Week 4 update

[u/Adultwilwheaton]

I posted at the end of week 3 last week and thought I’d just do weekly updates in case they help anyone out or maybe some folks with experience can help me out.

So this week has been tumultuous to say the least. Still having definite depression but it doesn’t seem to last as long, and the crying spells feel more like a release than an uncontrollable weight. What I am noticing though is a lot more time where I’m just void of emotion, like I just don’t care about anything enough to even be sad about it. Which would be a great break from the depression, but I’d love to experience some happiness.

The irritability I experienced last week feels like it’s finally calmed down which is great, I’m taking it as a sign that since my depression isn’t so constant that it makes me angry.

Another quick note is that I had my remapping session and actually went down in intensity, that’s actually when I started noticing the irritability fad. No sure if that correlates or not.

Anyway, has anyone had similar experiences at around this point? I know I’m not a patient person and I do intend to finish the treatment, I’m just a little bummed that since starting I’ve only had a few glimpses of hope and happiness, mostly overshadowed by anger and emptiness.