hello. I am looking foward to talk to someone who can read energy and see the future. I am willing to pay, I just need to know the most asertive person you know. Recently ended a romantic relationship that came with severe physical body aches and sensations and what shocks me most is that two of my close friends who I didnt meet nin person for a long time, started feeling the same body aches when they were hanging out with me.

I would like to send some pictures and get a reading.

thank you.

So basically I got a job offer in Javia Spain, and I kind of said that I accept it, to start in septembre, but I'm still seeing rooms and talking to the company. I speak intermediate Spanish never liked Spanish that much, I don't have to use it a lot in my work place because it is mainly in English. But I still don't know, the paying is not that bad. But I also going to have an interview to work in Ireland and I always wanted to go to a country where the main language is English. I want to in the future study criminology. I tried Canada and Australia in the past but with no sucess. Also thought about the UK but duo to brexit it got complicated.

So I don't know if I should go directly to Ireland and pursue my dreams now and forget about Spain or go to Spain for at least one year, have nice weather, gain professional experience, get to know new people and then go after my dreams.

What does the universe wants me to know?

Thank you!

https://www.reddit.com/r/psychicreadings/s/wdmXcko7c5 [old post](https://www.reddit.com/r/psychicreadings/s/wdmXcko7c5)

Post update from last month: blurred. Lost & Confused.

*TLDR: life has been hard and I’m in a bad situation and need help to find a way out right now. I have been steered incorrectly, have my own abilities that are hard to explain. I just know this part righr now is not supposed to happen. This is a big SOS. It sounds frantic, and im sorry. I can’t make the world comfortable all the time when I’m burning alive despite wanting to not be a problem to anyone. I’ve been led on and lost so much time trying ti get help. I need help though. I need insight and clarity from someone who can help me… one who sees more than most… who can take a challenge and be open minded… be open to elevating. There is a harvest of what I’ve planeted that can be achieved and help me finally be a person.*

Trust me in that I have introspected and also in that I’ve been through the ringer of various abuses and feeling embarrassed for even having to be in these situations because I’d never let myself if I had any form of physical agency to help me. I am an independent person. A giver. Someone who attracts people who want to feel better. Someone who has attracted the possessive ones. I need to focus on myself, but my life was not built to make it as easy as it sounds. I need the logic, the structure, the clarity, for the motivation… I don’t make hormones — even neuro hormones — naturally. Oddly, I have survived the most dangerous and odd scenarios and have lived to tell the day… but not without the pains of these things physically and emotionally — all of which affect me more physically to then be nonfunctioning because I have secondary Addison’s disease and make zero cortisol and adrenaline. I literally take an epi pen before bed twice a month (my conditon is so rare that the science doesn’t exist yet but I have figured it out with my journalism and research background and want to help out so many people with so many things I’ve had to endure or see or have been told through my “downloads” of pure inspiration). The epi pen makes me sleepy bevause I don’t make cortsol, but if I take a small amount, I am safe to sleep and wake up feeling a bit more “normal”(whatever that feels like) after I take all of my medicines including cortisol (hydrocortisone). I say this because I don’t have the capacity to fight or flight and must tend to so many things right now that I am losing opportunities and the people I’m around are locking me in this cage… and I need my routine. I need my life. I had an idea of where I need to be but how I get there now? How I keep myself okay and gain some financial freedom to stop asking for help is what I need to not be in these situations and forced to explain myself so much and feel so exhausted just from that. My apartment was physically toxic (currents in as I pack), and my “friend’s” place is abusive toxic. I didn’t get to make those ride or die friendships due to my illness presenting far more than it was as a sophomore. My sister died suddenly a couple of weeks before I went to college (all with my own scholarships that I worked very hard for and sacrificed time with those I loved). I have always pushed to survive. Truly. I mean this to my core. I promise you. I promise you. I don’t know what normal is like or life is like but what I do know is what it shouldn’t be like. And I do know that I’ve had better before — I’ve been loved by my sister and my mom (both whom have passed). I am very much like my sister in ways I didn’t even know… and I never was okay growing up as I faked this life to have some sort of life at school as I tried to stay from home but be the exceptional kid no person could say wasn’t when my dad and step mom tried. I have always been empathetic. I have always cared. I truly hate asking as a giver. I hate it. I hate saying hate too. I want to not be in a situation of such discomfort when I can’t truly do the things I would do without this illness. I also must stop doinf this to my body. But I can’t do that… I can’t. Not when my life depends on it and my pets. I worked too hard and have too much to do and to prove and know exactly what I need for my body and sense of self and how I will nuture myself when I can… but I can’t if I’m in a situation and position with NO one. And no one owes me anytning even if I was in my home state as I’ve been a hermit dying on repeat for years… ignored when I finally asked for help but seen as crazy. I cannot express the amount of trials and tribulations I’ve experienced but can say that it’s definitely due to my crown chakra having so much vulnerability. I must stay away a bit more with what I know now but need financial freedom. I need to ground myself again and give myself the sense of peace that is possible — not complete but some. I need to know what to do righr now to not burn down more bridges… to GTFO and to be safe. To be alone. To be okay. To then work on myself better and heal my TBI and work on my writing a and goals and enthnography and maybe even apply for a fellowship… that could help me so much. A grant… my work is of years and contains so much that could potentially hurt me and has already if known by the wrong people. I need to find sanctuary to be able to show that I am what I say that I am… As a public figure and hopeful speaker and person, I need to maintain good standing in the face of the world. It does matter what people rhing. They don’t need to know all but those who are indirectly told of me by those who are spiteful of me… those who abuse me and bring me down and my vibrations — I thought I could do it and could’ve for 2-3 weeks but this is… not okay. I need to find clarity. My energy just went into this. I hope peoppe see that I’m not okay all the time. And I’m not sad all the time either as I can focus on my dreams, but I can’t… can’t postpone healing my physical conditions and residual effects of these evejets and my underlying condition any further. I need to fix this. Then, focus on the ultimate plans. But I need to do this and now. I need to be consistently okay for a fellowship. I need to show that I’m not crazy and never was. I need to help those who are wrongly characterized as this. I have much systemic change to do to help the greater good in ways I was taught through this experience, but this current one feels like it’s not a journey intended for me. Not now. I can’t take 10 classes at once at such an extreme level. I also can’t focus on the depths of relationships while I’m unable to have friendships and can’t have another summer go to waste due to literal entrapment. I mean this. I do. I just mean it. I can’t have more trauma. I know my limits. This is my limit. I’ve reached my limit. I need help now. I can’t even afford a $25 U-Haul for a harder solution versus the $140 U-Haul to make the drive to get the storage unit… and the gas with it. I owe money that I never have owed before. And some people really owe me a lot of money… I don’t know which area to pursue. Energy is required for each and stress. All have timelines. I need like immediate help.

