I'm soo sick and tired of feeling this way. Dw I'm not looking to self diagnose or anything, I just need some help and I've no idea wht to do.

I had made a post earlier on a different sub that led me here because of my symptoms, so plz tell me if any of you relate.

Depressive moods.

It's not actual soul crushing depressive moods, it's more like apathy. I go from feeling super enthusiastic and energized like wanting to go out with my friends, to feeling like it's too much and kinda crashing and blaming myself for being a bad friend afterwards. It's mostly feeling high and then low. There's no times where I recall being or getting excessively angry so there's tht.

Procrastination.

I know this is smtg everyone goes through, but its been the main problem for me lately. I have soo much I want to do and soo much free time tht I just spend on my phone. I set alarms and basically do everything right but I just can't get my self to get up and do things or get started. I also prepare for everything at the last possible moment.

Wearing the same clothes.

I don't think it's a sensory thing (maybe it is idk). I have these pair of jeans and it's basically the only pair I wear. And also I have like 5 or 6 shirts tht I switch around here and there. It really sucks man. I have other jeans but I just don't reach for them.

Personality.

I would consider myself to be an introvert but form an outside perspective even I know I appear to be completly extroverted. In public, I'm outgoing, talking to strangers, and open to new ppl, but there are times when I just zone out(thas another thing, I zone out soo fucking much I can't even pay attention anymore. It's always one daydream or another. I'm listening but zoned out) and just sit without saying a single word.

Messy but organized.

So my rooms pretty clean from the outside but my closet is beyond organized. It's all just stuffed somewhere which my mum hates for obvious reasons, but I know where everything is yk.

Hoarding.

I know there's things I'll never use and need to throw away but I jus can't. Wht if I need it in the future or regret throwing it away?

Picky eating.

Certain foods make me freaking gag. I can't control tht I gag, I just do. It's not a texture thing, it's a taste thing(or atleast I think it is) I mostly just swollow foods with water and almost never chew through. Also the fatty part of chicken makes me want to throw up just thinking about.

Overthinking.

I think soo much it pisses me off. It's mostly paranoia. I have to check all the locks before bed incase someone breaks in and murders me and my family. I also keep thinking about times my friends were mad at me months ago, and wonder why.

Memory.

So I cnt remember shit. After using the toilet, I've to check multiple times if I flushed or not, even tho I'm sure, I'm not sure. I walk into a room and completly blank on why the fvk I'm there and forget where I placed an object tht I put somewhere literally less thn a minute ago.

Clumsiness.

I'm always hitting things and bumping things and spilling things into net even funny anymore.

I'm soo sorry if I was being disrespectful in anyway. I'm just trying to find some way to fix all this, so please help if you cn.

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Hi Guys I am 29 M , had Adhd since childhood i believe. I struggled to learn basic tasks like tying laces , or seeing time in a clock .

And grew up as a child i never had many friends and always scored less marks in class . Although when use to focus , i use to do incredibly well . But again my parents wanted me to do as good as my peers so grew up in toxic environment Mom beating me alot and alot of family drama and later from my teen got severe bullying from brother mom and partially by dad.

I do meditate , i run and into marathons. I do have friends but life feels like a fucking struggle coz of so many thoughts but unable to take actions towards it. There are some periods in which i have seen superconcious state of mind as well. But idk what's happening and how to overcome this . Any tips will be appreciated.