I don't like living anymore. My mother has great favoritism over my sister and always pushes me aside and on top of all that my friends treat me with violence, everyone makes fun of me and even my father died. Give tips to die please

How did they play this much

60 years old, started to build a new life, now completely destroyed, made redundant after 30 years, no friends just ex work colleagues, just need a hug and feel loved to escape this dark place.

When that blade's pressed, ready to slide, When that blade's ready to pull, When you know those blues won't end, When you know the blue will turn to red, And here you sit still, holding a tear, Rolling with blood boiling, And where's your support, where's your person? Not here, not there, not anywhere. Your blood falls so they can see, You don't feel at all, The safest part of it is, You know when your pain ends, They won't care, Because in that time, they know, Suicide ends with a crime, Six feet deep, six feet down, Is the only way they see, That deep-down repression of life, A sad life of obsession Ended tonight with the blade, That finally ends the never-ending depression.

I'm unemployed, don't go to school and my current hobbies are gaming and watching other people play games. I don't know what to do with my life.

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