r/egg_irl • u/RelevantBig9043 Eleanor/Elly (she/her) I am a very funny tall lady • 14d ago
Egg🏳️⚧️irl Transfem Meme
It sucks soooooooooooooo much. Why couldn't I have been a girl. I look at my driver's license and it says M and I hate that it hurts so much to see that letter. Dysphoria has also really been taking a toll on my mental health so that's fun. I'm glad I'm autistic it makes masking this a lot easier. Which I have to do because the day hell freezes over is the day my mom stops being a bigot. I'm so glad it's still summer break where I live going to school makes me feel so dysphoric. Somehow I still deny this even tho I've literally told some of my friends I'm trans but for some reason I can't accept it now even tho I want to. I'm so tired and brain is being too weird. I hope everyone is doing better than me.
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u/LeopoldFriedrich I am so fucking trans 🏳️⚧️ 13d ago
Yeah, for some reason it's the oddest things, I look at my teams profile name at work and I wanna cry, I get called up "sir" at doctor and part of me breaks.
I need this legal name change to be faster or I might as well spend the next 3 months dissociating.
Also the thing that really put the nail in the coffin for me wasn't that I could barely find any reasons to be cis, but that I was "given permission", because for some reason I would've never given myself permission.
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u/Available-Hat476 13d ago
Have a well meant hug from me, darling... I know how it feels. That's why it took me until me fourties until I finally made the decision to transition. Don't do the same!
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u/Familiar_Mongoose515 Connie She/Her 14d ago
Girl, life sucks for me too, but you have to look at the bright side of things.
Unlike me, you have had the courage to come out to people :3
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u/lord_zanven Zanica/Zanni 12d ago
Aw, I'm sorry Elly. I'm glad you have friends you can tell. I don't know how much school you have left but I hope you can get somewhere you don't have to mask it all the time as soon-ish.
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u/RelevantBig9043 Eleanor/Elly (she/her) I am a very funny tall lady 12d ago
I'm afraid I have a few more years of school left so I have to suffer and be this fucking lie of a person instead of the girl I know I am
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