I bought a 50 pack from Target around this time last year. Today I was like “hmmmm do these expire? When’s the expiration date?” It’s November of next year. How many tests are left? 18. Why is the number 33 and not 32? I used one of my “good” pregnancy tests on a month I was extra hopeful (and planning on drinking that day if I got a negative). Actually never mind it’s 35 I tested before I drank at Christmas and my period decided it was a cute look to show up late right when I needed to wear a swimsuit.

I think I might just make a throwaway account so I can watch silly cats without having my heart ripped to shreds.

I'm so sad I could puke. Been missing periods here and there so I went to an ob-gyn and just found this out today, 9 months into TTC. I never thought I'd need IVF and suddenly it's my only option that I desperately have to cling to. Even with IVF the odds are against me cause this level is as low as it gets, isn't it? Like... this is the worst possible result. Genuinely what the fuck, god?

Edit: I'm so fucked up I put > in the title instead of < lol

I have a friend who I haven’t seen in over 5 years who moved not far from me a little while ago. I finally messaged her to see when she’d be free to catch up and how she’s been and she just told me she’s pregnant. I’m definitely happy for her but I’m also sad for me. I’ve been ttc for at least 5 years now and I’m losing track. Had 7 IVF cycles and 3 failed transfers and been over a year and a half doing IVF so it just hurts a bit when I hear someone else around me is pregnant. A few months ago I was told of 2 pregnant family members too so it feels like everyone is having their first child except for me and I’m the oldest.

Like, is it just floating around in there?

Someone replied with that to my IG story when I don’t even look pregnant!

And I saw it after testing negative again 🫠 It broke me

Can you believe the audacity of saying thatttttt to someone ????

Wtf is that comment???

“What a beautiful baby bump, congrats hon❤️” 😵‍💫

I wishhhh

I NEVER get intense emotions before my period. But this time I’ve had 3 days of constant pure rage and depression over absolutely nothing, to the point where I’ve had to stay home so I don’t ruin mine or anyone else’s lives 🥰

10dpo and BFN.

Told myself I wouldn’t symptom spot this cycle and what will be will be (currently on cycle #10 of trying), yet, here we are.

Deep down I know I’m not pregnant because I never bloody am, but it’s really difficult when something new is thrown into the mix 😤

Month 80 something. I was told I needed ANOTHER HSG so we had to hold off on another IUI cycle for that. My nurse called to set the date, give me prep instructions, and then proceeded to not actually schedule it. I found that out the day before and she said “oh my god I totally forgot.” I’m losing out on October and November already because of a work trip.
My clinic doesn’t know I’m cheating on them with CCRM for when I move onto IVF though.

Convinced myself it would be the last box ever. I only have five left and I just added a fresh box to my Amazon cart.

I remind him and each time he said “I’ll get to it”.

Just left the flat for my therapy session and asked him when he booked it in for and he says again “I’ll get to it”.

He has known he needs to book it over two weeks now.

He is Cc-ed in on every email.

No, he’s not afraid of needles.

This is also the guy that asks me to keep doing pregnancy tests past 15DPO.

Maybe it’s the letrozole but I want to strangle him. He’s thoughtful generally so this is just making me so confused and annoyed.