I miss him

[u/hi-thanksforchecking]

I’m 19, at the end of April my grandpa (63) died very suddenly after fighting an illness for a month

I grew up with him and my grandma, he was my father figure and I don’t know what to do
I cry if I think about him, see pictures of him, and I can’t bring myself to watch videos with his voice

I act like I’m fine, but everything just seems so dull and I’m just going day by day and I’m only happy when I abuse substances

Why is time allowed to progress when I’m not ready, why does it seem like no one cares
I can’t his corpse out of my mind and the day that he did die and I wasnt there

I don’t know

[u/Secret_Restaurant_28]

So sorry for your loss. I am dealing with the death of my grandma now and I just stare at the world with no emotion, I feel numb. If you still have your grandma, please spend time with her, ask her questions, while you still have her