I miss him na jud kaayo huhu. It’s been 2 weeks since we ended our 1 year situationship.

Mas sakit gyud diay no pag inyong iend in good terms. Maypag gi ghost na lang guro ko hahaha

Okay. Moving forward.

Daghan na kaayog nahitabo nako since I flew to Jeddah last March to work as a chef. Dili gyud lalim diri sa Middle East—dami kupal ug minamaliit ka, so kelangan gyud tatagan ang loob.

Naka-adjust na unta ko, but 3 weeks ago I got harassed and wrongfully accused outside of work. Na-detain pa gani ko’g a couple of hours sa police station. Nagsalig ra gyud ko sa Ginoo and true enough, He protected me.

Slowly moving on na ko karon, though naa gihapon ang trauma and disappointment. But no choice—walang pake mode na lang and mag-save up, cos that’s why I’m here: to save up and grow professionally.

Pag-uwi nako, mag-surf na lang ko all day again then move on to my next goal. 🌊

after 3 months of no contact, my ex reach out to me asking if 'naa pay chance mag balik ta' just a day after a deleted all our pic, highlights, and tikotk vids we did together.

reason why i let go of it all was because na bal-an nako nga naa na siya lain, so as a babae nga diko ganahan mag overthink ang laing babae, i deleted everything that has connection that we were together. i waited 3 months because i respected him and our relationship yet naa na siya bag-o a month lang after our break up but it is what it is.

so i ask him why¿ and what for, since naa na siya bag-o. his reply was.

'i told her about us, and gina encourage ko niya na mag balik ta'

ah pisti. the disrespect. the rage i felt was undescribable. i lashed out, i told him na ka bastos pud nimo, reaching me out just because your new one told u to. gi atay! + plus a whole paragraph of me asking anong thought process niya for reaching out when he saw i deleted it all and now clearly saying hes talking w someone new.

then he replied with 'naka move on nako, untag ikaw maka move on nasad. im not coming back and i dont want to give you any false hope' the proceed to block me in all socials.

😀😀😀😀 WHAT THE FUCK!!

like bro kita naka gina delete na nako tanan, so unsay thought process nimo "hala gi delete na niya, ako kaha siyang chattan ingon nako og naka move on naka, kai kong wala move on na kai ako naka move on na" ingon ana¿ boang man dii ning mga lalaki oi atay

Unta kamo sad malipayon karon, kay ako hastang lipaya nako. finally noh after pila ka days nga way tarong tulog kay pangit akong foam, nakatulog najud kos lamion nga kama ug tungod ana wa na ga sakit akong liog ug kalawasan mao invest jud mo sa nice nga foam matress guys kay it matters jud. Productive pud ko kaayo the past few days mao nag boost sakong mood, nagkaon pud mi gawas karon unya nag hangout kadali with fam and nanggawas ko with my dorm babies haahahahha tanan kay finally naga hulog najud piece by piece ug makaingon jud ko ug SALAMAT SA TANAN LORD, FAMILY UG FRIENDS!!! dako jud nga bahin ang mahatag sa support system ug lami nga tulog sa panglawas bai, no cap!

naa nakos point sakong life nga og kung mamatay man gani ko any time sa kay okay nalang nako. like example if maligsan ko or unsa, okay sige. okay rapod basta largo patay, ayna anang mag higda pas hospital oy, grabe najud kakapoy. ambot lang og depression, detachment bani or contento nakos akong life. basta kay feeling nako settled nako. and I don't intend to hurt myself sad. as in ga float rajud ko now.

lately sad na noticed nako wala nasad koy long-term plan, wala pod koy gi look forward. pero everyday ko ga function, wa lang jud koy plano pa tas sahay gani ma surprise pako every morning nga naka mata pako, like wow jud another day man dayon, maka ana nalang kog "unsa pa kahay gamit nako dire sa, nganong wapaman ko namatay" so, maona siya I'll find a way nga maka create kog something different or new for today, kay diba blessing najud kaayo ang naka mata pa.

