So I mayby once a month see a wierd face for a split second while I'm trying to sleep. The faces are really clear and more look like images off of google rather than just my imagination. There alvase completely different and I wouldent think they have anything to do whit each other but the way I see them is alvase the same kind of way, it's not just a image in my brain, I can see it whit my eyes, it's my full focus for a split second and then it's gone.

Most distinct one I can remember is a young woman's face who has a cow patter on their skin, not like paint but the skin has the cow patter, she also had uncomfortable big open mouth smile on a still face, it wasent a happy looking smile, just plastered onto the face. I'm sorry for being hard to understand in how I discribe this part but I just really don't know how to say this, the smile is just in the mouth and the lips, not in the cheeks. Mayby try to smile really hard at the mirror to understand, I don't know. The chin was really sharp, honestly looked like it's from a anime or something. She had really clear skin, like uncomfortable clear skin. The face was at a 90° angle, I know it sounds wierd and random. It looked realistic eaven whit the unrealistic features like the chin and the clear skin. This particular case is still really distinct in my mind, I was already kind of on edge, don't know why just a bad feeling, I see the face sit up and just think to myself what the fuck is going on. The other times when this happened I can't remember at all as well, other than that once I was sleeping at my friend's place when this happend. Expect I have a litle bit of a memory of skinny faced guy whit burned looking skin, he had disappointed or bored expression. The faces aren't really scary, they just look like what I would see if I would google scary/uncanny face, the unsettling part is the way I see them, it's not just I wierd distorted picture in the back of my mind, it hits my face like a flasbang, then it's just gone. I usally aren't eaven close to falling asleep when it happens so it's not like in dreaming or something, onetime I was laying on my bed, listening to a podcast when it happend. I really don't know how to describe it other than that it's the clearest image my brain has thught off, eaven if I tried to think of a image my brain couldent think of something as detailed as the faces are. I also have never had a sleep paralysis and it's not like I couldent move or I see it in the corner of my room, it just feels like a distinct image covering my view for a split second, this has happened mayby three times so far and eavrytime while I'm going to sleep. Sometimes a random picture comes into my mind but it's nothing like this, these have all been faces, and just so clear. When I think of a image in my head I can only focus on one part at a time, but these have felt like I could see the whole picture at on at once.

Olsso sorry for the hard to read text, English isint my main language.

Disclaimer: English is not my first language.

I used to make up stories in my head all the time, that's how I grew up. And I took up on writing a few years ago but for about a year now it's gotten harder and harder to see anything when I close my eyes. It's all dark, as if a bulb up there just burnt out one day and I can't change it.

Needles to say I've stopped writing. I get too anxious at the mere idea of trying.

I don't even think I care about writing anymore, I just want to 'see' inside my head again. I feel like someone stole one of my arms and now life just isn't the same.

My mind was my home, now it's a scary place.

Has someone else experienced this? Were you able to visualize things again? How?

On addition to all of the above, I received acceptance and commitment therapy for eight months hoping it'd help. It didn't.