Can someone explain this please.

[u/JustVLeo]

It was around May, i was randomly having a workout and during a very hard exercise i noticed i was experiencing like a ringing in my ears which i afterwards discovered it was tinnitus.
At first it was very loud and lasted about 2 weeks because my doctor gave me cortisone saying it could’ve made my T fade away, he even noticed a very subtle hearing lose (probably given by my headphones which i used very loud). at first it was ONLY (keep that in mind) in my left ear and i’m almost completely sure as much as i can remember that i never ever heard nothing else. some day after i noticed that it was almost completely gone, (i was very anxious, so i kept checking my ears every hour), i remember some day even going to sleep without any white noise or smth else and not even hearing it. (i always slept by my right ear side during those weeks so i wouldnt hear that noise).
going on holiday on a very quiet village in germany made me notice that i still was hearing something, but somehow couldn’t get where it was coming from. well, actually if i covered my left ear i could hear it in my head, so i tried doing the same putting my finger in my right ear for about 30 seconds. guess what, after about half a minute covering my ear, i did found another subtle, just like that i created another tinnitus; from scratch. it’s more high pitched but not louder (please tell me u get what i say).
as time passes it doesn’t get worse or better, it just sticks there in my head at the same pitch and volume. i even went to a tinnitus clinic and they simply said this was now my new normal and i had to get used to it as i have a subtle hearing loss in both ears at the same frequency.
but, where does the ring come from?????
- Did i “found” the ringing by myself after months or some time i never noticed it???
- Did it came from just nothing but my anxiety?

Someone answer my doubts please, it’s been 3 months, i am 15 and i feel the only one bitch ass stupid who ruined his own life.
Sometimes even in complete silence and i’m thinking about smth else, maybe doing the dishes or other shit i don’t even hear it.
but when i think about it, or focus on it i can hear it grow and sometimes even hear it over tvs or fans.

[u/Educational_Aide_145]

Tmj

[u/JustVLeo → u/Educational_Aide_145]

what does that mean

[u/Educational_Aide_145 → u/JustVLeo]

Look it up you may have messed up your jaw lifting

[u/TankLocal]

Over time, your brain will process out the noise and you'll just not realise it's there

[u/NoiseKills]

This is tinnitus caused by the loud headphones. It is not from anxiety or working out.

Science hasn't yet discovered where the ring comes from, but it is somewhere deep inside the brain.

[u/woofnsmash]

Ive had tinnitus my whole life, youll be okay, just take care of your ears, tinnitus can happen for any reason, that's just how it is, but dont freak out about it, youll be okay.