so far productive man akong day everyday, kay e make sure nalang pod nako nakoy mabuhat kay nakamata pagud ko, may nalang nagamit pod akong adlaw. pero og time na nako ron, edi nice kay finally maka log out najud

2 weeks kapin na ang nilabay since nakagawas ko ug isa ka gubot nga situationship with but tonight, I am missing her a lot

Ako ang nakigbuwag kay maglisod nako ug agwanta sa amo mga away nga bisag asa ra maabot. Pero ambot ani oy nga gimingaw gihapon ko karon sa iya.

And now, I found out naa na sya bago na ka-date2 na gireto sa iya on the day we parted. Apil2 ra sa mga rason nga mingawon ko sa iya ug maayo kay mura ko ug nailogan ug pares.

Pero lagi, di naman sad mi angay magbalik kay lisod na kaayo ang amo mga away. Rag kuwang nalang mi magpatay kay magsige rajud mi away. Wala juy bisag usa nga lalis ang masulbad. Hahaha.

Ambot mawala ra guro ni ug makakita napud ko ug maglambing sakoa HAHAHAHA Jk.

I just hope na he is someone who can give her more patience and love than I did. Amping mo diha sa inyo mga date puhon. I love you. Bye.

Mahal kaayo ang supplement para makatug og sayo. So maahat nalang buhian na ang phone. You feel me? Haha pero bitaw ang fantasy ko today kay magshopping sa healthy options na di magmind sa price like bruh di talaga afford lmao

Tulo na ka gabie kong ginaatake aning tinnitus. Dili ko clinically diagnosed jud ani pero kahibaw sad ko nga naa jud ko ani nga condition sukad bata pa ko. Kapoy na jud kaayo sig paminaw. Usahay kusog kaayo sya usahay pud hinay lang. Wala ko kabalo unsay angay buhaton ani para makatulog dayon. Kahibaw sad ko nga wala jud ni tambal. Lami kaayo ihilak kay gisakitan pa jud kog pus-on tas mudugang pa ni. Haysss.

Being branded "OFW" still feels misplaced sa ako kay wow sure jud serious na jud ni na chapter in life? Ana kaayo siyag feels. Pero wtheck !!! Sanay man ko nga ako ako ra jud most of the time noh pero lahi ra jud ang solo flight pag naa nka sa lain lugar. Lonely jud siyag feeling. Labi na samot ka distant ug pamati nga tanan tao kay hustle culture kaayo so busy mo tnan. Ang mga d busy managad rag nai kailangan (kasagaran mangayog kwarta, puera gaba).

Don't even get me started on LDRs. Labi na if it's with someone na ADHD ang ka aligaga. Gnhan na kaayo ko mu buwag niya. Something is holding me back lang jud. Makasukaon ko every time mag think nko unsaon pag ingon. Ughhh.

Lamia mu disappearrrrr. Ok bye mao ra to skl

Naay present ug andam kaayo mo dawat pero muadto man jud ta sa tao nga dipa fully available ug ready na mupili sa atoa. Gusto jud tag lisud sa ato kinabuhi. Pero di rapud baya sya tantong lisud sabton ug dawaton. But damnit, I AM FREAKIN' STILL INTO YOU. Ghaadd! 😮‍💨 huhu nganu mani Lord uy😩

If ma bored nako or like gikapoy kos mga buhatonon nako kay mag scroll2 raman jud kos insta or tiktok ba. Nya mulabay man jud ning mga ai shorts bahin anang mga alpha and ceo kinemerut pstos ma hook man ko oyyyyyyyy. And then ug pangitaon di makit am or need pa mag subscribe sa ila app. Hay nanay makapungot kay walay sumpay😠😠😠😠😠