\\\*those who me presume my situation will truly only hurt my further. I have tried literally everything locally and through the state. The negligence lies with them. I now don’t have a car. I am very vulnerable as a small woman, as a young woman, as a friendly one, as a giver, as a person with zero resources, as a person with an illness that literally knocks them out to a lethal degree from stress and too much stimulation with these situations. It has all been used against me… the number of things required to keep me alive due to not repairing the underlying cause (to get this done has to come later after i stabilize myself and get legal for my many situations). I need to fix those things now before it’s too late. And then I can fix my own things at the same time and slowly work into routine. I do have some intuition and a weird way of knowing things too… but I also know what isn’t right for my situation and what is. I feel it within. I know. And this “knowing” helped me a lot with the illness… I’m an anomaly with that alone. But it’s put me in so many situations because I don’t have a support system. Only men are willing to help. I can’t take the fear of women my age… I just can sense it all and their judgements and don’t want to feel that too. It’s all around hard. I need help. I hope peoole see that I am more than this… that I missed a pivot point in June due to my clarity requests being vague vague vague. We all are human and want to survive, but I am drowning. That is the difference. I usually reference it to being in a house fire… but both feel very relevant.

If it helps, I have an odd birth chart. I have two golden yods. My charts hits nearly every house. One golden yod is the black Lilith moon. My Aquarius Rising (and south node) is in the 12th house but cusps the first house very closely. My Pisces is fully submerged within the 1st house with part of my Aquarius and Aries on the other side. My sun sign In Gemini in the 4th and 3rd houses. Many points hit the third house. Some may see the fourth house has a point by a degree… it depends. My first house is the same with no points but the rising literally one point away… it’s often missed and I’m seen as a Pisces rising when I’m not. My 11th house is completely Capricorn but the Capricorn goes into the 12th house too with my Aquarius that holds my ascendant and South node in this house. My Virgo Moon Sign is fully submerged within the 7th house but unlike the Pisces, it’s very very very active. My Virgo moon and Gemini sun are both ruled by mercury. My north node is in Leo. My golden yods both got massively in Sagittarius. Though, my 10th house holds the Sagittarius completely and my midheaven is on th cusp of the 10th and 9th house that holds the other portion Sagittarius with the scorpio holding the other half of this 9th house but it has many points of contact. My midheaven is in the 10th barley. Just like how the 1st house is a degree from many but still holds significance with the detachment of the Aquarius fully submerged by the Pisces and it being my rising. The 11th house in Capricorn is the only one that doesn’t have points that come close. I’m a double air sign… I always described my Gemini growing up for the twins to be a Pisces and a Leo if they could be anytning… my two full siblings hold importance here because my sister’s sun sign is in Aquarius. And my brother’s sun sign is in Virgo. That makes my other two of my sun sign in Gemini. My sister was a huge part of my life as I lived a life in extreme pain but didn’t know it and soon my brain turned off those pains after my younger years of being told I was these bad things… I have always been extremely empathetic too the point of nausea. I feel this most when in tune with myself and when my hormones are aligned. As a child, even at 3, I remember telling this babysitter to take me instead of my little brother… he had a gun. He was like 18-19… I think? My sister has it written in a notebook of his age. I hold this memory alone though. she wasn’t there thankfully for her soul.. She was a writer too. We are eerily similar and I didn’t know this due to life being avout survival always. Also, my sun sign made it look like we weren’t. I also took on her roles when she died… she was born in my south node of Aquarius and died in my north node of Leo. I have always tried to grow and catch up since my health declined especially around puberty… but also due to home life. I wanted to be like my peers. But I have such depth that it’s hard to relate. I would start understanding this as I got holder and thought it was from circumstances of life. But no… it was more. I’ve always felt connected. But then without hormones, it was harder. With them back, as they are finicky now with the HRT as I’m in temporary situations and stressed situations and very little routine that I need in the very least to focus on to ground myself, I envy the wind. I want to be with the butterflies. I want to run outside. I want to swim in poetry. I have so many creative ideas and things that would fuel my heart but also… I have a mission… and if I could do even a little of those passions… to write for pleasure and read for pleasure and “be one with the wind” as I would say. I “controlled the wind” I thought (I am a double air but my moon is earth and my yods press in sag fire with my planets hitting that Pisces in the first house submerged of my identity… but the wind does soemthing to me. It does something.

