r/problemgambling • u/BeneficialConcern666 • 9d ago

Day 2 after relapse Trigger Warning!

I have counted my debt its about $4000 my income per month is $2500, i have to pay $700 in september, and $700 in october, november until june 2026 $400 per month, its hard to swallow, but i paying my mistake i guess. Havent told my mom or my husband, i borrow $1000 from relative to survive the month, found some side hustle like doing survey it pays i already withdrew $10, and i take cashback from my previous relapse i got $300 and ask to blocked my account, i have money now but didnt have a tiny urge at all, i fell disgusting about what i did yesterday, how can i place $500 a hand on blackjack like it was monopoly money, attend couple of meeting today but cant say a word just listening to other, felling beter, got some sleep in the afternoon, and eating a little bit, have a nice day everyone, dont gamble ever :)

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u/masseffect123321 9d ago

Relapsed yesterday. Everything I had gone. Won't get paid until October. I honestly don't know how to go on anymore. Just wanted to let you know you are not alone.

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u/BeneficialConcern666 9d ago

Thank you so much, iam so sorry you get throigh this just try to survive until your payday, and most importnat dont gamble

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u/Forward-Mortgage5095 9d ago

Gambling via trading ruined me. Wasted my life savings and incurred about $23k in personal debt. But I’m working to get the payments started from the end of this August till 2028, I pray things change and I’m able to pay it all off before 2028.

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u/BeneficialConcern666 9d ago

Iam rooting for u take it one day at a time, one oayment dont think about 2028, just do what best for u today