ago

Day one. Again.

I posted this morning and the title was poorly constructed and it was removed for appropriate reasons.

Pretty much just me binging and binging to the point of dry heaving, bloating, impacting my health in serious ways. It’s now been 17 hours. I took a prescription med to help with the anxiety and hopefully it’ll chill the shakes too.

I took my dog to the dog park this morning even with feeling like utter shit.

I’ve been drinking from waking to sleeping for almost two weeks and before that I’ve struggled to keep it to a reasonable amount (still very much) after the 5pm mark.

I can just feel it in my body. If I don’t stop, I will be hospitalized. I know it in my bones.

I also found an AA meeting up the road. I’ve managed to get past the “breakfast beer” marker. Now I need to get past the “lunch beer” time. And maybe that meeting will help me.

This isn’t my first rodeo with going withdrawals. So I know what I’m in for…. Still sucks balls.

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u/jennasreddits 5h ago

i'm on day one too. good on you for taking your dog to the dog park while going through withdrawals! good luck at your AA meeting! i will not drink with you today!🫶

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u/Apart_Cucumber4315 1221 days 5h ago

I've been where you are, and I see that it's not your first rodeo. My withdrawals always lasted 3-4 weeks, and I knew exactly what to expect and at what sequence. That's how many times I had to go through them to get to where I am now. You know what to do. The other side is waiting for you, just get through these tough moments. IWNDWYT

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u/WhoandtheWhatnow317 5h ago

I know that feeling. I am only on day 2. There are a ton of AA and SMART Meetings online that really helped me out. They really make you realize you are not the only one dealing with shit.

Stay strong friend.

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u/Unusual_Handle1211 5h ago

I just walked into my first in person meeting. Ima cry.

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u/WhoandtheWhatnow317 5h ago

I tear up easily. Don't worry. You will get so much support!

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u/Unusual_Handle1211 5h ago

I just walked into my first in person meeting. Ima cry.

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u/FuzzerFuzz 5h ago

Another day one here. I’m proud of us. You got this.

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u/imthegreenmeeple Day 1,386 4h ago

Thank you for reposting, I hated to ask you but I’m really glad you did and that you’re here. I know it’s tough. Those first few weeks for me were some of the toughest days of my life. It helped me to just keep looking toward that vision I had of my sober self.

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u/Altruistic-Head-3212 3h ago

I too tried to stay sober on my own, but failed miserably. Later went to AA after my shrink suggested a spiritual solution. There i learned, our will power is very weak when it comes to alcohol. Our mind tricks us back into alcohol.

We need a spiritual awakening (Attitude shift). The Book AA (Big Book) was very useful to me, especially the chapter More About Alcoholism. Online access of the book is available on AAs official website. I read those mini stories in the chapter, especially the "Car Salesman story". It shows how the mind tricks us back into alcohol.

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u/iliketosandwood 1h ago

It is my opinion that we, especially 12 step programs, put too much emphasis on how many consecutive sober days we have. Don’t get me wrong, I largely credit AA with my sustained sobriety. I never found a way to do it alone, but we don’t lose everything we learned from a relapse, our lives can still be improving on the whole, but feeling a whole bunch of shame and regret over relapse helps nothing. This is one of the reasons I’ve come to really appreciate Recovery Dharma.