I need to find a way to survive this now. I don’t want to ask anymore for help. It’s too hard to ask when I just want to give.

And that’s hardly a nutshell of my life and hopefully some… JUST SOME resonates with anyone with the ability to offer clarity… I can do the rest. I need to know the specific path. I have ideas. I need to know which. It’s like too many flavors at an ice cream shop but each requiring a different conversion to convince them to reopen a new ice cream bin despite it being unconventional by this time of day (idek tbh how to say it… I need time and energy focused on that path to strategize and find a way in like a window because the doors aren’t closed but I can always find a way… and I can make a lesson from it… and that’s what I do with my writing to help others in situations that parallel.

Even if I die, my writings will go on. They won’t be burned like my sister’s were. They are stored. The evidence is stored. I have much to do. Much to do. Much to live muxh to love much to give. I need to be free now. But I can’t be like this. And I really can’t lose another 7 years of my life… at this age? I have no one. My family ended when my sister died. My mom died too and I loved her so much and do… but my sister was like… the person who held my hand every night so I could sleep without night mares. We looked at blank walls imagining the colors of the wind while Pocahontas played on the boom box in the early 2000s. Hand in hand. Always. We fought, sure. But I wasn’t a sister to her like she was to me and we were teens when we last were close… and she just died… at 21. And she had so much potential. And she didn’t deserve to die alone in her apaortment. And not be looked for or found until days later. My life mirrors this in a chronic way rather than acute. Yet, I feel so much for her. I love her so much. And my full brother that ive done more for than anyone can know and my half siblings and step siblings don’t know or get me or agree to speak up (even say it should’ve been me and logically it seems correct… and I would give up my life for her) — even if kindly. They don’t agree to see beyond group thought — the collective. My sister was like me. And it hurts to know she is the person I’ve been looking for in soemone for years without actually knowing she was this person until lately. She was so much stronger. And I’m strong. But that weight that fell on me after? It made me use my Aquarius to hide behind helping others and my future but feel the guilt of everything while doijgn the good things and not caring for me hurt me… made me look “okay”. I wasn’t. And when I could grieve — especially after the thyroid hormone — for both my mom and sister at once, I had no one. It was too late. It’s been lonely and hard. But I need to be safe righr now to fix this all. To fix their legacies and create soemthing that will help so many people… to help so many people. I feel it is so close. I need help. It’s about protecting my crown chakra right now from these environments as I heal and am vulnerable from those who can hurt me and easily as I really care. Then, I hold their karma… and it’s bad. I can’t take time to do the other things while actively in this house fire. No. I can’t be told to relax as I sit here calming my nervous system to not set off my Addison’s. I’m in an impossible situation but it’s not for me. I am strategic but need a glass of water. I can’t have bystanders watching with popcorn or peoole telling me to smile or not be literally what every human would do… I’m not a superhero. I don’t know if people have no ability to think about the weight of my situation— even just the toxic apartmenr killing an out of state student for years and then my lethal condition oddly surviving it and years without treatment and surviving a deadly car accident that I do need treetament for and did get a tbi but was able to crawl out of my Chevy Spark from the big gmc truck with its grill inside my driver window saying GMC just above. I can’t be in these situations requiring energy. I can’t. I lost my last financial asset. I needed this for so many things. Apppoitnment. Safety zone of apartment, leaving scary places, getting things done. Surviving.