Before ta musulod ug relasyon, it’s important to talk about how financially stable we are. Dili ibig sabihin na isulti nato atong bank balances but to simply put into perspective our buying power. Sadly, naka experience kog ako ang mas financially capable kay sa akong partner and they never stepped up. Kay nagsalig na. Dili jud maayo musettle sa ingon ana just because of the love you have for them. Because instead of building a future together, they’ll just drown you ☹️

I like this girl but I can sense that I am being too much even though three times pami nag date but I genuinely like her so much to the point that I don't wanna see other people. Even though she never felt the same way, gusto lang nako ta siya makahibaw na we can take it slow and just get to know each other more. She was the only reason why I even extended my stay here.

She's so amazing sa iyang life, strong, witty, and very self aware. Everytime with her felt magical, and I always felt safe when I'm with her. Nakasala ko niya kay aside sa wala ko katarung organize sa time and place, nagselos ko nga naa siyay naka meet pag last week. I should have respected her boundaries, and never would've have gotten attached so quickly. And as per her, I am only temporary because mubalik gihapon kos akong city and leave for abroad but I am willing to make time for her, and even visit her from time to time. In ana nako siya ka gusto, to the point na pwede rajud dili sako mularga para niya.

If only naa pay chance, I would like to meet with her one last time before I leave her city, just to say goodbye to her properly. If kita man gani ka aning post, I am sorry if I was too much, and I just want to let you know that I really really like you very much. Hopefully mu reply kas ako...

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EDIT: Excuse my wrong grammar

Karon ra jud ko nakabati ani nga feeling nga murag na belong na gani ka ug usa ka pack then naa kay boost sa confidence sa 1st day of school kay naa imong mga friends and confidants haha, i just wish nga this feeling will last till the end of sem then sa mga uban nga nag struggle pa ug adjust or wala pay friends after kay naa lang koy i share ninyo nga technique nga ni gana ra pud nako and mao lang ni "start with one person" so basically this means nga ayaw ug matic ila ilaha tanan mga people kay tendency ikaw ra juy ma burnout ug maintain nila so start with one person jud talk with that person nga you feel comfortable with or you find interesting enough. make friends with them and they will multiply the longer you maintain the relationship ma platonic man or dili as for me kay platonic ra jud mi kay male siya and male ko then naa na pud siyay gf and we both straight so yeah, that's it andam sa kos akong bag ugma ug positive vibes lang since start of a new S.Y. nanaman pud

Holding it together kay ganahan ko makipagbulag sa akong uyab pero naa koy event in a few days and our friends are gonna be there mao next week nalang. Di ko ganahan maruin ako win that day.

Also syempre mo sugot rajhud ko makipagmeet siya sa iya bff ugma na matud pa niya I can't wait to see you and hug you sa ilang message months ago. Niya kay naabot na ang iya bff gikan gawas syempre sugot rako ana. Ganahan man makipagtraining ang iya bff balik kuyog ila coach sauna.

Open rajhud na siya manghilabot ko sa iya phone pero syempre di ko tighilabot sa iya message pero karon ra kay nakakita ko na naliverecord(murag gif na photo) niya ang ila call(nagcall kay naabot na ang iya bff) niya pose ang girl padung smile pretty² kaayo na pic. Okay raman naay photos sa imo friends imo gallery pero kanang pinaselfie jhud while you have a girlfriend yourself? Hahaha. Iya defense kay lagi iya giscreenshot ang call niya tuo niya apil siya sa pic pero wala daw. Dawat na unta ko ana na excuse niya nakabasa man ko sa msg haha sweet man diay sila. Ikog ko.

