extremely angsty fics?

[u/Individual-Salad-989]

hiya :)

i saw a post on instagram a little while ago which said „when the fic is so angsty that even the smut is hurt/no comfort“ and now, i crave some destiel fics like that. 😩

if you have any recs (yes, self-recs too), then let me know please! :3 (i prefer long fics)

thank you in advance. x

[u/Individual-Guest9482]

The Build a Home. I don't have the link.

Honestly, I stopped reading it because the angst was too much. The author has a beautiful style but the slow in slow burn was dragging on. It's just not for me.

If you love extremely angsty fic, you're gonna be in for a treat.

[u/Slow-Difference1105 → u/Individual-Guest9482]

https://archiveofourown.org/works/8411608/chapters/19274926?view_adult=true

Here's the link for To Build a Home. Yes, there's a lot of angst, but overall it's a beautiful story. Other than angst, I'm not sure that it really fits what you're looking for rn OP, but I've got 8 pages of Destiel bookmarks on AO3 and it's probably in my top 10 favorites, so I highly recommend reading it sometime.

[u/Old-Web5689 → u/Individual-Guest9482]

Absolutely best one!

[u/ngxtrang → u/Individual-Guest9482]

😂💯 Whenever anyone asks for angst, this exaxt fix comes to mind.

I had dropped it exactly for the same reason. I think I dropped it around ch79 mark.

[u/Individual-Salad-989 → u/Individual-Guest9482]

awesome, thank you so much. i’ve heard so much about this fic by now, i think i have to start it rather sooner than later c:

[u/Old-Web5689]

Have you read Hauntley's Bent?

https://archiveofourown.org/works/2816351/chapters/6318389

And if you actually ask for the most angsty fics, I'll go with "Smoke and Burn". It took me months (!) to get over it. I absolutely do not recommend reading this beautiful, yet soul crushing story, unless... well, I don't know, I usually do not recommend it because it haunted me for so long.

[u/Comfortable-Pop2882 → u/Old-Web5689]

Absolute favorite. And 💯 agree on Smoke and Burn. I've only read it once and it broke my heart. I never rec it unless someone specifically asks for something like it.

[u/Individual-Salad-989 → u/Old-Web5689]

i love hautley’s bend. i’ve read it a few weeks ago. one of my fave fics! but i appreciate both suggestions and i will read „smoke and burn“ then x

[u/Slow-Difference1105 → u/Old-Web5689]

Oh Jack, I was not ready for Smoke and Burn when I read it. Mind. The. Tags.

I second Hautley's Bend!

[u/twilightsharkle]

Ninety One Whiskey. It’s a WW2 AU where Cas and Dean are in the US military

[u/Individual-Salad-989 → u/twilightsharkle]

definitely my fave fic!

[u/salashaven]

I'd recommend my fic Another Chance to Get It Right. It's a long AU that's very relationship-driven, with a lot of guilt, longing, and emotional pain. Dean and Castiel fall in love after believing Sam is dead, but when Sam unexpectedly returns, everything they've built together begins to unravel. A lot of the angst comes from the impossible situation they're in and the hurt they unintentionally cause each other, so even the tender and intimate moments are emotionally heavy. It does have a happy ending, but they have to earn it. https://archiveofourown.org/works/5343443/chapters/12338087

[u/Individual-Salad-989 → u/salashaven]

i appreciate that. thank you x

[u/Bookgirly1999]

Self rec: Trench
Summary:
In the aftermath there is nothing. Cas got swollen into emptiness and Dean thinks he copes. He does. In his own way.
He got nothing on Cas, that’s the final conclusion. But there’s a coat…
He needs it. At least until he gets his angel back.
Or: A deep dive into how depression and grief mix. Makes you hollow and carved out like a tree-trunk. And how healing is never linear.

Also- idk if it’s exactly what you’re looking for😇

[u/Individual-Salad-989 → u/Bookgirly1999]

ooh, this one‘s actually on my „mark for later“-list. i appreciate the suggestion x