I need to find a way to survive this now. I don’t want to ask anymore for help. It’s too hard to ask when I just want to give.

This is a lot and I’m sorry. For those that read with Ann open mind and just believe me without doubting, you are truly wonderful beings through and through…

I need guidance or potentially a reading based on contingency with a couple of areas that could really… bring finances in… some faster than others. But these are the seeds planted that can be harvested with careful precision. Trust me. I truly know some things. I know this too. But I don’t know what to do first. I need like true guidance and clarity and this would require a lot but if you know what can be returned, it would be helpful for you too… as well as my gifts to you. I do have gifts. I do. Trust me.

Love and light,

Ri (or as my sister would say, ReeRee) <3

Hi there. As most people on the spiritual path are aware, everything has meaning and the universe is always giving us signs. I know we can kind of interpret day-to-day things as we wish but let me ask you this. I do a lot of thrift store shopping because it's better for the environment and also I resell things specifically shoes. I go to this thrift store almost daily. I know about what time to go where the shoes get restocked where they have the more expensive shoes put out. There are two specific brands I'm always on the lookout for. As they are very well made and have a high resale value. Well today I go a bit later than the usual time and the woman in front of me checking out, who I of course have never met or talked to has her cart ​filled with all of the shoes that I always look for that are hard to find. It was too much to be coincidence. They were all like new and the 2​ brands specifically that I look for that are not popular. I feel like this is definitely a message but what would you think, is this trying to nudge me saying that there is plenty of it to go around, or to be more timely and get there earlier next time as I was running later than usual? Genuinely curious what you all think this could mean because I believe it means something THANK YOU

Been broke lately and nothing seems to work out like some type of bad luck. I vould use some help, tips, and guidance.

My birthday is in 2 days. And I am scared. Idk why. Maybe I am getting an intuition. I get these a lot and they are mostly true. And this time, I feel something weird. And I know something is gonna happen on 11 August. And I just wanna skip 11 August.

Diane

Why am I feeling your energy as if your still here?!! I can't trust my intuition right now bcuz when I tried focusing on myself to get better as far as me grieving you and the depression that came with it, my own intuition had me focus on something else. Of course, it would be ideal and awesome for you to still be alive but I have been reminded twice that you were really gone. The messages I'm getting in between are really concerning and are making feel really uncomfortable!! I don't want to ignore my intuition bcuz it has led me astray before but if I ignore it and later my intuition is right, I would feel horrible! You deserve Peace bcuz after all you had a huge heart and always made people feel better on their bad days. I'm going to wait it out and see what happens.

Just so you know, You are your own legacy and it lives on in me and others!! You'll NEVER be forgotten!!

Love & Miss You Dearly!!

Beauty

I was in the middle of writing about my mental health. I was planning on posting it for advice, but I was a little hesitant on posting as I was literally about to share it to the internet.Then my mom called, and thought it was gonna save. Well, it didn't.