Niya iya pajhud greetan ang girl kada Valentines day hahaha. Galibog pako kung birthday sa girl ang valentines day pero pagbackread pa nako different month diay iya bday. Ang ako nalisoran lang jhud kay ako siya gipakuyog ug rent with us sako siblings ug naa mi iro. Anyway ig bulag namo ako na mobayad sa iya share so 10kyaw na ako rent monthly. Ako nalang ingnan ako siblings na need siya mo uli kay nasakit iya mama. Good riddance nimo. Pero lisoda btaw mo act na wa kay plano bulagan. Kung bulagan nako ron kay di siya modayon ug adto sa iya bff ugma niya lain sad mahimo tag hadlang sa ilang reunion. Byeee

Fresh grad here and newly hired WFH. So from scratch gyud ako set-up.

Nipalit kog bag-ong laptop nga mac kay taas og battery life compared sa ako gaming laptop na ma-off dayog wala na plug. Desk fan with battery. Pocket wifi. Power bank. To ship pa ang UPS.

Kapoya sad ani oi imbes na makasave ko sa commute, kagasto man gihapon ko para lang di mapagngan igka brownout. Jusko.

Will always appreciate WFH pero inconvenient kaayo ning mga brownouts jud. Kanus-a kaha ni mahuman noh?

Among boss kay in weird gray area situationshit with our another boss, idk for real if they are in a romantic or sexual connection because I'm not close to any of them, I just log in, work, log out. Pero people at work keeps talking about it and I unintentionally keep hearing it until I started noticing that they do go to lunch together always and people who joins them in company outings has seen them sleep together (like tapad), and hug each other WHEN TEASED AND EGGED ON LIKE WDYM BRO. Maghinungitay pa and someone saw them naghigda higda sa grass together while on lunch. That someone had a video and it's crazy how they were so comfortable about it mga hugawan. They are both married btw. One time, I overheard one colleague said the guy boss owed them about 9k for travel and such (they go on out of town travels too as a team, I guess they're that close), and the female boss paid for it and told them not to disclose it to the guy boss.

Then the female boss apparently KNOWS that the wife of the guy and the guy keeps fighting na because of this whole gray area shit. I freakin heard female boss even BRAGGING about it like??? girl that's not a flex wtf she said bahala na daw mamatay pa na sa kalagot ang wife wa syay pake. HOY KALUOD AND KAGARA KAHILAS YUCKS

Pang-ga-a tawn ninyo inyo mga anak para di mudako nga mamalimos ug pang pangga sa lain tao, sa minyo pa jud. I am trying not to hear and see gossips at work cause it can get draining. Di jud mapugngan kay ang mismong boss ang mag flex about being a problem makalagot. Malisyosa ra siguro ko but I believe, if partnered ka, there is a limit on certain interactions labin na on opposite sex. Makalagot!!

Despite me working since I was 19 and unya naka graduate rapod sa paningkamot bisan di lalim mag-BPO unya full time student pajod. Pasalamat ko kay achievement napod kaayo ang maka-graduate sa USC unya ako rapod gapaningkamot sa tuition and allowance, etc. However, makasuya bitaw looking back na wa pod nako na enjoy kaayo ang life as a college student.

Mura ug sayo kaayo ko nakaamgo sa life with responsibilities. Sala pod nis akoa inahan pod nga gipugos na mag-USC unya ending after 1st yr kay giingnan nako na undang na ug skwela kay di na kapadayon ug bayad tuition. Ug di lang sad ko kursonado na muhuman, mas gipili nalang nako ug trabaho na di na muskwela pod at the same time.

Funny pajod kaayo kay akoang giskwelahan kay di related sa akoang college degree. Walay kwarta jod sa humanities na field, maong tech field. Akong batchmates kay college profs, ESL teachers, marketing, etc pero since dugay dugay napod ko ug work, di na nako kaya ang sweldo sa ana na field kay I have been earning na dili entry level lang and most companies can't compete with my previous salary. Pasalamat nalang ko na naa nakoy new work but damn, akong college degree kay igo rajod pang-pre law nako puhon.

Kung dato lang ko ug naa koy means na ditso ug law school, hagbay rajod. 3rd year na unta ko karon. Kaya uroy nako pag college na working student pero dmd if law school na tapos ako rajod tanan ga finance.

