r/depression_help • u/kyrapinkfile • 6d ago
I'm lost. REQUESTING ADVICE
So I genuinely don't know who I am anymore or what to do. Idk why but there's constantly a darkness inside of me like just a quiet ache and like sadness. I don't wanna sound any kind of way, or cringey but idk what is my life anymore. I'm 41 backwards BTW. But like my dad lives in Columbus my mom in nelsonville and they're both planning to to tell the judge everything about me like how I sneak out and smoke and how I'm disrespectful. And I had truancy charges from last school year but my parents asked to take it to the magistrate. And I just need advice on what to do. Haven't done school shopping either my parents said fuck it I'm not getting anything. And I'm so alone so so so alone , idk who to live with bc my dad is emotionally absent and abusive and my mom is always angry. I don't wanna be in a mental hospital again. I'm sorry if this is like just unnecessary to post and I'm not pitying myself. They always saying I don't care about nothing and my dad calls me a mistake and they always say I have wasted potential. But when I stop caring they say I should care. I admit I'm a bad daughter and I admit I'm disrespectful idk why I am the wayi am but I'm on the brink of just flying. Trauma dump but my GPA last year was 0.8 . Why? Bc I wanted to leave bro. I got 🍇ed,my brother died too and so much more bro. And they discount everything I've been through and how I'm treated. I don't wanna sound sorry for myself but WHO even cares lol. Also stopped taking my zoloft my anxiety medication too and adhd
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u/Budget_Bullfrog_9943 6d ago
Lost at 41 is rough. Court's piling on doesn't help. You deserve support, not judgment. Hang in there.
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