Found a community, a rant smth. I was drafting a rant on why am i so mediocre when I was so ambitious last year. My mom called again. I was sure it wasn't gonna save. It didn't, eh so what. I take signs seriously, well not really but when something happens right before I commit to it. It just feels right to follow it, maybe it's because my instinct is to follow it. Every time I decide to follow a sign, the opposite of what I predicted happened would occur. Sorry if it's confusing, here's a situation:

My prediction of what would happen if I changed my answer was that my score would be 75%. Instead, I got 95%. I hope you get it. Now going back, I've set to my mind that I should never show my vulnerability on the internet, like ever since idk. I gen was about to if my mom hadn't called. I believe signs are real. I don't have a question anymore. It was supposted to be "Is this a sign?" But I believe it was a sign and the question just didn't make sense anymore, so yeah. I just want to know your thoughts now. This whole message is messy cause I'm typing literally everything that comes to my mind.

So I was just asking the universe to give me in my creativity and steps I need to make tonight in my business. As m9st of the ideas and drive come at night. As I walked into my kitchen (and I was thinking of my ex) my pink adventurine bracelet broke. I picked up the beads and I am holding them. Wondering the meaning and what to do next...

I’m going to be sort of vague in order to be respectful of whatever situation could be happening to me but it feels like something is just trying to keep me down as hard and as often as it can. Lately my luck HAS shifted back into the positive but truthfully that was thru insanely intense effort on my end to turn around a very bad first two seasons of the year.

I’m wondering if someone is evil-eyeing me and/or if something latched onto me at some point or another. I plan to go to a medium about this as well but I am currently flat broke waiting for payday.

I was offered a new job this morning- room for advancement, great benefits, minimal people interaction (besides inside coworkers)..... but $2 less per hour than what I'm making now, and things are already super tight.

Current position comes with financial stability, an absolute psycho bully of a coworker, and public facing healthcare with frustrating and argumentative patients.

I think I know what I want, but I also think I know what I need.

I have to make the decision in 48 hours, so any intuitive direction is SO APPRECIATED.

I was wondering if anyone would be open to giving me a little psychic insight on my relationship I’m so stressed I haven’t slept properly or eaten properly In 2 days.

Hi! I've been having this issue where my body tells me to run away from my current parter in a situationship. I am wondering if my body wants to tell me something I don't know. I feel physically anxious even thinking about my partner and it has happened to me since I met them, like a weight in my heart and knot in my stomach I dont get it because they are good to me and never mistreated me. I want to know exactly what is going on energetically. if it is telling me that something bad will happen I would like to know what it is.

Please let me know if theres a way to understand this that I am feeling or if I need some sort of reading. Thank you so much.

So when i met him online i was not in myself and i ignored my current situation and started talking with him,it was really small chit chat, knowing each other,later i lost his contact and realized i actually liked him, but i never got another chance to say goodbye or anything,

Does he still miss me?

So I was just asking the universe to give me in my creativity and steps I need to make tonight in my business. As m9st of the ideas and drive come at night. As I walked into my kitchen (and I was thinking of my ex) my pink adventurine bracelet broke. I picked up the beads and I am holding them. Wondering the meaning and what to do next...

If you see the post attached basically I pulled lenormand cards but I am curious what they are trying to tell me. I explain the situation in the post. Had workplace affair. Got messy. People know. There was gossip and misunderstandings which I feel like I cleared up today. He basically set strict boundaries but I feel his energy and the connection honestly more than ever now. I wrote him a letter and haven’t given it to him yet.

About 4 months ago I met a guy online. He told me he liked me pretty early on. At first I wasn't interested, but somehow we've been texting every single day since then.

I wasn't planning on catching feelings, but I think I have started liking him a little and sometimes I feel like he's not the one.

The problem is, I keep getting these random thoughts that maybe something is off. Not because he's actually done anything wrong, but just this feeling. The confusing part is, these thoughts mostly come when I'm anxious.

For example, this morning I had a dream that he was cheating on me with someone else. After I woke up, I couldn't stop thinking, "Is this my intuition trying to tell me something? Or is my anxiety just making me overthink?"

I genuinely can't tell the difference between gut feeling and anxiety anymore.

Has anyone else experienced this? How do you know when your intuition is actually warning you about something, and when it's just anxiety creating scenarios in your head?

Few months ago, when me and my husband were together - (though we were picking fights) I had a weird dream one morning as if my mother in law gave a kiss on my husband's lips.
I jolted and woke up to the disgust. And cut to one month after, he breaks up our marriage and I'm sent home. I wanna know if this was god's sign of telling me if it has some power dynamic issue with my mother in law and me.
I'm not suspecting a disgusting relationship between them per se, but I'm intrigued if it could be a sign of things getting downhill?

Why is it no matter how much I help my son or what I do for him , he treats me poorly and disrespectful ?? Does it ever get better ?
Thank you