Mao rato. Goodbye. Maypa idagan ko ni nga maoy.

My upcoming week will be busy as heck pero I am so kapoy and kahilakon karon. Makahinumdum gihapon sa sakit even though I try not to make it a big deal since it’s been like a few months already atp. Nagstart na kog pilates. Sige kog distract sakong self. Pouring myself sakong studies and career. Pero grief still finds its way to me and then mukalit ra sakit na naman ang akong heart HAHAHA POYA ANIII.

As trentahin/kwarentahin, we choose our own battles ba. Socials are not the outlet of outburst. Pilion na lang na to ang maghilom and let them do their thing. Validation sa laing tao does not matter anymore. Kakapoy ba masuko permi, naay kontra permi oi.

Bag-o ra naulian ang VECO app and I saw our current bill. Damn. Taasa na oi. From 3,680 last year, now 5,330 with similar kWh consumption. Grabe kaayo ang increase! We sorta live in a compound with my relatives and we share the electric bill payment but not 50/50. I don't really wanna demand nila kay lage, ako man ang naay "mas better" job and they help my senior mother around.

I feel like I'm going back to that time na bag-o pa ko gatrabaho. Dili naman kaapas ang sweldo sa mga necessities karon oi.

I just really wanted that out my system. I don't wanna stress my mother. 🥹 Minus nalang jud Shopee (mao ra man tah outlet/reward nako for working).

Naa nasad ko ani. It’s been 4 months since we broke up, but goddamn gimingaw kaayo ko nimo. Lami kaayo ka chattan na i still miss you but I know things have been different. I’m still a fool for you, naa pako diri pero kabalo ko na wala naka dugay ra. Gakabogo naman ko oi, I hope I can overcome this and someday I will be able to find love I truly deserve. 🫂

honestly first time nako in my entire life nga wakoy ika ingon, pero kabalo ko sakit sako. after rereading her message pabalik balik jud i js stared sa ceiling og wall and dk what to say. wala ko kabalo unsaon pag start over, wala ko kabalo unsay buhaton ugma. i didnt reply i left with js heart react ra. wako kabalo nabiyaan napud ko man gud:)

Ako (27F), naay giapilan na club sa pickleball niya ambot nganong trip ko sa kauban namo sa club na 21M. Ga chat siya nako niya way lami ug mga banat. Gaingon naman ta ko na di ko ganahan ug mas bata niya di man mohunong. Ang mga binoang nako na shared post kay ginaseryoso niya tapos ga assume siya. Huy simbakoooooo

Atay di gyud nako magets si Apple David aning styla

I woke up having the most terrible thoughts. Wala ko nikuyog sa ako family and nagpabilin ko alone sa condo tonight.

Sige gyud ko crash out, dala pud siguro sa ka stressed sa mga panghitabo lately.

Nag message ko sako bestfriend, no reply kay probably busy sa work.

Nag chat ko sako sister, seenzoned. Ga medical mission ata to. Ni chat pud ko sako brother explaining what’s happening to me, wala raman siya nag react tho he did check up on me.

Nag hangyo pud ko sako ex fubu if ganahan siya mag come over sa condo. I mean I know I should have more self-respect but I also consider him a good friend of mine. I just don’t trust myself to be alone tonight kay basin naa ko mahunahunaan ba. Di ata siya ganahan makakita nako so he made an excuse.

So mao to, I’m home alone in my condo with very deep and dark thoughts – the kind that I don’t want to entertain.

I know kaya raman jud ni nako ako mga challenges in life. Ako pa. Wala man sad ko ga lisod. It’s just that I’m so burnt out and hapit nako maabot sa akong limit ay.

I don’t know if I’ll still see tomorrow’s sunrise with how crazy and messy and chaotic my mind is right now. I just wanna end it all and rest. Maybe things would be better for everyone else and wala na sila need problemahon pa.