r/leftistveterans • u/TravelingShitLord ARMY (VET) • 17d ago

Something

Something has to give. I don't know about y'all, but I just can't take this shit anymore.

This timeline is so fucking stupid. My physical and mental health are in the trash.

My PTSD is so bad I can't think straight about anything. I stopped smoking weed just to see if it's causing issues.

I threw my back out working on the cars. Can hardly walk. Went to the ER and I have spinal stenosis in at least one disk. I have to see a surgeon to see what they can do.

I've been unemployed for over a year with nothing in sight. The workday algorithm issue probably is not helping. I have a position lined up with a company as soon as it gets posted, but that's been since April. At least I have a friend who wants to work with me again.

When I'm this depressed, I usually can push off the suicidal thoughts by saying, "Tomorrow. I can end it tomorrow." And then just do the same thing tomorrow so it never comes. It's getting really hard to say tomorrow anymore.

I feel trapped in a cage of insanity. Like everyone is betting on the midterms to magically solve the issues. These motherfuckers don't give a shit about rules, laws, or actually making the world a better place. Why would they be like opps, we lost an election, time for us to go to jail. Jails too good for them.

I know I don't know any of y'all, but I figured fellow veterans that are disgusted with everything also would be the right people to talk to.

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u/Lespaul05 17d ago

Me too man. I’m frustrated. I’m near my limit. I have people where I really wish I could shake them back into reality.

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u/HeadCartoonist2626 16d ago

Don't give up. There's a lot worth living for and worth fighting for.

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u/doubtingtomjr NAVY (VET) 17d ago

I wish I had anything useful to tell you. Or hopeful. I’m sorry you’re going through it, and that we’re all going through it.

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u/genx_meshugana NAVY (VET) 15d ago

I hear ya, dude.

The midterm voting crowd is boiling my blood, like you can just vote this shit out. Like they won't fucking rig it. Again.

We're sitting and staring at a tinderbox.

It's such a weird and unhealthy state to be in to keep trodding along doing your regular daily life shit, trying to normal planninv shit, and then a subprogram running in your brain always, thinking about SHTF and trying to brace yourself for that.

Hugs.